Sunday December 18th Diary

13:30 finally up.
In living room chair...
Sort old bills and mail...
Then sitting at the desk top, paying bills,  doing some mail-ordering.

Merry ordered pizza from Domino's   for which Stitch had received a 20-dollar gift card.
Stitch, Babyman, & I went and fetched it.
All the curb was clear in front of our house when we left.
On our return, all of 30 minutes later,  all spots in front were taken by two large pick up trucks.
I parked in the driveway.
Inside, we served ourselves, and in BR2  watched
three eps of  Ash vs Evil Dead
three eps of   Blunt Talk.

Sleep  22:30 

Tuesday Nov 15th Diary

at work
Quiet in Hollywood

Watched  TWW 3:8  -- 15

Out 6:09
06:15 rolling
6:37  12.2 miles  (halfway)
6:56  23:9  miles (off the freeway at LBB)
7:01 home
Fed animals
MDM   pieces of pork, one of chicken n rice.
Decided against daily viewings of TRMS when I have  13 hours of other shows on DVR.
Watched  "Blunt Talk" and "Kevin can Wait".
8:30 tried to sleep.
Very fitful.  Awake and asleep   etc.
I remember one dream that involved a three way relationship that involved  "CallmeMike" and my girlfriend before Merry (FLF) and me.  
17:05 alarm off, up.
Tlt;  showered, dressed; fed cats, prepped
Kissed Her goodbye

Rolling  17:52.
The nightly contest on KNX featured the question "What year did The West Wing premiere on tv?"  In spite of watching some 7 or 8 episodes a night at work, I did not know.
Price of gas down to  2.36/gal
18:15   12.3 mile mark
18:47   21.8 mark, off at SMB
19.05  At work   24.8 m

Easy enough at work, but I did most of the work to be done, while Denny half-dozed, upright in his chair.

Started on  TWW 3:16. 

Sunday November 6th Diary

Awake and asleep, awake and asleep.
Stomach giving me fits and pains.
11:30  Alka/S
15:00 Alka/S  Tlt and trying to stay awake
Coffee...   started Sunday paper
17:00 the Circus
 17:30   Gotham
18:30  Lucifer
19:30  dinner ...Beef stew
19:45  Ash vs Evil Dead
20:15  Blunt Talk
Sunshine feel asleep around 20:00
20:45  Scorpion
  Sunshine awake 21:45 or so
Life in Pieces
Better Things
  2300  to sleep.

Sunday Oct 30th, Diary

Up 04:00 toilet n trail mix; 
Up 9:45  alka/s .   coffee...
Gathered Laundry.
Laundry in car, with Stitch, to laundry mat...
All in one washer,  sat reading newspaper.
Done in 45 minutes, returned home.
Stitch put first load in dryer.
Sat in chair to finish paper.
Nap in chair.
Stitch brought first load in from dryer: I helped fold and put it away.
13:30 started on Agents of Shield
14:30 Criminal Minds.
 brought in 2nd load, folded and put it away
15:25 Watched Code Black
16:15 watched American Horror Story
Brought in final load, folded and put it away.
17:10 watched Better Things
18:00  Life in Pieces.
Got up to go to kitchen, and cube a package of meat, in prep for beef stew, sometime.
Watched Comic Book Men  then The Circus.
Dinner:  pork chops n rice.
Watched Ash vs Evil Dead, then Blunt Talk, then Shameless, then Elementary.
To sleep 23:15
Awake, 00:30, in time to help Sunshine with ointment on her bad shoulder.

