05.04 Diary "... STILL locked up"

(after midnight)
I was still a spectator at the party.
Then Lady K suggested that She would find a Domme to give me some playtime,  or ...give it to me, herself.
So I continued to watch and wait.
Around 0100, She finished with the two subs she was doing,  and told me she needed to take a break to recharge batteries..
Then she returned to where I was sitting,  and said, that she really needed to wrap up and pack up for the end of the party, and I said, "No problem,  Merry gets home in a week, I can wait...."
And she said, "Hang on..." and went into the bar/kitchen area, and called, "Shilo, come here."
I did, and she introduced me to a Mistress I-forgot-her-name.
She asked me what I liked, and I said, 'Heavy impact play."
"Oh, I have a new paddle to try out."
"Game on," I said.
She pulled out of her bag a black waffle maker, and I started laughing.
"We have one of those in red AND pink.  Merry calls it  a waffle maker, because when she hits the front of my thighs, it creates a red waffle design."
"I see...." she said.
We went to a spanking bench, and I knelt on it.
She started with a table tennis paddle, which were laying around all over the dungeon.
My total lack of reaction to it suggested to her, "Okay using the new paddle now."
She began using the 'sharp' side of it... and PRESTO almost instant bleeding.  She grabbed some tissue, and told me to hold it in place, and she continued whacking with the other side of the paddle, quite high on my buttocks, possibly a bit too high... So when she said, 'Oh I have to go say good-bye to my slave before he leaves..."  I was at least a little bit relieved.
I thanked her, got up, and headed to the bathroom.
And managed to take these selfies:

I took off the thong, and put on cotton boxer briefs that I brought with me "just in case" and continued dressing ...and said good bye to whomever, on my way out.
Home about 0230.... took a selfie.

And dinner.
Sleep... 0400.
Awakened by morning wood, straining against the cage.

Up, feet on the floor 1130, with this selfie:

then quickly dressed,  motivated Stitch to get moving, and we went to my car ....to get to the supermarket.
We shopped,  we checked out, he paid, we went home, and unloaded and unpacked.
Then I stripped for a shower, and took these:

And I showered, and dressed in this, to start with:

then continued dressing,  and packed up.
She called while I was in the shower, and was on the phone with Stitch as I got out of the shower.
Then She called me back, and I said, "Let me get my hands-free plugged in, and I'll talk to you on the way to work."
Which I did, all the way to work

I'm supposed to remind Her to tell me about the "murder mystery".
At work about 1450.
I would say, work was smooth as ... my bottom, but currently that does not work well as an analogy.
Anyway,  Murphy's Law was on hiatus; all went well.
She text me around 2300 MY time, saying She was still awake.
Good Grief.

HsLS  86 1/2
HsLO  640
HsLD  22 1/2
H Locked  39 1/2
Her, out of town   1 1/2 days, more or less

from Rules of Enforced Chastity
She is entitled to tease me, arouse me, deny me, all for Her own pleasure.

from My Manifesto
This Manifest represents guidelines, rules, and regulations that are to remain in place for the duration of our marriage.

5.03 Diary "Shilo's winkie, all locked up..."

She was up all night, packing and prepping and cooking and what not.
She woke me up around 06:45, by saying, "F D A U, and take your briefs off."
I took 'em off, and knelt on the bed, FDAU.
She left the room, returned, and sat on the bed behind me.
I felt ... something enter my anus and rectum, and more of something, then more,  until I moaned, "UGHHHHHHHH...."
And She withdrew Her hand, saying, "Oh, by the way, you're constipated."
She had gotten most of Her hand in my rectum, up to about the knuckle on Her thumb.

I helped Her as much as I could with Her packing, and I fed the animals, and we showered.
Then She said, "It's lock up time."
I got out the Spartacus Deluxe, and squeezed my scrotum through the ring, followed by my penis, and slipped the cage over my penis, and attached a plastic security lock,  then asked Her to check it to make sure it was secure.

