9th o July, Tuesday diary

Sleep!
0515, took J's card to E, down to mailbox
10uN,  klondike bar

11:15 
  bring up mail; my order from TokyoPenSHop arrived; 
BS 180   12ub
Icoff, pills   
Contacts IN
Amazon package for J: delivered to downstairs instead of upstairs to us; good thing they send me a picture of delivery spot, so I knew where it was
"Queen in Budapest" concert
online DPSS
paid CWG by phone
updated diaries through July 8
"Elton John" concert...
"Guardians of the Galaxy"
Merry n Stitch to E's, 1830 and home 1940
TBBT 19-2230 ssn 10
1950  10uN
 din  Pulled pork on buns
TBBT 8, then 12
2230 BS 293; 12 u B
to bedroom

03 April, Sunday Diary

Still sick, still sleeping  ....

Merry announced, they had made room  in the garage.
I managed to get up, and go outside.
I got behind the wheel of #2s car. Merry, behind the wheel of her car, Stitch in the garage spotting.
We got it in.
I went back to bed.
Watched "Guardians of the Galaxy".
"Comic Book Men"
"Scorpion"
Lunch
Read the day's paper
watched "The Circus"
"Law and order SVU"
"Criminal Minds"
"Criminal Minds Beyond Borders"
"Gotham"
"The Big Bang Theory"
Dinner
watched "Life in Pieces"
"Agents of Shield"
......   00:45

#9 in the series

Look at em jiggle!

21 February, Sunday, Diary (119)

0300 up to pee
  snack: ice cream
05:00 up, toilet
08:30 awake, talking....
 Sunday paper with hot chocolate
 Watched 'Marvel's Guardians of the Galaxy' (animated series)
followed by the movie, which was just started on some cable channel.
Toilet...alka seltzer....
1210-1310 nap.
Up  toilet.....
Showered....dressed...packed.... made iced coffee to go...
14:02, three of us in car.
 7-11 stop for ecig filters.
1456 At work.
 93 rides in for Sunday
 92 for Monday   
 Set up none too challenging..
 Done by  1830, and started catching up on Diary entries.

The challenge was... staying awake.   


Their facial expressions......

13 February, Saturday, ( 111 )

01:00 awake, watched 'The Muppets'
  followed by female comedians, Amy .. then Whitney.
04:00 back to sleep
11:00 up for coffee; fed the cats... emptied the chamber pot, scooped the litter box...  looked at email...
13:00 showered n dressed.
13:52 in car with Merry to run errands.
  Started at 'my' bank.  Could not find my ATM card.  Wrote a check so that Sunshine could go in, get cash.  
She quickly came back out to ask if an $8 service charge would be okay. Well, what the fuck, yes.
She went back in, was gone long enough, that I finally decided to go in after her. ..as she/Merry was coming out, and said,  "3 forms of ID, bank manager, go to the vault...etc etc..."  jeez.
Then to Von's, with an inside WellsFargo to deposit it.
I wanted to go in, also, to use the Starbucks card in my wallet.  
She went running off way ahead of me, which is a HUGE button for me, and I said something in an angry tone to Her about it, then went to stand in the Starbucks line.  
3 women working the kiosk, two people ahead of me, and still took way too long.
Finally, off to 'their' bank to make our house payment.
Which was closed.  Somebody forgot that their bank closes at 14:00 on Saturdays.
We knew we needed gas.... and the Arco on South street was definitely cheap enough, and we pulled in.
Then to the 99C store.  I wanted cards for my Dads's, and my ex-g/f's.. birthday.... etc.
AND a 7-11, for E-cig filters. I've been out since  late Tuesday night.
And home...long enough for me to use the toilet.. and get Stitch and Babyman in the car, and off we went to Far Golden Corral.
Far GC is about 27 miles, Near GC is about 5.  We only go to the Far one because they have a white chocolate fountain.
We arrived...and got in the line ..at 16:39, and were inside at 17:30.
The white chocolate fountain was non-operational for the night.
Out 1834, and headed home.
We were listening to the Rep. debate on the radio..
And my Dad called.  So we turned off the radio, while I talked to him for about 20 minutes.
Radio back on,  home about 19:20.
ANd we watched the last of the Debate...  til about 20:00.
Surfed for somethin' else.
Saw that 'Guardians of the Galaxy' was just starting, so we watched that for the ... 9th? time.
Then saw that 'The Bone Collector' was just starting, which I'd seen twice, and Merry not at all, so we watched that...
00:00 sleep

