Up 03:00 to pee and get a snack..
She was up and at the desk top, saying She woke up and couldn't sleep.
Awake again to hammering noise outside, at 915, because Bullfrog had taken it upon himself to do some remodeling...once again...without asking anybody.
Back to sleep, sort of...
And up 1030, to start laundry, help Stitch a little, to set up his phone....
To switch stuff on the old and new tablet, to show Merry the tablet, see if She might use it...
Watched TNR 3:3...
Laundry in dryer...
Coffee....
Laundry in and away.
13:45 up to shower and LOCK UP and dress.
Kiss Sunshine good bye.
Car 14:31.
Stopped for gas, enough that should last my work week.
Stopped for filters for my e cig.
At work 15:26.
Surprised to see supervisor DB; found out he was filling in for the regular Sunday guy, SW.
AND he did set up for the morning for the next day....which is (was) my job, and the reason I come on this shift at 15:30.
Okay fine.
With the other two guys still here after DB left, it gave me time to catch up on my diaries for my weekend.
Then I finished off season 3 of "The Newsroom".
80 h s l Sex, either of us
249 h s M l O
80 h s H l O
82 h s OUR last Fun
71 hr un
10 hr Lock
305 D s l Ci
65 D gluten free
16 1/2 D s H l Date
44 d s l P or M
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Monday, September 28, 2015
Monday, September 7, 2015
9.06 Sunday Diary
01:00 awake...
5:00 awake...
10:00 awake, laying on the bed with morning wood, as Merry walked in, noticed it... went down on it .... then She got on the bed and straddled me... then rolled onto Her back, and I got on top of Her... we engaged in some in-out...but She said, She was not cummin' and neither was I, and we stopped.
A bit of a doze..
Then She pulled the church paddle out of the drawer next to Her and looked at me...
I pulled down my shorts and got OHL....
She applied a rapid 50 or so swats of it to my buttocks.
We watched the two episodes of "Sex & Drugs & Rock & Roll" that She had not yet seen, followed by "Blunt Talk".
It came up again, so some oral for Her, more in-out.
During which time Stitch knocked on the door... then opened the door, and quickly closed it.
She came a few times this time, but not me.
We discussed chastity, for me, as in "when are we starting again" and I said, "Today, if you want" ...and She ... wanted.
She got up, to get ready, to take Stitch and Bullfrog to BFs storage unit and tote some stuff back.
As they left, I got up ..
Toilet, and shower, and ..
Locked it up...
Dressed...
Made coffee... wrote up some notes.. back to toilet...
In car 1425
At work 1506.
Night work...all but done.
Doing set up for the next day: 94 rides... 29 before 1300, the rest later...which sucks, a lot. Gonna be a lot of farmin'.
11 H s l S
82 H s l O
12 H s l Fun/ Her AND me
578 H un
10 H Lock
11 H s H l O
284 D s m l Ci
44 D Gluten Free
668 H s Her l D
23 D s l P or M
5:00 awake...
10:00 awake, laying on the bed with morning wood, as Merry walked in, noticed it... went down on it .... then She got on the bed and straddled me... then rolled onto Her back, and I got on top of Her... we engaged in some in-out...but She said, She was not cummin' and neither was I, and we stopped.
A bit of a doze..
Then She pulled the church paddle out of the drawer next to Her and looked at me...
I pulled down my shorts and got OHL....
She applied a rapid 50 or so swats of it to my buttocks.
We watched the two episodes of "Sex & Drugs & Rock & Roll" that She had not yet seen, followed by "Blunt Talk".
It came up again, so some oral for Her, more in-out.
During which time Stitch knocked on the door... then opened the door, and quickly closed it.
She came a few times this time, but not me.
We discussed chastity, for me, as in "when are we starting again" and I said, "Today, if you want" ...and She ... wanted.
She got up, to get ready, to take Stitch and Bullfrog to BFs storage unit and tote some stuff back.
As they left, I got up ..
Toilet, and shower, and ..
Locked it up...
Dressed...
Made coffee... wrote up some notes.. back to toilet...
In car 1425
At work 1506.
Night work...all but done.
Doing set up for the next day: 94 rides... 29 before 1300, the rest later...which sucks, a lot. Gonna be a lot of farmin'.
11 H s l S
82 H s l O
12 H s l Fun/ Her AND me
578 H un
10 H Lock
11 H s H l O
284 D s m l Ci
44 D Gluten Free
668 H s Her l D
23 D s l P or M
Monday, August 10, 2015
8.09 Sunday Diary
I was still stroking, trying to get an erection..while watching t.v.
But I became a bit self-conscious about it, lying next to Merry ... especially, thinking about the video we had produced, about me being 'caught' masturbating.
So I excused myself, went to the living room, and watching some spanking porn on my phone, got a decent erection, and returned.
She made herself ready, and I got on top of Her ... and I came so quickly, She didn't have time to cum, Herself. I don't think THAT has ever happened.
And I cleaned Her up....
And went and got a snack, and we watched "Sex & Drugs & Rock & Roll" followed by "Married".
To sleep 0200.
Awake, 310, to pee, and get some ice cream.
Up 1045, She offered me coffee, I took some Tums instead.
Back to sleep...
1310 awake, and up.
Toilet.... showered, dried...
and locked up, beginning of a new game.
While I was in the shower, Merry came in and we discussed the parameters, and settled on the same range as the previous range, with earliest release date on Wednesday, latest release day a week from Saturday, no possible release on Sunday-Mondays-Tuesdays.
Dressed and out to car, 14:39
Poopy traffic, not to work until 15:43.
A screwed up night; yet another Fx event going on, using half our cars, which isn't that many to begin with... after doing morning set up, which was pretty easy, I spent the night juggling the night work, trying to make it work and get it covered.
s l Sex 23 H
s l Org 23 H
S l Fun/me 28 H
s l Fun/Her 28 H
Unlocked 49 H
Locked 10 H
S her l DO 25 H
S l CI 256 D
Gluten free 16 D
s H last D 26.5 D
s l P or M 11+ D
But I became a bit self-conscious about it, lying next to Merry ... especially, thinking about the video we had produced, about me being 'caught' masturbating.
So I excused myself, went to the living room, and watching some spanking porn on my phone, got a decent erection, and returned.