Friday Oct 28th Diary

at work
Watched  TWW 7:14 and 7:15.
"Thing 2" was working along side me, scheduled til 02:30; while Al and his trainee were working in the big room.   
I expected a nutso morning at home.... anticipating taking Stitch to work if it rained, then Merry to  PT....so when Thing 2 offered to finish my shift, I accepted.
Out 2:41
Home 3:18.
Dinner consisted of finished off the frying pan of rice that was on the stove, and reading Thurs' paper.
I slept in the easy chair in the living room, til Stitch woke me up around 6, saying, 'No rain, I'm biking it to work' and so I moved.
7:45 UP.
Helped Sunshine get ready 
Car 8:20
Arrived at the Lakewood address around 8:30.
We went in, checked in, filled out paperwork.
Left around 10.
Stopped at MC's because she wanted a pie,  then at Von's.  
Home, 11:ish.
She bought 3 selfie-salads, and I ate the 1/2 of one that she didn't, with chips. and we watched TRMS from Thursday.
12:30 to sleep
17:30 awake...
Watched TRMS-Friday.
Dinner    homemade-by-her chili,  and chips.
Watched Ash vs Evil dead, Blunt Talk, Kevin Can Wait
Sleep 2130.

Sunday October 16th Diary

up ... up ... up
09:00 UP   tlt
Coffee... read the Sunday paper seated in living room chair
TLT
Dressed
In car 
Off to Walmart to fetch all of Merry's prescripts.
Got gas on the way home.
Merry and Stitch were watching some movie.
I sat in LRchair and on my tablet watched three episodes of The West Wing  (4:23, 5:1, 5:2)
Lunch...quesadillas.
In the BR2 with the two of them, watched  Agents of Shield. Better Things.
Then the movie Deadpool
Then The Circus.
Merry started on dinner:  bbq sauce covered chicken  n rice.
Watched two repeats of TBBT
Dinner was served
Watched   Ash v Evil Dead, Shameless,  Blunt Talk,
Elementary
Helped Merry get ready to sleep
00:00 to sleep.

Sunday October 9th Diary

UP 01:30  then 05:30   
10:00 up.... toilet
coffee...sat at computer desk
Updated diaries, paid some bill.
Cleaned out briefcases for work
Calendar notes.

Back into BR2..
Watched the SNL skits about the candidates
Red the Sunday paper
Watched
  Criminal Minds
   Code Black
  Better Things
  A bit of a break, watched TWW 7:1 on my tablet
THEN Debate #2
Dinner   pulled pork on sopas
 Watched
  Ash vs Evil Dead
  Blunt Talk
  Shameless
and to sleep  22:00 

Sunday October 2, Diary

0100 up to pee and 0300  and 0500
and awake ish
7:15 alarm
UP   toilet  alka seltzer  fed cats  toilet
showered n dressed...prepped...
Kissed Merry good bye
car 8:06
Gas   11.42 gal  at $2.54
Stopped for e-cig filters in Hollywood
Arco  $2.84;  Shell 3.12;  Mobil  3.10
At work  8:52.

A slow day.  Jewish New Year, ya know

Watched TWW 5: 9--12
out 18:55
HOme 19:48
Fed the cats....
Watched  "The Circus", 
Red Sunday's paper.
Watched "Ash vs Evil Dead", "Blunt Talk"
Talked to the owner of our house about what to do now that the three year lease is up.
Dinner    steak n onions n potatoes.
22:00 to sleep.

Oct. 25th, Sunday Diary A.D. 1

writer's note: this is being composed one week after the events took place....

Once we realized that 'playing' was out of the question, we decided to head home .  
She drove...
Arriving, I limped inside, went into BR1.
And watched  "Blunt Talk" season finale, followed by "Guardians of the Galaxy" ..animated.  
    to sleep  02:45.
6:45 I woke up to pee, and thought I'd see what was in the kitchen...
The pain was so much, I passed out or fainted in the kitchen.
I think I was conscious enough to catch myself from falling hard, but I do remember opening my eyes, flat on my back in the kitchen, and thinking about how cool it was there, and if I had a pillow, I could just stay there.
I managed to get up and get back in the bedroom.
I told a half awake Merry what happened, and She said, "I thought I heard some kinda thump in there."