Dec. 3rd, Thursday Diary

40 days, My accident.
20 Days, Her accident

02:30 up ,  Pee and snack
08:30 awake...   feed dog....  back to sleep
11:00 awake...coffee...
  watched  TNR  2: 6, 7, 8, 9
watched "Fargo"
watched TRMS from 6 to 7
 Merry went to visit #2 in the hospital ... it was his birthday... and Doctor had 'news'
Watched  Ash vs Evil Dead from the previous Saturday
Watched 'the Muppets'
Dinner,  home made chili and t-chips.
watched "Agents of Shield"
watched the last 2/3 of the movie, "Guardians of the Galaxy"
Merry returned home, 23:30 ...
 The news:  because cancer is NOT in remission, he will be allowed a tranfer to CoH, within a week.

Nov 28th Saturday Diary

35 days since my accident
15 days since Her accident

Up to pee  00:30; 04:30;  07:30

and UP   0900
She made breakfast:  'dirty' scrambled eggs, bacon, toast.
We watched "Unforgettable" eps 1 and 2, 
Then "Elementary"
Then "The Newsroom"  3:  1 & 2

Then OU vs OSU, from 1700 to  2030.

Dinner,  turkey on tortillas  (She called it 'turkey pizza') and mashed potatoes...

watched 'Guardians of the Galaxy'

and to sleep,  22:00

Nov 21st, Saturday, Diary

Day 28, my accident
Day 08  Her accident

01:30   Up to p
03:30   Up to p
05:00  awake....
06:25 Up
 Toilet  shower   dressed...     
  Coco was driving, and was waiting to get into the bathroom which #1 had just gone into...so  ... a long wait...

In her car, with all three dogs riding along,  0725.
At work  08:00....

72 rides for today,  78  to manage for tomorrow...    heh...

SO  the ops manager at work,  "RS" had sent me an email, requesting a meeting with me prior to the start of my shift on Tuesday regarding 'my health'
  and I emailed my supervisor, DB, and told him that I do NOT want any meeting with RS re my health, and was giving notice to quit, whether it be one week, two, or three.
 We talked about it  at work during the day...
And agreed that I had no need to meet with RS, and I wasn't giving notice to quit.

With a few bumps .... it was quiet enough to place a few games of WWF,  and watch a good chunk of OU TCU, that started at 17:00 or so....

which had a happy ending,  and the first 'happy ending' I've had in some time...

Dinner,  excellent beef stew,  warmed tortillas, then tortilla chips.. 
Watched "Guardians of the Galaxy" ...  
                     sleep  22:00

Nov 15, Sunday, Diary

Day 22, my accident
Day  02, Her accident

awake  00:45
Watched Elementary
  W   Ash vs Evil Dead, Marvel's Guardians of the Galaxy,  Life in Pieces
  off to the toilet.................................  sleep  03:30

06:30  Pee and snack....

09:30  awake....   coffee and newpapers
 while watching  TNR  1:10,  2:1, 2:2 
and started on 2:3, but fell asleep from  13:30 to 16:45.

Some discussion and confusion earlier as Coco misunderstood what my scheduled start time at work is on Sunday  (15:30) 
 And She had a shower to be at from noon to 17:00.
So I dealt with the office, let them know I'd be in some later than what was expected...

UP ... toilet.... shower .... dressed... toilet.... packed up   

In Coco's car,  17:53    and at work  18:50.

What a fukkin night..
 Some 'music' event on for MTV at the  PDC...  a 159 ride day, and very touch and go whether we'd get all the rides covered.
  (we did)
Except for the on line booking I got at 23:50 (that's 2:50 eastern) for a pickup at BWI (Baltimore) at 06:00.
  I called the 4 affiliates we have listed in Baltimore (one 'no', three recorded messages) and 5 affiliates we have listed in the DC area...  nothin' honey.
I hate making all the calls; I have even more saying 'no' to our clients.
  

Nov 7th, Saturday, Diary AD-14

Sleeping...
 ..
   ...
  ....

I kinda woke up with Her next to me, feeling sick Herself...
And She turned on the tv to "Remember the Titans"  ... one of my fav movies, so I watched with Her....
Then started watching the OU ISU game ... on my tablet,   
and we watched
  The Big Bang Theory
 Life in Pieces
  American Horror Story
 Fargo
  The Muppets.
   Dinner:  soup, same as last night, and t-chips...
  Major Crimes
  CSI-Cyber
  Ash vs Evil Dead
   Guardians of the Galaxy ..................................................... 