She made herself ready, and I got on top of Her ... and I came so quickly, She didn't have time to cum, Herself. I don't think THAT has ever happened.
And I cleaned Her up....
And went and got a snack, and we watched "Sex & Drugs & Rock & Roll" followed by "Married".
To sleep 0200.
Awake, 310, to pee, and get some ice cream.
Up 1045, She offered me coffee, I took some Tums instead.
Back to sleep...
1310 awake, and up.
Toilet.... showered, dried...
and locked up, beginning of a new game.
While I was in the shower, Merry came in and we discussed the parameters, and settled on the same range as the previous range, with earliest release date on Wednesday, latest release day a week from Saturday, no possible release on Sunday-Mondays-Tuesdays.
Dressed and out to car, 14:39
Poopy traffic, not to work until 15:43.
A screwed up night; yet another Fx event going on, using half our cars, which isn't that many to begin with... after doing morning set up, which was pretty easy, I spent the night juggling the night work, trying to make it work and get it covered.
s l Sex 23 H
s l Org 23 H
S l Fun/me 28 H
s l Fun/Her 28 H
Unlocked 49 H
Locked 10 H
S her l DO 25 H
S l CI 256 D
Gluten free 16 D
s H last D 26.5 D
s l P or M 11+ D
Tuesday, July 28, 2015
07.27 Monday Diary Back to work
Up 02:30 to pee, and snack of peanut butter and honey.
Awake 0730, back to sleep.
UP 0900, to a loud CRASH in the bedroom as a shelf filled with CDs fell down on a table with a bunch of stuff on it, knocking it all to the ground.
Got up to let Donna out, and feed the dogs.
And back to bed, my stomach extremely unsettled.
Up 14:00 to pee, and I began cleaning up the debris in the bedroom.
And got my laundry out of the dryer, and put it all away.
Back to sleep, 15:08.
UP 17:30, with Merry sleeping next to me.
Got up and .... Stitch was in the shower, so I had to wait.
I showered and ... locked myself up.
Merry had first mentioned this, the day before, then today said, I didn't need to since I wasn't feeling well.
But I wanted to. Sometimes at work I have ... urges... and I think it's better if I'm locked up during my work week.
Packed up, iced coffee prepped, in car 18:25.
At work 19:15, and directly to the toilet.
At work...the night was done....tagged out, anyway. 105 rides.
Tuesday, 79 to start, and not much to do.
Enough time to update my hours, see what my upcoming check will be like, catch up on Diary entries....
And chatting via text with our mutual friend, Megan.
She quit the company at which she was employed a while, and is currently in between.
Her boyfriend finishes college classes this week, and has a break for a couple weeks, so if we want to get together for a round of Cards against Humanity, she's open to any of my days off, Aug 6th, 7th , 8th.
sl Sex 263 h
sl Org 263 h
Sl Fun/me 134 h
sl Fun/Her 134 h
Unlocked 128 h
Locked 6 h
s H l DO 159 h
S l CI 243 d
Gl-free 3 d
S h l Date 13.5 d
s l P or M 13+ d
Re Our Chastity Game:
18:00 Monday start
18:00 Tuesday One day on the Random Number Generator
18:00 Wednesday Two days ... possible conclusion or
18:00 Thursday Three days ... or
18:00 Friday Four Days.....
18:00 Saturday, I'm at work .... doesn't count
18:00 Sunday at work, doesn't count
18:00 Monday, going to work, doesn't count
18:00 Tuesday, going to work, doesn't count
18:00 Wednesday Five days, on the RNG
18:00 Thursday Six days, on the RNG
18:00 Friday Seven days, on the RNG
18:00 Saturday, eight days, on the RNG
So, the RNG could be programmed from 2 - 4, if Merry wants to finish it 'this' week, or set it for 2-8 and have the game last until possibly a week from Saturday.
Awake 0730, back to sleep.
UP 0900, to a loud CRASH in the bedroom as a shelf filled with CDs fell down on a table with a bunch of stuff on it, knocking it all to the ground.
Got up to let Donna out, and feed the dogs.
And back to bed, my stomach extremely unsettled.
Up 14:00 to pee, and I began cleaning up the debris in the bedroom.
And got my laundry out of the dryer, and put it all away.
Back to sleep, 15:08.
UP 17:30, with Merry sleeping next to me.
Got up and .... Stitch was in the shower, so I had to wait.
I showered and ... locked myself up.
Merry had first mentioned this, the day before, then today said, I didn't need to since I wasn't feeling well.
But I wanted to. Sometimes at work I have ... urges... and I think it's better if I'm locked up during my work week.
Packed up, iced coffee prepped, in car 18:25.
At work 19:15, and directly to the toilet.
At work...the night was done....tagged out, anyway. 105 rides.
Tuesday, 79 to start, and not much to do.
Enough time to update my hours, see what my upcoming check will be like, catch up on Diary entries....
And chatting via text with our mutual friend, Megan.
She quit the company at which she was employed a while, and is currently in between.
Her boyfriend finishes college classes this week, and has a break for a couple weeks, so if we want to get together for a round of Cards against Humanity, she's open to any of my days off, Aug 6th, 7th , 8th.
sl Sex 263 h
sl Org 263 h
Sl Fun/me 134 h
sl Fun/Her 134 h
Unlocked 128 h
Locked 6 h
s H l DO 159 h
S l CI 243 d
Gl-free 3 d
S h l Date 13.5 d
s l P or M 13+ d
Re Our Chastity Game:
18:00 Monday start
18:00 Tuesday One day on the Random Number Generator
18:00 Wednesday Two days ... possible conclusion or
18:00 Thursday Three days ... or
18:00 Friday Four Days.....
18:00 Saturday, I'm at work .... doesn't count
18:00 Sunday at work, doesn't count
18:00 Monday, going to work, doesn't count
18:00 Tuesday, going to work, doesn't count
18:00 Wednesday Five days, on the RNG
18:00 Thursday Six days, on the RNG
18:00 Friday Seven days, on the RNG
18:00 Saturday, eight days, on the RNG
So, the RNG could be programmed from 2 - 4, if Merry wants to finish it 'this' week, or set it for 2-8 and have the game last until possibly a week from Saturday.
Sunday, July 19, 2015
Saturday, July 18, 2015
7.17 Friday Diary and Journal
Midnight: I was still awake.