Then we packed up the car, and set off to pick up Her traveling companion.
On the way, we discussed the fisting.
I asked, if this was a make-up for NOT doing what She suggested She might do, Thursday morning.
She said, I did not really fulfill my part of the bargain in that I did not completely manage to convert Her jpg form into a usable format.
But, She thought it something I would like, before Her trip.
So we had a brief discussion about 'scales' like a scale of 1 to 10
Which I've since decided , should be from 0 to 10.  (my pleasure scale)
Where 0 is NO pleasure at all, such as eating macaroni and cheese.
5 would be dead center.  I'm okay if 'it' happens again, I'm okay if it doesn't.
10 would be the max...  like, for pastrami,  or chocolate and peanut butter candy.
And I told Her, fisting rates about a 5 and a half.
But it's situational....
To begin with, if I AM to be penetrated at all (which I do enjoy), and given the choice, I would prefer some kind of plug or dildo, and MUCH prefer a strap-on.
And for this fisting scene,  THAT I was groggy and not very awake put points against it.
And I needed to go pee, but She did not give me a chance.  Negative points.
Not knowing what She was going to do.  Negative points.  Had She told me, I could have. cooperated better, pushed against Her, opened my ass so to speak, but I did not know what was coming.
She does like to surprise me, but sometimes it  helps if I know what to expect.
Huge positive points could be added IF
.... We were to set up the videocamera, and called it a teaching video, "How to Fist Your Man"
..... It happened at home, with an audience...
....  It happened at a dungeon,  with whomever that wanted to watch, watching....  (that has happened twice).

We picked up Her traveling companion, and headed for the airport.
I dropped them curbside, about 0930,  and pulled out of the airport, and went off in search of gasoline.
Went from there directly to a bank nearby home to make our house payment...
Then went home...   to use the toilet  (interesting, how off I feel the need to 'go' after I've had a fist in my rectum), and take the selfies shown above...
Then I got back in my car, and headed for a dungeon for the Moonburn party.
There, I just had pulled into the parking lot, was sitting in my car, and another car pulled up alongside of me, and out of it stepped Will,  my favorite Top from  April of '13,  until that relationship went to hand in a hellbasket... my fault for creating expectations...  which, in the ensuing months, we talked over and resolved.
Anyway, I went in, and nodded at Devo,   who was my Top during March of '13, until THAT relationship went deep south...  and we never talked to resolve those issues, so now we're on a 'nodding' status only.
And eventually,  Stewii came in, whom I've played with a number of times, as Top and bottom, and we still message back and forth on Fet....and we chatted a bit, then he went on in to the main room.
I spent a great deal of time, watching.
Will was constantly involved with one bottom or another.  He always has quite a following there.
I saw Stewii giving, in one scene, and receiving, in others.
Towards the end of the party, I was standing at the doorway to the room Will was in, just finishing a workout he was giving to some bottom, then he looked at me, and said, 'Your turn, big boy."
I stripped to black jock-briefs,  put my hands on the spanking bench, and bent over slightly, pushing my butt out.
And he whacked my bottom, hard and proper.
And stopped, about when I could see one droplet of blood fall to the floor.
He wiped my bottom with alcohol, and said, "Okay, we're done."
I stood up, thanked him, and dressed.
It was quitting time at the party, and I left.
Home, about 1700, and I went straight to my bedroom, to take a nap.
Up around 1845, and showered,  and dressed ... for the next party I was attending.
The dress code for the party was "thong", and I had purchased, long ago, a lovely women's thong, just for this party.... but I noticed that the thong does not contain my package at all, when it's caged. 'So I had to figure out something else.
Like this:

Over that, I put on my favorite style of black tights, and a zip front shirt...  and off I went.
I arrived at the dungeon at 20:03.
The newbies class was schedule to begin at 20:00, and I walked in,  and sat down and it had not started, as Lady K said, they just opened the door at 2000, so she was waiting a few minutes, before beginning.
The class started at 2010 or so, and ended at 2030 or so... at which point, social hour began, for the subs, of which there was a major preponderance,  to meet and greet the Dommes.
Social hour is not my thing. Fact is, it's my anti-thing,  the sort of thing that has, in the past, triggered... and is still quite capable of triggering, a panic attack.
So, I stayed away of socializing.
I had no intention, in attending this party, of  trying to get playtime with some Domme, anyway.
I was there, by my own intent, to scope things out and report back to Her, what all happens and when, and to participate in the spanking line.
I will write up a more formal report, in a journal entry.
Around 2200, Lady K began setting up chairs for the spanking line, that started in the first medium size room, and snaked through the second medium size room, and included the slightly elevated stage, and said, "Heavy masochists up front, and on the stage... paddles included if you're willing,  medium subs this way, and around this way for lightweights."
I hurried to a place on stage, and bent over the examining table on the stage.
The Dommes started coming around.
The second to approach me said "Hello" and asked if it was okay if she used a rubber baton-like paddle on me.
SURE.
Yeah, it stung a ...little...bit...and also drew drops of blood on the spot weakened earlier in the day.
The next Domme up put a paper towel in my hand, and told me to hold it there.
Later, Lady K came up and said, 'You boys getting enough attention up here?"
"NO," I said, emphatically.
"Well, let's try Ol Betsy," she said, referring to a wooden paddle, not at all thick,  maybe 5" by 8" overall.
She smacked my butt a few times, and I all but chuckled.
"How does that feel?"
"Have you started yet?' I asked.
"Oh, such a smart mouth, I'm going to tell Mistress Merry on you."
"Oh, She knows already," I said.
A couple more smacks... and there was blood on the paddle.
"You got blood on my paddle!" she said, in mock indignation.
"Happens quite often, ask Merry," I said.
In the course of the evening, every time I bumped into Her, She said, "YOU got blood on my paddle..."
The spanking line event ended about  22:30,  and it was time for all the other scenes,  whether by Dommes using their dance cards, and by Dommes who brought their subs for play.
I saw, in one smaller room, a short Domme pegging a BIG black fellow, as he lay back, with his legs up and spread....
And another scene, as a Domme had her slave over a bench, inserting numerous plugs into his rectum, then finishing with a long hard pegging...
And some rope bondage, and puh-lenty of impact play scenes.

as of midnight:
HsLS  62 1/2
HsLO 616
HsLD  9
H Un/Locked  8 1/2 / 15 1/2
Her, OOT  (from, leaving the house)  15 H
Her DO   no
Did I offer?  No, for lack of time.  She kinda suggested it, but in retrospect, I think it woulda made Her late for the flight.



from Rules for Enforced Chastity
She is entitled to tease me, deny me, and generally kept me aroused for as long as She deems fitting.
from My Manifesto:
No part of My Manifest is intended to interfere with my career, or Spiritual, or family life.

5.02 Diary

Working an extra shift today so
UP 0700.
And to the toilet, then feed the animals, and showered and dressed, and in my car -0800, arrived at work 0920.

 One of those days when Murphy's Law was working overtime.
Vehicular failure.
 Client making unreasonable requests, and becoming extremely pissy when we couldn't comply
 Chauffeurs having mental lapses.
 I felt severely worked over by the time I left, at 1940.
Home, 2045  and exhausted.
She was still out, shopping.
I hit the shower for a good soak, and she had returned, with dinner, from KFC by the time I got out.
She had brought along the friend with whom She had spent the day shopping, who was also at the dining room table, unbeknownst to me.
I came out of the bathroom wearing black boxer briefs and black socks, and it did not bother me a bit for her, or Her, or Stitch to see me wearing such. I simply went to my bedroom, and found a shirt to put over my bare chest, and returned to the dining room table.
After dinner, I excused myself, and went to my bedroom, and was asleep by 22:00

HsLS  38 1/2
HsLO   592
HsLD  38
H&D UN  16 / 3
Her DO? No
Did I offer?  No

from Rules of Enforced Chastity
I shall keep Her informed of my experience; how it feels, how much I suffer 
from My Manifesto
She may discipline me, command me, train me, and love me, as She sees fit, at any time, at any place, under any circumstance.

05.01 Diary

Woke up around 0545.

She was not in bed....found out, She couldn't sleep, and was antsy about a project that She had to do before Her upcoming convention...and She was in Her bedroom, at Her computer, doing so.

Meanwhile Stitch was up and ...in the bathroom.      SIGH

Had a snack, went back to bed.

Both of us awake, 0900.   She wanted the DailyOrgasms that She missed yesterday, and for today.

I started by servicing Her orally, then got on top of Her, for a good session of intercourse....

until She said, "I've had enough..."

And I had to stop and withdraw.

Would I have cum had I continued?  Maybe.  From the way I felt at that moment, don't know.

Does it annoy me that She told me to stop?