Oct 31st, Halloween, Diary AD-7

note :  this is being composed  slightly more than one day after the events took place

00:17  the first ep of  "Ash vs Evil Dead"  (AvED).
Sunshine was with me, and wanted to watch the movie, Guardians of the Galaxy.
Of course, she fell asleep halfway through, and I watched the whole thing. .................  03:45

14:00 Up and sitting in LR.
watching some football,  OU kicking Kansas up and down the field...
 Reading blog entries..on my tablet...
#1 had his pre teen daughter over for the weekend, and I was sitting around in a shirt and briefs, trying to be mostly covered up...
After they left to go trick or treating, I said I was ready, 
and Merry and I went into the bathroom, and took a shower, with Her assistance, but it was much more than that.  I sat on a high stool in the shower, and She did most of the washing.
Out and done, about 19:00.
Seated again in the living room, 
 watched TNR 3:2 and 3
  while counting trick or treaters.
  We had a total of three visits to the door, a total head count of 13.
Dinner :  pulled pork on  tortillas.
Watched TNR 3:4,5,6.   .....................................................
  

Oct. 25th, Sunday Diary A.D. 1

writer's note: this is being composed one week after the events took place....

Once we realized that 'playing' was out of the question, we decided to head home .  
She drove...
Arriving, I limped inside, went into BR1.
And watched  "Blunt Talk" season finale, followed by "Guardians of the Galaxy" ..animated.  
    to sleep  02:45.
6:45 I woke up to pee, and thought I'd see what was in the kitchen...
The pain was so much, I passed out or fainted in the kitchen.
I think I was conscious enough to catch myself from falling hard, but I do remember opening my eyes, flat on my back in the kitchen, and thinking about how cool it was there, and if I had a pillow, I could just stay there.
I managed to get up and get back in the bedroom.
I told a half awake Merry what happened, and She said, "I thought I heard some kinda thump in there."

More sleep...
Then up noonish, She served coffee and toast...
My ankle had swallen to base ball size.
We decided to go to a hospital, to at least get it xrayed.
I let DB aka 'supervisor' know that, me coming to work today was ... well, not happening...
and off we went.
In general, the hospital was a case of hurry up and wait..
But, not like I/we had anything else  to do.
We were at the same hospital that Merry's #2 was in, so during one waiting period, I sent Her off to go visit him.
I had brought both Sundays' papers, so I was prepared, but I was having trouble staying awake.
Around 1530, with a disc of x-rays in hand, and a splint on my ankle, and supplied with a pair of crutches, I was discharged.
We stopped at "In and Out" on the way home, because I had a ten dollar gift card, and I got a protein style burger (no bun) and fries and I don't remember, some soda.
I declined to eat in the car, like Merry does, and I waited til She was done.
We went home...
I went into BR1 and ate and read the papers, and watched tv, football, I think..
Nap   1700 to 20000
Dinner was leftover stir fry.
And we watched  CSI Cyber starting at 23:30 ....

Oct 17, Saturday, Diary

Watched two eps of "The Muppets"...
watched three eps of "You're the Worst"
 watched TNR 1: 5 & 6..
  while playing Scrabble.   
  Sleep  0445.

Up 0600, pee and  snack: peanut butter.

UP 9:10
Coffee... shower, dressed...
Waiting around for #1 to get ready...
Four of us in car,  11:30.
Dropped  #1 and Stitch at LBMH.
Off to a Dollar General Store, then the Pet Smart next door to it, at which I was mighty thankful to find a public-friendly restroom, and we acquired a 30 lb bag of dog food...  then the Home Depot next door, to get a couple front door keys cut for #1... and we were aghast and annoyed to see all the Christmas decorations up.
Then Trader Joe's....
Then filled up.. that is FILLED UP for the first time in quite awhile my tank...and home.
She hurried in, to use the restroom, and I unloaded the car...
Then tried out the new keys to make sure they work....
And She sat down at the desk top computer.... I could see She had opened Fet.
We had talked about filming when we got home.
This irked me a bunch. Apparently She had other priorities..
I went into BR2 and started watching the OU-Kansas State game, with OU kicking butts.
And I fell asleep.
She came in... 15:15, and asked about filming, and I said, "THAT ship sailed away when you sat down at the computer and started reading and responding on Fet."
She was ready to go visit #2 at LBMH..
So out 15:30.
A 7-11 stop to get a newpaper, as I had learned on Thursday, NO place to get a newspaper inside the hospital...
We arrived 16:00 ish...
She went up to the room, I went down to the cafeteria....  
I read the newspaper and watched  "LSU vs Florida" on t.v. on my phone....
Aroud 17:00, She tapped on my shoulder, ready to go.
We went back up to the lobby, found 'the boys'  who had gone outside to find the car instead of staying in the lobby like Merry had told them to....
And home...
And I undressed, and put a load of laundry in wash.
and  played with pens while watching football...
Bored of that, I watched
TRMS 
  Dinner   Beef stew and tortilla chips
Then an Amy Schumer special was just started at 2130..
at which time exactly my friend GG called me back, returning my call.
 I had the thing recording on the DVR anyway.
We talked until 2210 or so.
Merry had come in to lay next to me and watch the special...and had fallen asleep by the time I was done talking to GG.
I rewound the special, and watched it from the beginning.
Then I went out, and moved my laundry from washer to dryer.
Then I watched "Guardians of the Galaxy". ....    (midnight...) 