I rolled over towards Her, She rolled towards me.
We got close, we got frisky.
We were lovin, touchin, squeezin, each other in a way we had not done in a long time.
It soon led to the removal of Her lacy stretch panties, for contact betwixt my tongue and her between-the-leg nether regions, which did not last long as She pulled me up, and I hurriedly yanked my thong down... and with Her guidance, entered Her...
And after not very long at all...
I did not have a stop watch running...
But not very long at all...I had my climax to go along with Her uh several.
Possibly the fastest I have ever 'came' during intercourse with Her.
Then occurred 'clean up'. One of my favorite parts, but ... the whole episode was a 'favorite part'.
She had started, on tv. the movie "Guardians of the Galaxy" and once the fun was over, we continued watching it to the end.
Then I asked, "Wanna watch 'Wayward Pines'"?
She did, and we did.
Done about 02:30.
Was time to get some sleep; She has an appointment in oh 7 1/2 hours.
I got up 7:45. Released Donna, fed the dogs n cats, made coffee.
It was payday for Stitch and myself, so I started looked at accounts, and figuring out whom to pay how much.
Her first alarm went off at 8, second at 830, another at 9.
She was up with the first one.
She was out at 09:30.
I continued looking at accounts, looking through mail, writing checks (IRS payments) and pondering a recurring fantasy.
I started some laundry...
And on some kinda whim...
Actually, I wanted to see if I had all the parts...
Various cats have knocked the box containing this thing off my dresser so many times, I wasn't sure...
So I checked...then put on, a black polycarbonate chastity device, and locked it on, took a selfie, and sent it to Merry.
And changed out of the thong to white lacy-stretch panties.
This evening, in about seven hours, I was about to start a five-overnight work week, and it 'seemed' like a good time to begin a "chastity game".
I was trying to nap in my chair, then Merry and I started texting, back and forth.
She arrived home, 1245 or so.... unpacked some stuff She purchased at some supermarket, including sugar free Gummy Bears.
Knowing the effect those have on Her, I said, "Those should help if you're constipated."
"I am, and have been for days, which is a good thing for you."
"OH, how's that?"
"I haven't pooped for days. You can lick my butthole."
Now THAT is a concept that I suspect won't have any middle ground among people's opinions.
In my opinion, either you LIKE the idea, or you DON'T like the idea.
I ... like the idea. I believe my anal fetish is second only to my roleplay+spanking fetish.
So, HER saying, I can ... you know, do that with my tongue... seemed to have come right out of a particular fantasy I've been having.
For me, a fantasy in my head is like some people with musical earworms. Like getting a song stuck in the head, and won't leave until you wake up one day and it's gone, or it's been replaced by another song.
For me it's a fantasy. Some fantasy gets stuck, and I go over and over it, until .... I write it down, or it gets replaced, or other crap in my life moves it out of the way.
Later on, in this what's going to become a lengthy post, I am going to describe this particular fantasy.
Also, remember where I wrote roleplay+spanking fetish? I'm gonna write more about that, too, later on in this post.
She had just gotten Her pubic area...and labia ... waxed, and was 'anxious' to show me.
First She gave me a quick view, taking down Her shorts and Slinky Pinkies to show me, then suggested I get much more of a close up.
We moved into BR2... so much cooler... She got on the bed, and ...I got a real close up, while sucking and licking Her very smooth nether regions. With Her guiding me, I can safely speculate, She had a very good time.
I asked Her, what had Her so pre-aroused? Was it leftover from last night (13 hours ago?) Or does the waxing do it for Her? Or was it that I was in chastity and so I could only provide for Her, with 'getting any' myself?
She said, it was leftover horniness from last night, kind of as a result of me 'taking control'.
But/And, She expects or wants more of THIS, every morning, when I come home from work, this week.....
So we got up and off the bed.
I mentioned a desire for having my butt spanked.
She said, "Okay!" and started getting the spanking bench ready.
Which just meant, taking the sheet off of it.
Which wasn't what I wanted at all.
And I really wanted to film any such activity, but I really didn't have time. We still had a LOT of shopping and errands to do.
And I had loose, almost uncontrollable, bowels.
Accidents might well...happen.
So, I explained, and said, "Never mind."
She shrugged it off, and went to the living room...computer, to start printing a shopping list.
Quite simply, I thought THAT took way more time than really necessary for just a shopping list.... I could have hand-written three in the same amount of time...but it gave me time to gather mail to ...well, be mailed, and get dressed, and go out and put the current tag on the license plate on my car, and put my laundry from washer to dryer.
She did the first driving, from home to a branch of Chase, where I withdrew most of my pay day deposit in cash.
She asked me to take over driving.
I drove to a WF, where She deposited cash...
THen to the closed PO across the street from there, but it had a mailbox yet open, and I dropped outgoing mail...
Then to Winco, for our primary shopping....
When we got to the frozen food area, She wandered off, and ... Sunshine came back, giggly and excited because She found the Reese's Ice Cream Cake that we had been looking all over for.
We didn't buy it then, as we had other stops to make, but now we knew were to find it.
We checked out, and then went to Von's. Winco has overall better prices, but often She gets better deals on certain items through Von's Club.
Getting ready to check out, we got stopped by a very chatty fellow about...newspaper deliver.
Now, I HAD just put in the mailbox, a postcard for LA-T delivery, but he offered a special on the local LB Sunday delivery, and I took him up on it.
We checked out, went to the car...
And Home.
I brought the many bags to the porch. I didn't want to open the door, because of three dogs looking out the screen, waiting for their chance to escape.
Stitch came out, and helped get the bags in.
And we unpacked and put it all away.
Then I went to fetch my laundry from the dryer.
And I stripped...
Gather clothes...
Showered and dressed...
Packed up, made a batch of iced coffee.
At the computer desk, She had reverted to Merry. I asked about it; She said that 'apparently, Sunshine doesn't like doing boring moderator stuff.'
I kissed Her goodbye, and went on out to my car.
18:13.
Onto the 710, smack dab into the scene of some accident, just getting cleaned up by emergency vehicles.
While negotiating through that, my phone rang.
"I thought you had left your phone at home, I see one on the table bedside."
"That's my old phone, the one I had before this one I'm talking to you on..."