More sleep...
Then up noonish, She served coffee and toast...
My ankle had swallen to base ball size.
We decided to go to a hospital, to at least get it xrayed.
I let DB aka 'supervisor' know that, me coming to work today was ... well, not happening...
and off we went.
In general, the hospital was a case of hurry up and wait..
But, not like I/we had anything else  to do.
We were at the same hospital that Merry's #2 was in, so during one waiting period, I sent Her off to go visit him.
I had brought both Sundays' papers, so I was prepared, but I was having trouble staying awake.
Around 1530, with a disc of x-rays in hand, and a splint on my ankle, and supplied with a pair of crutches, I was discharged.
We stopped at "In and Out" on the way home, because I had a ten dollar gift card, and I got a protein style burger (no bun) and fries and I don't remember, some soda.
I declined to eat in the car, like Merry does, and I waited til She was done.
We went home...
I went into BR1 and ate and read the papers, and watched tv, football, I think..
Nap   1700 to 20000
Dinner was leftover stir fry.
And we watched  CSI Cyber starting at 23:30 ....

Oct 18, Sunday, Diary

Watched "Blunt Talk"
Watched TNR  1:7
Trying to sleep  01:30.

06:00 up to pee and get a snack...peanut butter...

Around noon, She started in with some sexual play to which I was a passive participant.  I did not engage, mostly because I didn't think She wanted me to.   She also said, She did not 'cum' as a result.

13:45 I got up , to toilet, and brought my laundry in, and started putting it away.
She lay on the bed talking.... then crying.
I got on the bed next to Her and let Her cry...  as She talked about Her emotional challenges.
And asked about...getting away for a few days.
I was good with it, and She got up to work on it.
I took a shower, and dressed, and used the toilet two more times, kind of a  first-day-before-work-week ritual, totally evacuation my bowels....
She showed me where She wanted to go, and She called the person that She planned to visit, who told Her, "Come on up!"
I kissed Her good bye, and departed....   1517.
At work  16:06.

Set up for Monday...   easy enough.
Taking care of SUnday night's work...easy enough.
..exchanging texts with Merry as She drove alone on Her 3 to 4 hour car trip, easy enough...

My partner at work decided to walk to the liquor store at 21:59, one minute before we, in dispatch, get rez calls as the rez department closes for the night...and I got bombed... for all of 10 minutes.
Then my partner asked to leave 30 minutes early, at 2300 instead of 23:30.... okay by me.

Meal log...
 0600  peanut butter,out of the jar...

584  H  s l Sx
755   H s my l O
417  H  s last fun for Her or me
241 hr  UN
584  H s HER l O
326  D s l cig
86   D  gluten free
37 1/2   D s Her l Date
15   D  since last P or M

10.12 Monday Diary

Dealt with the idiocy in Denmark, got on email that said, "all is good, we're having trouble with our phones, but driver is on location..."   etc
Munched on popcorn and rice cakes...
Watched TNR  2: 3,4,5,6,7,8 and 1/2 of 9.
Out 6:31, car 6:38, home 7:17.
Feed animals...
Dinner, leftover chicken and rice.
Watched "Blunt Talk" and "Guardians of the Galaxy" while Merry slept.
Sleep, myself, 8:40.
Up 13:30, to pee.
16:30, snack of peanut butter (out of the jar).
17:30 up... pee, showered, dressed, pills...toilet...
Talked to Merry, who was complaining of pain,  left side of her chest, left shoulder, down her left arm...
Kissed her good bye, 
Car 18:23.
Started thinking about what She said...
At a stop light, sent Her a text  "...Heart attack symptoms..."
Her reply basically said, "Not exactly...."
At the office, 19:08, and went in, to the toilet.
Came out to the office, and Lead on Duty said, "Call your wife."
I did, and Merry said, She decided to call 911, and an ambulance was on the way, as maybe it is a heart attack.
I went back in the dispatch office, and told the guys what was going on, and the two said, in so many words, get going...back home.
19:28 I was back on the road, heading for home, waiting for word as to which hospital She would be taken too.
Stitch called while I was southbound 710, and said, "L.R.M.C.H
with enough time that I easily made the transition to the 91 east,  and exit Downey.
I arrived at the place about 20:15, and went in.\
The emergency room was so busy...at least the waiting room... that it reminded me of "Code Black".
It took me 15 --20 minutes to get anybody's attention, to let me in, to get back to the bed She was in...
So I got back there, and She was resting, there with Stitch.
She had 2 EKGs done, was givin NGLy and aspirin...  later some other pain killer whose name I did not catch... 
And was still complaining, even crying...from the pain.
The RN returned and gave Her a shot of morphine.
She was still complaining, as She fell asleep.