No. 

 Just the other day, I suggested this sort of thing, as a form of tease and denial, or male orgasm control.

She kinda rolled to the side when I got off, and I took the opportunity to smack Her buttocks a few times, with my hand, and even applied the newish plastic thingee to Her bottom.

Shortly after that, I was stretched out, naked, on my stomach, and She brought out the bath brush, and applied about 30 smacks of it to my bottom.

Up, and I went to the toilet...and this time our young female boarder was in the bathroom, taking a shower.

SIGH....

Eventually I was able to get into the bathroom.

Then, turned on my laptop, and got online long enough  to pay bills that were due today.

Then we showered and dressed....and went out to my car, 11:11,   and we headed to Burbank for a weekly text-study class.

We were late, but no big deal, it's very informal.

We left there at 1305, and headed for the Hysteria Galleria.  

First stop, JCP.    Nope.

Then Macy's where She found two suitable dresses....

and I took this picture  

And She found jewelry for Her septum....

And we left there at 15:55,   starting the 25+ mile ride home in the fangs of rush hour.

We discussed what had to be done, and what didn't.

Walmart for specific shampoo...tomorrow.

Von's for general shopping.. tomorrow.

Home Deport for plumber's tape and paint  ...  tomorrow.

She dozed off during the later part of the ride.

I was heading for Her bank.

Heading south on the 710, I planned to go west on the 91, and get off at Atlantic, to go south...and managed to go east on the 91 instead.   

I got off at LBB, just like I was heading home...continued south, and turned left on Delamo. Cruising along there, She woke up, looked around and said, "You get lost again?"

"It's not the route I planned, but it'll work out," I said, turning right on Atlantic.

I pulled into a big parking lot, and suggested, "I'll get our prescriptions at CVS while you go into the bank."

"Sure."

I went in, bought and paid for five prescriptions, and returned to my car.

Eventually, "she" returned to the car, carrying an ice cream car.

And we went home.

I took care of some chores, while she started making  phone calls; she had a list of about 60 to go through.

Around 1930, little-s, Stitch and I went out to dinner at HTB.

The primary topic of conversation was ...  locking Stitch in a chastity device, or not.

Little-s was implying that Merry planned to do just that.

I was left to explaining to him, the benefits of it.

I had to admit, I really had/have no idea how compatible the device is with lots of bicycle riding.

And I did point out....   Stitch and Merry are NOT married AND  Stitch and Merry do NOT have any kind of agreement that Merry and I have, so it was my opinion that Stitch was under no obligation  to accept the chastity device;  I did not believe that he could be required to do so.

We had dinners, we finished,  we made a note to NOT go to this HTB on a Thursday before 8 pm, and we went home.

She was feeling quite full, as I was,  and after minor preparations, we went into the bedroom.

I started watching Fargo, while doing some notebook reorganization, and she came along, and simply fell asleep next to me.  

Fargo ended, and I left the tv on with whatever else was one, while I finished what I was doing.

She woke up, as Her, ready to eat a little something, to go with Her evening pills.

I had an early shift (0900) at work the next day, so my alarm was set for 0700, and we were heading into sleep around  00:00.

Now...  I refer to the statement/email She sent me,  Tuesday night,
   "I will make an attempt to do this to/for you....."
By reading this entry, you can see that no attempt was made, even if you don't know what She was referring to,  but you can see that nothing out of the ordinary happened.
For me, when I tell someone that I will do something, if at all possible, then I move heaven and earth to do it.  I write myself notes, I set alarms, I do whatever it takes.
But    that's     me.
I have learned, through some emotional trauma, during my experience with kink & BDSM,
to NOT have ... expectations.
When somebody says to me, that she/he  might do this, or expects to do that  or plans to do the other, well, I hear it, I listen to it, but I do not set an expectation to it.
That way, I don't get disappointed when "it" does not happen.
Which is good for my emotional-well being.
However, what seems to happen when the event does not happen is, that I mentally file the non-event into a folder titled "It didn't happen".
And that folder is in a bigger folder labeled 'Passive aggressive possibilities".
And should it happen that the person who first suggested the event, which became a non-event,  decides or suggests  to make it into an event, like right here, right now,
I tend to pull the non-event out of the 'P-A-P' folder, and react by saying, "No, thanks, I'm not interested in doing that, anymore."
Whether I'm interested or not in it,  or I should say, no matter how much I really want to do it.
I think this is my way of telling the other person, "See!?  It did not bother me at all when you suggested doing this early and did not follow through.  I set no expectations on you, for it, and now I just don't want it."