"oh..."
In two miles, I was past the freeway mess.
At work 19:18.
ANd could not get my head around, that this is FRIDAY.
"Saturday" was stuck in my head.
Night work tagged out, I just had to follow through.
A thumping 65 rides for Saturday.
Now then:
IF we are into 'The Chastity Game', then it's up to Merry to pull a random number for the days I am to be locked up. Since '1' would be noon/Saturday (tomorrow), then '5' would be noon/Wednesday, which should be the minimum, and Saturday (the 25th, 8 days) the maximum. (This time, 5 to 8 days... we may go for longer periods, as we acclimate, and I determine that this device is wearable for long periods).
So, a random number between 5 and 8, inclusive, please?
About roleplay+spanking:
I've been thinking a bunch about our relationship, which has gone through many changes and alterations.
I've been thinking about what I want.
I've been trying to figure out why I've been doing so much fantasizing about what I want, which is pretty much exactly what I did when I lived with an ex-girlfriend, then a (late)wife, then an ex-girlfriend, then alone...
And now I have a wife who is as delighted to spank my naked bottom as I am to have Her do it.
So, what's the fuckin' problem, Shilo?
Well....
I am not a submissive. I'm easy to get along with, when it comes to choices to be made. But when shit needs doing, and nobody else is doing it, I will and I do take control.
I am not a slave. My gut still hurts, thinking of when the word was applied to me.
At home, in the real world, anyway.
I'm still quite willing to 'go along' on Fet, or at parties, as being Her submissive/slave. It's ... a role to play.
We tried having a Female-led Relationship with DD.
The 'rules' we had in place were... well, common sense and common courtesy.
As for the Domestic Discipline:
I've come to believe that DD has no 'real' place between consenting adults.
When one of 'em does 'something wrong' it should be talked out.
As in,
"You left the toilet seat up."
"I did? Omigod, I'm sorry."
"Okay, try to remember, please."
As opposed to a different conversation, in what I imagine to be the real world:
"You left the toilet seat up."
"I did? Omigod, I'm sorry."
"I am going to spank you for forgetting."
"What? The FUCK you are."
THAT, I imagine is the conversation between 'real' adults,
unless one has some kind of strong power over the other (financial, threat of leaving...) or, one has agreed to the power exchange. Which happens. But I don't really get it.
But, DD doesn't work in OUR relationship, because spanking is neither discipline nor punishment.
I enjoy it too much.
So, if punishment is supposed to be "an action given as consequences for unwanted behavior, meant to be a deterrent against such behavior recurring" ...
it doesn't work on me.
If the punishment is corporal in nature, I enjoy it ...afterwards... maybe not during, while being applied... and would not be a deterrent.
I'm also quite stubborn. I'm capable of repeating the behavior, simply as a passive-aggressive acting out.
I simply believe in keeping it REAL in the relationship. If I exhibit behavior that bother Her, She needs to talk to me.
And vice versa.
THE problem .... eh, make that A problem, there may well be others ... is : She knows, and I know.
She knows that ...I am a masochist, that I enjoy the impact play.
And I know that I am a masochist, that I enjoy it.
My fantasy world is a place where I am not self-aware. Where I am spanked by a Dominant Other, who does it for discipline and punishment, and possibly her own kind of pleasure, and I don't know ...for sure... that I ... kinda ... like it.
My fantasy world is a place where I'm in a relationship with a Woman who has Authority.
Call her 'Mom' or 'Stepmother' or 'Aunt' or 'Governess'. and I am a ..well, a young man.
She has Authority and when She declares, "It's time for a spanking" I am in no position to refuse.
So, it's been 25.5 months since our first date.
In that time, we (rather quickly) signed a D/s contract.
And equally quickly, and at my urging for fear of being cast aside, signed an M/s contract.
And got married.
And converted all to an FLR-DD contract.
And due to my abdominal health, put all such things aside for a bit.
ANd when we returned, .... we realized, we like, or really, I like, videotaping our activities for posterity, and realized, we just might make a bit of money, selling the clips on clips4sale.
Since then, nearly all our impact-play sessions have been done for the purpose of taping and putting them on our site.
We've done mostly roleplay for those clips, pretending, for the sake of our audience, to be a couple engaging in FLR-DD.
And THAT is what I mean, when I state that roleplay+spanking is at the top of my fetish list.
I do not want Her to declare an intention to spank me because 'I deserve it'. I simply don't think that option exists.
She CAN (may...) declare an intention to spank me because ... She likes to, and knows I like it.
Even better, to do it with camera rolling.
What kind of roleplay?
Well, as of right now, I've written out 84 scenarios, suitable for videorecording.
ANYTHING that takes the scene out of this 'real world', where punishment and discipline does not exist between adults, and into my imaginary fantasy world.
Although there will certainly by time for the occasional spontaneous not-recorded 'fun' spanking.
One 'might ask, if you're not in a D/s or M/s relationship, why do you involved in chastity play?
Because... She likes to have that control over me, and I like to cede that control to Her.
I know about myself that if/when I'm not in chastity, I'm tempted to take it into my own hand, whenever the whim strikes me that circumstances allow. (During recent health issues, I've had NO interest in such. I've noticed that in these days that I have felt better, my sexual appetite is returning.) However, being allowed to cum too much (for me) results in a decreased interest in Her.
Being in chastity aids in keeping me aroused and interested in Her.
However, She enjoys intercourse, with me, WAY too much, for me to "worry" about becoming "one of those men" who claim to be locked up for months at a time.
And finally:
About a thousand words ago, I mention my recent earworm-of-a-fantasy.
I'll write about it here, just so I can get it out, and move on to another one.
In the present tense:
Somewhere (details vague) I meet an older woman. By that, I mean, clearly older than me. She may be married but looking for something on the side, or separated/divorced/widowed. Experienced but ... looking for something. Maybe we meet on line, as it's easier, perhaps, to talk about intimate details when you're not face to face.
And we talk about what we would want if we could have a random hook-up, and got to do just what we wanted.