Meal log:
02:00 popcorn, rice cakes
08:00 baked chicken, rice 

440 H  s l S
611 H s m l O
273  H s last Fun (Her or me)
97 H  UN
440  H s Her l O
320  D s m L ci
80  D  gluten free
31 1/2  D  s Her last D
9 D  s l P or M

10.08 Thursday Diary

07:40 up showered dressed
Car 8:15    Gas, $10,  LBCH to pick up Merry, then off to our own doctor appointments.
 Then 'far' Walmart to drop off Her new rx,  then back to LBCC.
I visited a few minutes, left Her there, and went on my way...
To Walmart to pick up Her rx, and home...
After prepping, went outside to start trimming the bougainvillea that was growing out and over the sidewalk...again.
Stitch came out to start clean up while I trimmed,  and once I finished trimmed, I helped with clean up until done.
Inside, I showered, and dressed.
And went into BR1 to start watching...catching up on... tv shows stored on the DVR.
"Agents of Shield"
 "Gotham"  three episodes
"Blunt Talk"
 Merry called, asking me to come get Her from LB Memorial, ...
 which I did, and took Her to LB Comm, to get Her car, and I followed Her home.
Plenty of leftovers in the fridge for dinner, I had pork chops and rice.
Back in BR1...
watched  "Guardians of the Galaxy"
  "Doll and Em"
"Scorpion"
 I undressed as did She, I unlocked it, and we showered together, and went to bed...
and talked.
and watched to eps of  "Big Bang Theory"
  and to sleep  00:30

344 h s l S
515  h s l O
177  h s l fun (Her or me)
11D 9 H   Locked
1    H  unlocked
344  H s Her l O
316  d s m l C
76  D  gluten free
27 1/2  d s H l date
5  d  s last p or m

Meal log:
21:00  Pork and rice   

9.23 Wednesday Diary

A very quiet night.... I found out earlier that Yom Kippur had started at sundown the night before....

Watched The Newsroom  1:10,  and 2:1

Merry called me, hysterical..
I thought I heard  "You need to come home now..."
I told Her I could NOT come home "now" if I wanted to keep this job...
She finally managed to tearfully explain that my beloved 14 year old chihuahua Cookie was dead...  Merry found her, floating in the swimming pool....She must have gone out the back doggy door, and ... fallen in.

In between my own tears, and trying to not think about it for now, 
watched  2:2, 2:3, 2:4.

Morning dispatch came  in, as was a driver at the window, while I was looking at a link on FB that Merry had sent me for the Rainbow Bridge.   I had tears in my eyes, enough for the driver and the dispatcher to ask me what was wrong...

Out 7:48.
Home 8:53.
Let the dogs out, fed the animals... 
Went into the back yard, to open the bag and look at Cookie one last time, and started crying.
Put her back in the bag, went into the bedroom, and cried some more, as Merry pulled me down to hold me.
Finally up again.
We knew we had to do something with ... the body...it was quite warm...so we called around for pricing...
Settled on a place in Gardena...
We got up and dressed.
I put the bag, that contained Cookie, wrapped in a towel, laying on her special bed, in the back of the car.
Merry drove, off we went.
Place had a confusing layout, but we figured it out, and we know what to do when we come back, when they call and tell us to pick up the ashes.
Home, I exchanged texts with my ex-girl friend, the one who originally brought Cookie home to us, some 13 years ago, to let her know what happened.
Then it was time to get something to eat.
And I watched  two episodes of "You're the Worst" and two episodes of "Blunt Talk".
And slept from  14:30 to 20:00.