HsLS  14 1/2

HsLO  568

HsLD  14

H unL   15 H + 3 D

Her DO?  Yes

from Rules of Enforced Chastity:

 My genitals are Hers only.  I must learn to leave them alone, unless I have permission otherwise.

from My Manifest:

 I will physically pleasure Her, as She requests, and as often as She requests.

04.3O Diary

In the course of the previous night, She asked me to look at a file that was sent to Her in jpeg format, and try to convert it to some kind of word document, to which She could copy and paste other data.
As part of that request, She wrote this:
 P.S. Remember that thing we discussed this morning? If you manage to fix this, I will personally make an attempt to do it to/for you Thursday morning after everyone leaves for work ~J
 (She always uses a larger font for Her emails)
I put some work into it, during the night,  but could not convert it to a proper word doc, but was able to convert it to a readable format, then print it out, and then I asked Her to forward to me the data, and I would fill it in. 
I got off work at 0930, and found a table, and began filling in the data.
Then I was ready to go, got in my car, and saw the low fuel light blinking.
I went down LaBrea to the Chevron at Beverly,  just to use the per-gallon discount I had available ...   10 cents a gallon.  I put in about 11 gallons...and realized I went down to that station to save, oh,  a dollar and ten cents.  Then I had decide, which way home,  and chose going east on Beverly, expecting to turn left on Vermont, then right onto the 101...
But it's posted No Left Turn from Beverly onto Vermont.  
So, I kept going, as Beverly turned into Temple, and east on Temple to Alvarado, left, and then right onto the 101.
Then sailing along, onto the 5 south....and  1/2 mile from the transition onto the 710 south, I saw the sign, saying  "Accident at Imperial Highway, 710 down to one lane"  and I didn't have much time to consider options....and so bit the bullet, and merged onto the 710 south.
And came to a near stop.
For the next many many miles, it was stop, go a few feet, stop..... 
I did not go through any lane closures.
By the time I got to Imperial, the whole freeway was open and moving.  
Home, about 1215.
Took care of minor chores.
Ate a minor snack.
The outdoor temperature was in the 90s....  and the temperature in my room tends to run cold when it's cold outside, and hot, when it's hot outside...  and really, too hot to sleep. There are overhead fans in the two bedrooms,  and the dining room, but not in my room.
All of which is to say,  I say down in my reclining chair, to take a nap.

I was asleep when She came home, when Stitch came home...
At some point, She asked me if I wanted to go to the "5th Wednesday" munch, and I did not.
Found out later, She did not really want to go either. 
I continued dozing, until about 20:00, then went into my bedroom, to continue.
She came in, with a yearning to watch TBBT.
I said, "Let me get some dinner together first."
I did, and we watched...   
And I fell asleep, not too long thereafter.

HsLS 38 1/2
HsLO  542
HsLD  38
H UN   15h, 2 Days
Her DO?  No
Offer? NO

Rules of Enforced Chastity:
 I will keep myself clean. I will keep the device clean. I will maintain my personal health,  and accept prostate massaging and milking, when She calls for it.
from My Manifesto
 At restaurants, I will order food and beverages for Her, unless She otherwise indicates. I will sit to Her left,  or directly across from Her, with my back to the door.   

4.29 Diary

Another  wonderful shift at work.  (Sarcasm intended)
Out 6;49, and home 7:47.
She was wide awake, and waiting for me.
I fed the animals, and got in the shower for a quick one, then got into bed with Her.
We talked for a bit, then I gifted Her some DOs, orally, until She pulled me up onto Her, and we engaged in some hot fucking.
I begged Her to tell me to stop before I 'came', and She did, in a weak voice.
We lay there for awhile, until She suggested that She would not mind another go round, and I was happy to comply.
After a bit, I stopped ...fucking Her...of my own accord...and we lay together until She had to get up, to get ready for work.
I helped while She was in the shower, picking out Her clothes, and as I stood, facing Her bureau,  She came  out of the bathroom holding Her recently purchased plastic hairbrush,  and smacked my buttocks with it, some twenty times.
Then She dressed, and went on Her way to work.
I fixed and ate dinner, and went to my room to bed.
And slept a little bit, until the outside temperature rose to like 90 degrees, which meant it was not much less in my room, and I went out the living room, which was much cooler, and slept in my easy chair.