She tells me that what she loves ... is to have her anus kissed, and licked, to have a man's tongue stuck into it as deep as he can get it in ... followed by a finger, or two, then a dildo to open it up, followed by the man's cock, slow and easy in, til it's in all the way, then slowly ouuuut, then innnnnn, until she is pushing back on it, urging him to go faster and harder with each thrust... while her right hand is between her legs, rubbing her clit in rhythm with the anal pounding... until she gasp and moans in orgasm after orgasm ...and feels the man ejaculate into the condom stretched around his cock. Then he pulls it out and continues to lick her anus and her pussy and clit, until she moans and says she's had enough.
I reply, 'Wow what's wrong with that, I got aroused thinking about it'.
She says, 'I've known a man ...or two...that just were not into anything anal. A bit of disappointment.'
"Oh, too bad," I say.
"And you?" she asks.
"Nothing...sexual, at all. I want a dominant woman, like a ..a stepmother, who beats my bottom, for any offense, or just for discipline, whether it's over her knee, while she uses a hairbrush, or with me bent over a chair or bed, while she uses paddle or strap or cane. Just your basic home style punishment for a so called naughty boy."
"Ohhhhh, well..."
In short time, we get together... her place or mine or a hotel room.
She gets what she wants, and I get what I want.
We go separate ways, satisfied.
We get together frequently, weekly or so.
sl Sex 11 H
sl Org 11 H
sl F4Me 368 H
sl F4Her 368 H
Unlocked 109 D
Locked 1/2 D
sHl DO 10 H
sl CI 233 D
GlutenFree 58.33 D
sHlDate 3.5 D
S l MorP 73 H
Caption by me:
I rolled over towards Her, She rolled towards me.
We got close, we got frisky.
We were lovin, touchin, squeezin, each other in a way we had not done in a long time.
It soon led to the removal of Her lacy stretch panties, for contact betwixt my tongue and her between-the-leg nether regions, which did not last long as She pulled me up, and I hurriedly yanked my thong down... and with Her guidance, entered Her...
And after not very long at all...
I did not have a stop watch running...
But not very long at all...I had my climax to go along with Her uh several.
Possibly the fastest I have ever 'came' during intercourse with Her.
Then occurred 'clean up'. One of my favorite parts, but ... the whole episode was a 'favorite part'.
She had started, on tv. the movie "Guardians of the Galaxy" and once the fun was over, we continued watching it to the end.
Then I asked, "Wanna watch 'Wayward Pines'"?
She did, and we did.
Done about 02:30.
Was time to get some sleep; She has an appointment in oh 7 1/2 hours.
I got up 7:45. Released Donna, fed the dogs n cats, made coffee.
It was payday for Stitch and myself, so I started looked at accounts, and figuring out whom to pay how much.
Her first alarm went off at 8, second at 830, another at 9.
She was up with the first one.
She was out at 09:30.
I continued looking at accounts, looking through mail, writing checks (IRS payments) and pondering a recurring fantasy.
I started some laundry...
And on some kinda whim...
Actually, I wanted to see if I had all the parts...
Various cats have knocked the box containing this thing off my dresser so many times, I wasn't sure...
So I checked...then put on, a black polycarbonate chastity device, and locked it on, took a selfie, and sent it to Merry.
And changed out of the thong to white lacy-stretch panties.
This evening, in about seven hours, I was about to start a five-overnight work week, and it 'seemed' like a good time to begin a "chastity game".
I was trying to nap in my chair, then Merry and I started texting, back and forth.
She arrived home, 1245 or so.... unpacked some stuff She purchased at some supermarket, including sugar free Gummy Bears.
Knowing the effect those have on Her, I said, "Those should help if you're constipated."
"I am, and have been for days, which is a good thing for you."
"OH, how's that?"
"I haven't pooped for days. You can lick my butthole."
Now THAT is a concept that I suspect won't have any middle ground among people's opinions.
In my opinion, either you LIKE the idea, or you DON'T like the idea.
I ... like the idea. I believe my anal fetish is second only to my roleplay+spanking fetish.
So, HER saying, I can ... you know, do that with my tongue... seemed to have come right out of a particular fantasy I've been having.
For me, a fantasy in my head is like some people with musical earworms. Like getting a song stuck in the head, and won't leave until you wake up one day and it's gone, or it's been replaced by another song.
For me it's a fantasy. Some fantasy gets stuck, and I go over and over it, until .... I write it down, or it gets replaced, or other crap in my life moves it out of the way.
Later on, in this what's going to become a lengthy post, I am going to describe this particular fantasy.
Also, remember where I wrote roleplay+spanking fetish? I'm gonna write more about that, too, later on in this post.
She had just gotten Her pubic area...and labia ... waxed, and was 'anxious' to show me.
First She gave me a quick view, taking down Her shorts and Slinky Pinkies to show me, then suggested I get much more of a close up.
We moved into BR2... so much cooler... She got on the bed, and ...I got a real close up, while sucking and licking Her very smooth nether regions. With Her guiding me, I can safely speculate, She had a very good time.
I asked Her, what had Her so pre-aroused? Was it leftover from last night (13 hours ago?) Or does the waxing do it for Her? Or was it that I was in chastity and so I could only provide for Her, with 'getting any' myself?
She said, it was leftover horniness from last night, kind of as a result of me 'taking control'.
But/And, She expects or wants more of THIS, every morning, when I come home from work, this week.....
So we got up and off the bed.
I mentioned a desire for having my butt spanked.
She said, "Okay!" and started getting the spanking bench ready.
Which just meant, taking the sheet off of it.
Which wasn't what I wanted at all.
And I really wanted to film any such activity, but I really didn't have time. We still had a LOT of shopping and errands to do.
And I had loose, almost uncontrollable, bowels.
Accidents might well...happen.
So, I explained, and said, "Never mind."
She shrugged it off, and went to the living room...computer, to start printing a shopping list.
Quite simply, I thought THAT took way more time than really necessary for just a shopping list.... I could have hand-written three in the same amount of time...but it gave me time to gather mail to ...well, be mailed, and get dressed, and go out and put the current tag on the license plate on my car, and put my laundry from washer to dryer.
She did the first driving, from home to a branch of Chase, where I withdrew most of my pay day deposit in cash.
She asked me to take over driving.
I drove to a WF, where She deposited cash...
THen to the closed PO across the street from there, but it had a mailbox yet open, and I dropped outgoing mail...
Then to Winco, for our primary shopping....