Meal log:
  2100  Beef stew and tortilla chips

10.12 Monday Diary

Dealt with the idiocy in Denmark, got on email that said, "all is good, we're having trouble with our phones, but driver is on location..."   etc
Munched on popcorn and rice cakes...
Watched TNR  2: 3,4,5,6,7,8 and 1/2 of 9.
Out 6:31, car 6:38, home 7:17.
Feed animals...
Dinner, leftover chicken and rice.
Watched "Blunt Talk" and "Guardians of the Galaxy" while Merry slept.
Sleep, myself, 8:40.
Up 13:30, to pee.
16:30, snack of peanut butter (out of the jar).
17:30 up... pee, showered, dressed, pills...toilet...
Talked to Merry, who was complaining of pain,  left side of her chest, left shoulder, down her left arm...
Kissed her good bye, 
Car 18:23.
Started thinking about what She said...
At a stop light, sent Her a text  "...Heart attack symptoms..."
Her reply basically said, "Not exactly...."
At the office, 19:08, and went in, to the toilet.
Came out to the office, and Lead on Duty said, "Call your wife."
I did, and Merry said, She decided to call 911, and an ambulance was on the way, as maybe it is a heart attack.
I went back in the dispatch office, and told the guys what was going on, and the two said, in so many words, get going...back home.
19:28 I was back on the road, heading for home, waiting for word as to which hospital She would be taken too.
Stitch called while I was southbound 710, and said, "L.R.M.C.H
with enough time that I easily made the transition to the 91 east,  and exit Downey.
I arrived at the place about 20:15, and went in.\
The emergency room was so busy...at least the waiting room... that it reminded me of "Code Black".
It took me 15 --20 minutes to get anybody's attention, to let me in, to get back to the bed She was in...
So I got back there, and She was resting, there with Stitch.
She had 2 EKGs done, was givin NGLy and aspirin...  later some other pain killer whose name I did not catch... 
And was still complaining, even crying...from the pain.
The RN returned and gave Her a shot of morphine.
She was still complaining, as She fell asleep.

Meal log:
02:00 popcorn, rice cakes
08:00 baked chicken, rice 

440 H  s l S
611 H s m l O
273  H s last Fun (Her or me)
97 H  UN
440  H s Her l O
320  D s m L ci
80  D  gluten free
31 1/2  D  s Her last D
9 D  s l P or M

10.08 Thursday Diary

07:40 up showered dressed
Car 8:15    Gas, $10,  LBCH to pick up Merry, then off to our own doctor appointments.
 Then 'far' Walmart to drop off Her new rx,  then back to LBCC.
I visited a few minutes, left Her there, and went on my way...
To Walmart to pick up Her rx, and home...
After prepping, went outside to start trimming the bougainvillea that was growing out and over the sidewalk...again.
Stitch came out to start clean up while I trimmed,  and once I finished trimmed, I helped with clean up until done.
Inside, I showered, and dressed.
And went into BR1 to start watching...catching up on... tv shows stored on the DVR.
"Agents of Shield"
 "Gotham"  three episodes
"Blunt Talk"
 Merry called, asking me to come get Her from LB Memorial, ...
 which I did, and took Her to LB Comm, to get Her car, and I followed Her home.
Plenty of leftovers in the fridge for dinner, I had pork chops and rice.
Back in BR1...
watched  "Guardians of the Galaxy"
  "Doll and Em"
"Scorpion"
 I undressed as did She, I unlocked it, and we showered together, and went to bed...
and talked.
and watched to eps of  "Big Bang Theory"
  and to sleep  00:30

344 h s l S
515  h s l O
177  h s l fun (Her or me)
11D 9 H   Locked
1    H  unlocked
344  H s Her l O
316  d s m l C
76  D  gluten free
27 1/2  d s H l date
5  d  s last p or m

Meal log:
21:00  Pork and rice   

7.04 Saturday diary

00:15  UP for somethin' to eat, since I skipped dinner the previous night...and back to sleep...
until 0300...