I don't think I heard Her come in from work.
I got up at 1700...

Toilet  and shower and dressed, and presented Her with a couple gifts that arrived in the mail, include a breast and clitoris pump and vibrator, which She was amusing Herself with as I continued getting ready.
She was half asleep, when I came in to kiss Her, goodbye.
She came in the kitchen, and put her teeth marks on my chest, above my nipples.

In the car 1840, and at work  19:18.\
I had just parked, when one dispatcher came out to me and said, "Please hurry on in,  Sam needs your help putting out fires."
Crap.
I went in, and ... put out fires...then went to the toilet  and came back in the room, to settle in.
The evening was ...a bitch,  and just got worse....   with new orders put in...   and the other guy even apologetically left, while we had one ride at 06:15 with NO idea of how it was going to be covered.

Fuck Me.

HsLS  14 1/2
HsLO  518
HsLB  14
D Un    1
Her DO:  Many, She said.

from Rules of Enforced Chastity
 I will not try to circumvent, get around, or remove the device of my own accord.
from My Manifesto
I will not be sexual with any play partners, at any time

She loves to leave Her mark on me

She loves to leave Her mark on me

Getting ready for work

Nice backside view, I think

4.28 Diary Locked until I got home from work

Another a pinche culero of a night.... in my car 0700, home 0800.
Fed the animals....and got in the shower for a long one.
She joined me, around 0900, and told me to cut the plastic lock and take the device off.
If I seemed disappointed, I was.  Oh well.
I dried off, She got out of the shower and dried off, and we went to Her bed, and got on and in it,  just for cuddling and pillow talk.
Then we got up..and She got up and ready for work, and left around 10:30
And I ate dinner, and read the paper...and went to bed.

She came into my room around 1615,  to tell me that She had ordered a surprise for me... and to make sure I didn't order it for myself.
She was preparing to leave, and let me sleep a bit more, and I had rolled onto my stomach, over the covers, and She looked at my butt, deliciously covered in thin skimp skamp panties, and grabbed a few implements on the table on Her side of the bed, and smacked my butt for a bit, with them.
Not nearly long enough, not nearly long enough, but it was sweet, nonetheless.

I dozed another hour, and got up and moving, and showered and dressed.
In car 1845.
At work  1937.

The Manager was filling in for the woman who usually does set up on Mondays.
Which meant,  I did not have to answer too many questions about morning set up, but it also meant, he always leaves in the evening, when the primary job is done, in this case, around 2230.
Then the last reservation agent leaves at 2300.

And I got 'slammed', every which way but loose.

ME COME!

HsLS  203
HsLO 494
HsLD  7 1/2
H L/UN  9/15
Her DO?  No
Did I offer? No, She was having abdominal distress.

from Rules of Enforced Chastity:
No reason is required of Her to lock me up. It is entirely at Her discretion.

from My Manifest:
I may attend parties and events without Her accompanying me, at Her discretion.

After a few whacks with various implements, but lousy lighting

Unlocked just a couple hours earlier.  I didn't touch it!!

After a few whacks with various implements, in lousy lighting

Getting ready for work, sans chastity device

Getting ready for work,  sans chastity device

4.27 Diary Still locked up

Up 11.45
It woulda been nice to get up in time to go to Service, but I wanted?need? the sleep.
Went to the toilet, cleaned the porta-potty, fed my Cookie, checked the hot tub, sprayed flea spray around my room, ate something, took my pills, read the newspaper....
Showered and dressed and left my budget/spreadsheet on Her desk... and packed up,
...was in my car 1417, and at work 15:16.

Just a crappy night at work, mostly due to my feelings of ...rage...towards my co-worker.
Fudeu caralho!

HsLS  179
HsLO  470
HsLB   147 1/2
H Locked 62
Her DO?   not applicable

from Rules of Enforced Chastity
She owns me, including all my genitalia.  She decides what to do with any and all of me, and of it.  She has the right to secure it and lock it up, if that is Her desire.
from My My Manifesto
 I may not seek any other Mistress or Master or Dominant or Top or lover without having Her express consent and permission, and any I may find must meet with Her approval.