When we got to the frozen food area, She wandered off, and ... Sunshine came back, giggly and excited because She found the Reese's Ice Cream Cake that we had been looking all over for.
We didn't buy it then, as we had other stops to make, but now we knew were to find it.
We checked out, and then went to Von's. Winco has overall better prices, but often She gets better deals on certain items through Von's Club.
Getting ready to check out, we got stopped by a very chatty fellow about...newspaper deliver.
Now, I HAD just put in the mailbox, a postcard for LA-T delivery, but he offered a special on the local LB Sunday delivery, and I took him up on it.
We checked out, went to the car...
And Home.
I brought the many bags to the porch. I didn't want to open the door, because of three dogs looking out the screen, waiting for their chance to escape.
Stitch came out, and helped get the bags in.
And we unpacked and put it all away.
Then I went to fetch my laundry from the dryer.
And I stripped...
Gather clothes...
Showered and dressed...
Packed up, made a batch of iced coffee.
At the computer desk, She had reverted to Merry. I asked about it; She said that 'apparently, Sunshine doesn't like doing boring moderator stuff.'
I kissed Her goodbye, and went on out to my car.
18:13.
Onto the 710, smack dab into the scene of some accident, just getting cleaned up by emergency vehicles.
While negotiating through that, my phone rang.
"I thought you had left your phone at home, I see one on the table bedside."
"That's my old phone, the one I had before this one I'm talking to you on..."
"oh..."
In two miles, I was past the freeway mess.
At work 19:18.
ANd could not get my head around, that this is FRIDAY.
"Saturday" was stuck in my head.
Night work tagged out, I just had to follow through.
A thumping 65 rides for Saturday.
Now then:
IF we are into 'The Chastity Game', then it's up to Merry to pull a random number for the days I am to be locked up. Since '1' would be noon/Saturday (tomorrow), then '5' would be noon/Wednesday, which should be the minimum, and Saturday (the 25th, 8 days) the maximum. (This time, 5 to 8 days... we may go for longer periods, as we acclimate, and I determine that this device is wearable for long periods).
So, a random number between 5 and 8, inclusive, please?
About roleplay+spanking:
I've been thinking a bunch about our relationship, which has gone through many changes and alterations.
I've been thinking about what I want.
I've been trying to figure out why I've been doing so much fantasizing about what I want, which is pretty much exactly what I did when I lived with an ex-girlfriend, then a (late)wife, then an ex-girlfriend, then alone...
And now I have a wife who is as delighted to spank my naked bottom as I am to have Her do it.
So, what's the fuckin' problem, Shilo?
Well....
I am not a submissive. I'm easy to get along with, when it comes to choices to be made. But when shit needs doing, and nobody else is doing it, I will and I do take control.
I am not a slave. My gut still hurts, thinking of when the word was applied to me.
At home, in the real world, anyway.
I'm still quite willing to 'go along' on Fet, or at parties, as being Her submissive/slave. It's ... a role to play.
We tried having a Female-led Relationship with DD.
The 'rules' we had in place were... well, common sense and common courtesy.
As for the Domestic Discipline:
I've come to believe that DD has no 'real' place between consenting adults.
When one of 'em does 'something wrong' it should be talked out.
As in,
"You left the toilet seat up."
"I did? Omigod, I'm sorry."
"Okay, try to remember, please."
As opposed to a different conversation, in what I imagine to be the real world:
"You left the toilet seat up."
"I did? Omigod, I'm sorry."
"I am going to spank you for forgetting."
"What? The FUCK you are."
THAT, I imagine is the conversation between 'real' adults,
unless one has some kind of strong power over the other (financial, threat of leaving...) or, one has agreed to the power exchange. Which happens. But I don't really get it.
But, DD doesn't work in OUR relationship, because spanking is neither discipline nor punishment.
I enjoy it too much.
So, if punishment is supposed to be "an action given as consequences for unwanted behavior, meant to be a deterrent against such behavior recurring" ...
it doesn't work on me.
If the punishment is corporal in nature, I enjoy it ...afterwards... maybe not during, while being applied... and would not be a deterrent.
I'm also quite stubborn. I'm capable of repeating the behavior, simply as a passive-aggressive acting out.
I simply believe in keeping it REAL in the relationship. If I exhibit behavior that bother Her, She needs to talk to me.
And vice versa.
THE problem .... eh, make that A problem, there may well be others ... is : She knows, and I know.
She knows that ...I am a masochist, that I enjoy the impact play.
And I know that I am a masochist, that I enjoy it.
My fantasy world is a place where I am not self-aware. Where I am spanked by a Dominant Other, who does it for discipline and punishment, and possibly her own kind of pleasure, and I don't know ...for sure... that I ... kinda ... like it.
My fantasy world is a place where I'm in a relationship with a Woman who has Authority.
Call her 'Mom' or 'Stepmother' or 'Aunt' or 'Governess'. and I am a ..well, a young man.
She has Authority and when She declares, "It's time for a spanking" I am in no position to refuse.
So, it's been 25.5 months since our first date.
In that time, we (rather quickly) signed a D/s contract.
And equally quickly, and at my urging for fear of being cast aside, signed an M/s contract.
And got married.
And converted all to an FLR-DD contract.
And due to my abdominal health, put all such things aside for a bit.
ANd when we returned, .... we realized, we like, or really, I like, videotaping our activities for posterity, and realized, we just might make a bit of money, selling the clips on clips4sale.
Since then, nearly all our impact-play sessions have been done for the purpose of taping and putting them on our site.
We've done mostly roleplay for those clips, pretending, for the sake of our audience, to be a couple engaging in FLR-DD.
And THAT is what I mean, when I state that roleplay+spanking is at the top of my fetish list.
I do not want Her to declare an intention to spank me because 'I deserve it'. I simply don't think that option exists.
She CAN (may...) declare an intention to spank me because ... She likes to, and knows I like it.
Even better, to do it with camera rolling.
What kind of roleplay?
Well, as of right now, I've written out 84 scenarios, suitable for videorecording.
ANYTHING that takes the scene out of this 'real world', where punishment and discipline does not exist between adults, and into my imaginary fantasy world.
Although there will certainly by time for the occasional spontaneous not-recorded 'fun' spanking.
One 'might ask, if you're not in a D/s or M/s relationship, why do you involved in chastity play?