A blurry day.
I didn't get outta bed much but to get alka seltzer and go pee.

I watched.
   "Falling Skies"
  "Independence Day"
  "Predator"
  "Guardians of the Galaxy"
 "Criminal Minds"  (It takes a Village)
  "Expendables 3"..

And was asleep off and on, 
and mostly by 20:30.


D sl S   HR  54
D sl O  HR  54
D sl F4Me  HR 56
D sl F4Her  HR  56
D UN  96.5
D sHl O  HR  54
D sl Ci   220
D G-F     45.33
D sHl D   4.5
D sl PorM   7

The fantasy of being a boy...being embarrassed and humiliated by having to strip to get spanked while others watch... really drives me.
The only scene I would set, is the fantasy of being a boy,  made to strip, and get spanked, in front of another.

05.06 Wed Diary

While at work, watched  The Newsroom,  Season 2, episodes 1 -5.
05:00 took Pill
Then watched episodes 6 and 7.
Off work  838, a little early, because I came in an hour early.
Car  08:45.
Home  09:31.
And had Daily Meal while watching "the Guardians of the Galaxy" from where I left off, yesterday.

1130, sleep.

19:30, up for dinner.
Watched "Agents of Shield"  "Happy-ish" (for the last time, after two episodes, I'm done with it), "Criminal Minds", "CSi Cyber", "Law and Order SVU".....

Days slS  67 1/3
Days s lO  73 3/4
Days s L fun/me  67 1/3
Days s L fun/her  ~47
D UNlox  37 1/2
D s her l DO  46
D s l CI  161

05.05 Tuesday Diary

Watched The Newsroom, eps 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10.

5:15 gave Merry a wake up call.
6:15 Merry arrived to pick me up, and I was out, and in the car with her, and on the way home.
07:00 Home. 
I moved my car from the Tuesday-no-parking side, to the other side of the street...
And grabbed super glue, to try to glue the outside drivers side rear view mirror, back into place.
...while she let Donna out, and went about emptying the dishwasher, then refilling it.
..Fed the dogs...
And started breakfast, heating up leftover meatloaf...
And we went into the bedroom, and watched The Following.
Which ended at 8:37,  and we notice that "Guardians of the Galaxy" was just starting on some cable channel, so I set it to record on the DVR, and started to watch it.
And realized, I had to get up by like 5 o'clock, so watching this whole movie would be counter productive, and turned it off at 09:30, and went to sleep.
Awake on and off as I usually am...
Awake 1600, and dozing...until my alarm went off at 16:50, and I snoozed it, and got up when it went off again at 17:00.
Toilet...shower...dress...alka seltzer....  toilet...
Moved my car from the Wednesday-no-parking side, to the other side of the street,  while Merry went to find the car key that she had hidden when we came home that morning.  
17:38  in the car and rolling
18:29 at the office... and on the toilet.
Then into the Dispatch-adjacent office for the meeting with the Ops Manager.  
Which was all about...my absences from work and my health.
I spoke of my GP, and how unhelpful he has been ... 
And new insurance, and a new GP, and an appointment on 5/20.
ANd that was that, but still took close to an hour, I was in my position by 19:25.
Another evening of taking care of night work, while cleaning up the morning assignments.

Da slS   66 1/3
Da slO   72 3/4
Da slF/me 66 1/3
Da slF/her  ~46
Da UN 36 1/2
Her DO/Da s ~45
Days s l cig  160

4.09 Diary Thursday

0430  Up for P & S
0600 UP for Pill
sleeping...
1200 up for Pill
1400 awake, saw that She had just starting watching "Guardians of the Galaxy" via on/demand.
Then, watched "Criminal Minds".
UP, 1700... showered, dressed, packed and prepped...
In car 1755, with Her and Stitch...
Headed for Uppity..stopped at market, then dropped them off at the Meeting Center....18:30.
ANd began Lyft-ing....
 Got two rides for  $19.49 before going back to pick them up, shortly after nine.
Took them home, and went back to 'work'.
Sat in front of my house... 
21:51, got an order that immediately cancelled....

H s L S 966
H s L O  1119
H s L Fun 967
H s HER l F  479
H UN  256
Her DO?HR since  478
D s l c  134