Up  to eat dinner...

back to sleep 22:00.

153  hrs s l sex, Her or me
131   hrs s l 'fun', Her or me
78   hr Locked 
153  hrs  s H l DO
301  D s l Ci
61   D   Gluten free
12 1/2  D s H last Date
40   D   s last P or M

9.06 Sunday Diary

01:00 awake...
5:00 awake...
10:00 awake, laying on the bed with morning wood, as Merry walked in, noticed it...  went down on it .... then She got on the bed and straddled me...  then rolled onto Her back, and I got on top of Her...  we engaged in some in-out...but She said, She was not cummin' and neither was I, and we stopped.
A bit of a doze..
Then She pulled the church paddle out of the drawer next to Her and looked at me...
I pulled down my shorts and got OHL.... 
She applied a rapid 50 or so swats of it to my buttocks.

We watched the two episodes of "Sex & Drugs & Rock & Roll" that She had not yet seen, followed by "Blunt Talk".
It came up again, so some oral for Her, more in-out.
  During which time Stitch knocked on the door... then opened the door, and quickly closed it.
She came a few times this time, but not me.
We discussed chastity, for me, as in "when are we starting again" and I said, "Today, if you want" ...and She ... wanted.
She got up, to get ready, to take Stitch and Bullfrog to BFs storage unit and tote some stuff back.   
As they left, I got up ..
Toilet, and shower, and ..
Locked it up...

Dressed...
Made coffee... wrote up some notes..  back to toilet...
In car 1425
At work  1506.
Night work...all but done.
Doing set up for the next day:  94 rides... 29 before 1300, the rest later...which sucks, a lot.  Gonna be a lot of farmin'.

11   H s l S
82   H s l O
12   H s l Fun/ Her AND me
578  H un
10    H Lock
11   H s H l O
284 D s m l Ci
44  D  Gluten Free
668  H s Her l D
23 D  s l P or M

8.29 Saturday Diary

Just 
  feeling  
   crappy ...
  A pain in my stomach that would not let up....
  Trying to sleep in a house that would not cool down....

  Sleep and awake
 Sleep and awake...

Dinner..... beef stew....

watched "Sex & Drugs & Rock & Roll"
 watched "Blunt Talk" ...
  and sleeping....

We talked about going to the 'big' party at BoD...
 I just could not get up for it, I just did not want to move.

Numbers: 
 who cares, see tomorrow's.

8.22 Saturday Diary

From Friday afternoon through Monday night and on, I've been feeling so crappy, that I'm convinced I got gluten-poisoned somewhere, but I still haven't figured out where.
Anyway, I felt crappy, just like the 'old' days, before I was diagnosed.

00:00  Up to pee, and get some ice cream.
 Don't remember a thing until 13:00, when Merry suggested I get up.
14:00 up... and dressed...
and in my car to Wal-mart, to pick up my new prescription for anti-depressant, plus minor sundries.
Home... gathered laundry, and into the wash.
In BR1, watched "Bourne Supremacy"
Laundry to dryer.
Watched "Bourne Ultimatum".
Watched "Blunt Talk"
Watched "Killjoys" with dinner.
And to sleep  2100

84 Hr  s l Sex
335 H  s l O
77 Hr s l Fun/me
77 Hr s l Fun/Her
228 Hr  UNl
84 Hr s H l DO
269 D  s l CI
29 D  ?  Gluten free
308 H  s Her last Date
8 D  s l Party/Munch