Because... She likes to have that control over me, and I like to cede that control to Her.
I know about myself that if/when I'm not in chastity, I'm tempted to take it into my own hand, whenever the whim strikes me that circumstances allow. (During recent health issues, I've had NO interest in such. I've noticed that in these days that I have felt better, my sexual appetite is returning.) However, being allowed to cum too much (for me) results in a decreased interest in Her.
Being in chastity aids in keeping me aroused and interested in Her.
However, She enjoys intercourse, with me, WAY too much, for me to "worry" about becoming "one of those men" who claim to be locked up for months at a time.
And finally:
About a thousand words ago, I mention my recent earworm-of-a-fantasy.
I'll write about it here, just so I can get it out, and move on to another one.
In the present tense:
Somewhere (details vague) I meet an older woman. By that, I mean, clearly older than me. She may be married but looking for something on the side, or separated/divorced/widowed. Experienced but ... looking for something. Maybe we meet on line, as it's easier, perhaps, to talk about intimate details when you're not face to face.
And we talk about what we would want if we could have a random hook-up, and got to do just what we wanted.
She tells me that what she loves ... is to have her anus kissed, and licked, to have a man's tongue stuck into it as deep as he can get it in ... followed by a finger, or two, then a dildo to open it up, followed by the man's cock, slow and easy in, til it's in all the way, then slowly ouuuut, then innnnnn, until she is pushing back on it, urging him to go faster and harder with each thrust... while her right hand is between her legs, rubbing her clit in rhythm with the anal pounding... until she gasp and moans in orgasm after orgasm ...and feels the man ejaculate into the condom stretched around his cock. Then he pulls it out and continues to lick her anus and her pussy and clit, until she moans and says she's had enough.
I reply, 'Wow what's wrong with that, I got aroused thinking about it'.
She says, 'I've known a man ...or two...that just were not into anything anal. A bit of disappointment.'
"Oh, too bad," I say.
"And you?" she asks.
"Nothing...sexual, at all. I want a dominant woman, like a ..a stepmother, who beats my bottom, for any offense, or just for discipline, whether it's over her knee, while she uses a hairbrush, or with me bent over a chair or bed, while she uses paddle or strap or cane. Just your basic home style punishment for a so called naughty boy."
"Ohhhhh, well..."
In short time, we get together... her place or mine or a hotel room.
She gets what she wants, and I get what I want.
We go separate ways, satisfied.
We get together frequently, weekly or so.
sl Sex 11 H
sl Org 11 H
sl F4Me 368 H
sl F4Her 368 H
Unlocked 109 D
Locked 1/2 D
sHl DO 10 H
sl CI 233 D
GlutenFree 58.33 D
sHlDate 3.5 D
S l MorP 73 H
Caption by me:
Monday, March 30, 2015
3.29 Sunday Diary
M and Kt talked and played, for, I don't know how long.
She asked if I thought I would be playing, I thought not.
She asked if I wanted to go. I said yes.
We grabbed bags, got 4 of us in car, and headed home, sort of.
First dropped HLB off, then popped into a Spires.
Home 0345.
Cleanup the house a bit.
Bed 0415.
By noon She was offering me a pill and water.
I got up, sat in the living room a bit.
1415, toilet, shower, installed the new black CB 3000, dressed..
Sunshine wanted to see it, fine.
Packed, etc in car, 14:55.
Horrid traffic, at work 1600
Sunday 183 rides, 93 farm outs
Monday, 103 rides, 10 farm outs So Far
Yearly health insurance renewal: if I keep mine as is, it goes up $214 / month, effective May 1, not counting dental & vision.
My company is making across the board 10% salary cuts to every employee, effective pay period beginning April 6.
H s l S 702
H s l O 855
H s L F/me 703
H s L F/her 215
Her DO and hours since N/214
Hr un/l 69/10
Day s l C 123
She asked if I thought I would be playing, I thought not.
She asked if I wanted to go. I said yes.
We grabbed bags, got 4 of us in car, and headed home, sort of.
First dropped HLB off, then popped into a Spires.
Home 0345.
Cleanup the house a bit.
Bed 0415.
By noon She was offering me a pill and water.
I got up, sat in the living room a bit.
1415, toilet, shower, installed the new black CB 3000, dressed..
Sunshine wanted to see it, fine.
Packed, etc in car, 14:55.
Horrid traffic, at work 1600
Sunday 183 rides, 93 farm outs
Monday, 103 rides, 10 farm outs So Far
Yearly health insurance renewal: if I keep mine as is, it goes up $214 / month, effective May 1, not counting dental & vision.
My company is making across the board 10% salary cuts to every employee, effective pay period beginning April 6.
H s l S 702
H s l O 855
H s L F/me 703
H s L F/her 215
Her DO and hours since N/214
Hr un/l 69/10
Day s l C 123
Wednesday, March 25, 2015
3.24 Diary and Thought for the Day
.In car 6:48, home 740.
I fed the cats and the dogs and filled and started the dishwasher.
In the bedroom, I was looking for something that would work as a 'stand' for my cell phone...
She woke up, and started talking to me....
And told me,
"..after your shower, whenever it is, I want you to put on a device..."
After a long hesitation, enough so that She asked, "You have something to say...?"
And I said, "Why..?"
"Because... I like chastity, you like chastity, you have not been wanting to have sex...so it seemed like a good time.."
After a minute, or two, I said something like,"Okay ... maybe I will..."
I had a chat with myself on the way to work, and came to some understanding of my reaction, which I'll get into at the end of this..
So, I went and prepped my Daily Meal, and came back into the bedroom...and started looking at what was on the DVR, thinking I'd watch something.
But something was missing.... for reasons unclear, Scorpion had not recorded, though I did see that it was a new episode.
All that took so much time, that there was no sense in trying to watch something else.
Done with breakfast, to sleep 1015.
At some point She was up and out and off to meet with a friend.
Woke up 1400ish, to pee and have a snack (cookies) and saw a text from DB, saying "Hey, TH is MIA (no show) ..can you come in at 1830..?"
I responded, "No, I don't think I can be up and moving in time."
Alarm went off 1730, I sat up and sent Merry a text, saying "I'm up."
She replied that She had tried to call Stitch several times.
I went into the living room, found his phone...four missed calls from Merry within 20 minutes: he had the ringer all the way down.