Just woke up, a little on the 'full' side

Love these briefs when wearing a device

When wearing a device, I love these briefs.

04.26 Diary (locked up all day)

Alarm 0715.
Actually up, 0800.
Took pills.
Animals, fed by Stitch.
Showered and dressed.
Packed up, in car 0900.
At work, 0940.
...
OUT  19:42.
Home, an hour later.
She called me while I was still 20 minutes away from home. I answered the phone with, "I'm driving right now, honey."
"I'll let you go," She said.
Once home, I sent Her a text, "Now would be okay."
She called, we talked briefly.
I got the last of my laundry out of the dryer in and away.
And set up my laptops and cussed at them for not working how I wanted them to.
Fixed and ate dinner,  and watched a couple "Mike and Molly"s.
Went to sleep 00:30

HsLS 155
HsLO  446
HsLB  123 1/2
H Locked  38
Her DO?  Not applicable, She was out of town

from Ten Commandments
I will request punishment when I deserve it, and readily submit to any punishments you choose to apply.
From My Manifest
I am expected to maintain a positive outlook.

Naked meditation before work

Dressing for work

For work, dressing

04.25 Diary (Back in the cage....again....)

Up, 0900, and running to the toilet with diarrhea.
I fed the animals...
AND
She said, "It's time for your lock up, get a device, and get it on."
I did.
She tried to shut the plastic lock in place, and couldn't, so I did that too.
She started getting ready for Her trip, packing and such, and I helped as much as I could.
Her friends that were supposed to arrive at 1100, arrived at 1045.  I saw them walking up the walk to our front door, as She was coming in the back door from the laundry area, still half naked, and I told Her to 'hurry up'.
She got dressed, and came into the living room, and addressed the two ladies there,  telling them that ...
in fact, She has been divorced from Stitch for some time now, and is married to me, as of September last.
One of the ladies said, "I thought you were gay...."
I whispered with a smile, "She ... lied."
Then added, "That was just...the cover story."
I helped Her get Her bags to the vehicle,  and aided in navigation, and the three of them, with Her driving one of the other's van, departed around 11:30.
I went in, for another sit down on the toilet,  and self-administered a couple bulb's worth of enemas, in an attempt to get it all out at once.
And I dressed, and filled out the time sheets that arrived weeks ago, with Her hours of working at HLB's house.
Then I went out to my car..... stopped for gas... and drove to HLB's house, to get his signature on the sheets.
Which resulted in much conversation, at least on the listening end,  as HLB always has much to say on any given subject.
At a moment when he stopped long enough to take a breath, I got up and excused myself out.
We're the joke of the neighborhood, but why should we care if we're feeling good, and I took the long way home.
....Stopping at Her bank, to deposit the checks that came in the day before, then CVS for various prescriptions, then home.
..cleaned out the porta-potty in my bedroom, and scooped the litter box, and took a shower, and started Her laundry, and emptied the dishwasher, and measured the front yard, and drew a diagram, and cut down the spanking-yardstick, and continued with laundry, and gathered a bunch of trash to take out, and went out to the garage to count another box of comics, and brought in my box of spanko magazines, and then watched an episode of BBT from which I wanted to write down some dialog...
And I made dinner for myself.... and I finished off watching the Archer series....
And asleep about 0130, which was kinda stupid, as I was getting up kinda early to go to work.

HsLS  131
HsLO  422
HsLB  99 1/2
H Un/L   10/14
Her DO?  No
Did I offer? No

From  "Ten Commandments"
I confess all my transgressions to You, and I never lie to you."

From My Manifesto
I will never leave Her room without permission at any time unless it is a life threatening emergency.

04.20 Diary

My alarm went off at 0800,  with the intent of us getting up to go to service....
but we both had gone through such abdominal distress, that we stayed in.

She got up, and started on breakfast...
And I got told by Stitch, that it was ready....
So I was up, at 1000 or so,   drinking coffee, popping pills, and eating cinnamon toast.