SO, toilet... shower... fit a chastity device on... dressed in sox and briefs... in the bedroom, took a selfie, showing the number on the plastic lock, and sent it to Her in a text... and dressed, made coffee...as She came walking in the door .... chewing bubble gum!? Oh, it was Sunshine, who said that Bree had bought for her, Hello Kitty bubble gum.
I kissed her, hello and goodbye and headed on out the door.
In car 1835...
At work 1930, and straight to the toilet.
I thought I was feeling constipated, but I was cured, for sure.
So TH, the guy with whom I had been discussing Lyft, was indeed MIA... no show to work and no call, and DB was there.
On my shift, TH finally checking in with DB by text, apologetically saying, he just screwed up.
I still don't understand how... he can NOT call for 7 hours after his scheduled start time, but I think DB told him, this was the one and only time he would allow this to happen.
DB cut out, around 2100--2130, as he was coming back for his regular shift at 0900.
Tuesday 111 rides, 38 farmed out
Wednesday 152 so far! 24 farmed out, so far! Oy.
So, what was going through my head, this morning, when She said, "I want you to lock it up..." ?
I was tired ..hungry... and caught by surprise. I'm usually not very good in handling spontaneous... anythings.
Some warning would perhaps assuage my hurt butt?
By 'some warning', I mean ... a couple days or more.
Such as: On a Wed or Thurs or Fri, if She were to announce, "On Sunday, I want you locked up before you go to work."
I think that would work well for me.
Doesn't have to start on a Sunday, that just works as it leads into my 'work week'.
Another example: On a Tuesday morning, She could announce, "Thursday, at noon, I want you locked up."
The exact days don't matter, those were examples to say: gimme two days notice, more or less. Exactly 48 hours not so important, as one full day in between. IE, call me at work Monday night (or send a text), stating: "When you get home Wednesday.." or "When you go to bed Wednesday night..."
No need to announce a duration time. I suspect we'll both know when we're ready to get it off, then get it on.
Of note on this pink one: no security. None. It's too flexible, and allows easy pullout from the back, by lifting it up. It only works symbolically by me knowing, I'm wearing this because She wants me to wear it, that I am chaste because She wants me to be chaste.
So, note to Her and me: remove this one, try the other one.
H s l S 582
H s l O 735
H s L F/me 583
H s L F/her 95
Her DO and hours since: No, 94 hrs
Day UN 120 d, 18 h; L 6 h
Day s l C 118
I fed the cats and the dogs and filled and started the dishwasher.
In the bedroom, I was looking for something that would work as a 'stand' for my cell phone...
She woke up, and started talking to me....
And told me,
"..after your shower, whenever it is, I want you to put on a device..."
After a long hesitation, enough so that She asked, "You have something to say...?"
And I said, "Why..?"
"Because... I like chastity, you like chastity, you have not been wanting to have sex...so it seemed like a good time.."
After a minute, or two, I said something like,"Okay ... maybe I will..."
I had a chat with myself on the way to work, and came to some understanding of my reaction, which I'll get into at the end of this..
So, I went and prepped my Daily Meal, and came back into the bedroom...and started looking at what was on the DVR, thinking I'd watch something.
But something was missing.... for reasons unclear, Scorpion had not recorded, though I did see that it was a new episode.
All that took so much time, that there was no sense in trying to watch something else.
Done with breakfast, to sleep 1015.
At some point She was up and out and off to meet with a friend.
Woke up 1400ish, to pee and have a snack (cookies) and saw a text from DB, saying "Hey, TH is MIA (no show) ..can you come in at 1830..?"
I responded, "No, I don't think I can be up and moving in time."
Alarm went off 1730, I sat up and sent Merry a text, saying "I'm up."
She replied that She had tried to call Stitch several times.
I went into the living room, found his phone...four missed calls from Merry within 20 minutes: he had the ringer all the way down.
SO, toilet... shower... fit a chastity device on... dressed in sox and briefs... in the bedroom, took a selfie, showing the number on the plastic lock, and sent it to Her in a text... and dressed, made coffee...as She came walking in the door .... chewing bubble gum!? Oh, it was Sunshine, who said that Bree had bought for her, Hello Kitty bubble gum.
I kissed her, hello and goodbye and headed on out the door.
In car 1835...
At work 1930, and straight to the toilet.
I thought I was feeling constipated, but I was cured, for sure.
So TH, the guy with whom I had been discussing Lyft, was indeed MIA... no show to work and no call, and DB was there.
On my shift, TH finally checking in with DB by text, apologetically saying, he just screwed up.
I still don't understand how... he can NOT call for 7 hours after his scheduled start time, but I think DB told him, this was the one and only time he would allow this to happen.
DB cut out, around 2100--2130, as he was coming back for his regular shift at 0900.
Tuesday 111 rides, 38 farmed out
Wednesday 152 so far! 24 farmed out, so far! Oy.
So, what was going through my head, this morning, when She said, "I want you to lock it up..." ?
I was tired ..hungry... and caught by surprise. I'm usually not very good in handling spontaneous... anythings.
Some warning would perhaps assuage my hurt butt?
By 'some warning', I mean ... a couple days or more.
Such as: On a Wed or Thurs or Fri, if She were to announce, "On Sunday, I want you locked up before you go to work."
I think that would work well for me.
Doesn't have to start on a Sunday, that just works as it leads into my 'work week'.
Another example: On a Tuesday morning, She could announce, "Thursday, at noon, I want you locked up."
The exact days don't matter, those were examples to say: gimme two days notice, more or less. Exactly 48 hours not so important, as one full day in between. IE, call me at work Monday night (or send a text), stating: "When you get home Wednesday.." or "When you go to bed Wednesday night..."
No need to announce a duration time. I suspect we'll both know when we're ready to get it off, then get it on.
Of note on this pink one: no security. None. It's too flexible, and allows easy pullout from the back, by lifting it up. It only works symbolically by me knowing, I'm wearing this because She wants me to wear it, that I am chaste because She wants me to be chaste.
So, note to Her and me: remove this one, try the other one.
H s l S 582
H s l O 735
H s L F/me 583
H s L F/her 95
Her DO and hours since: No, 94 hrs
Day UN 120 d, 18 h; L 6 h
Day s l C 118
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