We were sitting on our easy chairs in the living room.... and She said, quietly, just so that I didn't quite hear Her, "Wanna fuck?"
"What?"
"There are only two good answers to that...'
"I couldn't hear the question!"
"Oh! I asked, do you want to fuck..."
After a minute, I just grinned, and we went to El.

We had .... a very good time....   that included, using a couple of vibrators from my collection, while giving Her oral,  and at times, not.
And She told me that She and Stitch 'did it', late Friday night or very early Saturday morning, whichever the case was....which makes, oh, twice during April... that She's told me about.
She told me about taking with Stitch, yesterday, while riding around, and that he did not believe, or chose not to believe, that I really don't mind... or care.... that She and he continue to have sex, now and again.
And I said, I was told about the relationship between them, going into my relationship with Her.
Nothing I can do about it.
Nor should I want to ...do anything about it.
IT does not take anything away from our relationship.
And, I am glad...to see Her happy.

And then She said.... or reminded me....  (not that I needed reminding, as I've had it somewhere in my cerebral cortex for quite some time)  that She is committed to 'locking me up' before She goes out of town, the coming Friday....and will be gone for two overnights...and might not be back on Sunday before I leave for work....  and that I should choose my most comfortable device because She will "probably keep it on me, except for occasional times just to take it out and play with it"  through Her out of town trip that commences with Her flight out of town on May 3, and ends with Her return on May 9.
And She has not spoken of any plans on Her return, whether to unlock me momentarily, temporarily, for a short time, for a long time, or not at all.
And This is a good scenario example of "mixed emotions".
And it's NOT that She doesn't 'trust' me.
I am not going to be schtupping someone else, just because She's out of town.
She knows that. I know that.  
I am SOOOOO very mono.    
It's about the power exchange.
She enjoys the idea of me being locked up, with Her in control.
And, I enjoy having Her in control........................................................ <sometimes, sort of, kind of>

By 13:00, we were done with the fun...
And I had to get moving,  to get ready to go to work.

I showered, dressed, made coffee....   packed up my stuff....
Said goodbye to anybody who wanted to hear it...
Was in my car  about 1415....
And clocked in at work 14:58.
I'm supposed to be here at 14:30, but no one really pays attention, it's MY time I'm losing.
And with it being Easter,,,  the day shift guy was already gone when I arrived.

I 'knocked' out the set up for tomorrow, and wrote 5 days worth of blogs........

HsLS  11
HsLO 302
HsLD  80
D UN  117

from My Affirmations:
 I listen to Her.  Even if She doesn't explicitly tell me to do something,  She might be giving me information on Her needs and wishes.

from My Manifesto
 I will not leave the room without permission at any time unless it is a life threatening emergency.

04.19 Diary

10.00 up, feet on the floor...coffee and snack...  and a strong abdominal reaction to what I think is the teriyaki sauce from last night's dinner....  
And talking to Her, as She was getting ready.
This, by prior agreement, was Her (Satur)day with Stitch, and She had another Installation to attend at a different Lodge, and so... She was taking Stitch with Her.
Since it was 'open' and Stitch would be going in, She wanted him to dress 'nice'.    He was having a tantrum about it, like a ten year old might, and their bickering was so annoying, that I put my fingers in my ears so as to not hear it.
They finished, and he went and changed into 'something nice'... and they departed, around 12 or so.
I carefully went about some chores... carefully, I say, because my knee was still plenty tender from yesterday's fall... AND good-lord-help-me,  my bowels were still reacting in a very annoyed I-have-no-control sort of way.
I stripped the sheets off my bed, and got 'em in the wash, and put the top comforter in the dryer, with a dryer sheet, just to try to get some cat hair of it.
I schepped the stuff we brought in from my car, the previous night, out to the garage door.
I washed dishes and pots.
I emptied the dishwasher.
I had brought in three boxes of kitchen stuff of Hers from the garage to the dining room. I emptied one box, and put in the dishwasher, that which needed washing, and fired it up.
I got the quilt out of the dryer, put the washed sheets in the dryer, and put my load of darks into the wash.
The portable toilet in my El was half full of liquid ..and solid, and I emptied it and cleaned it.
I found my figurines.... poker playing dragons and other things...and unwrapped them, and put them in the glass curio cabinet in my room.
I cleared 90% of the junk off the front porch.... junk that had been there since we moved in.
I got my darks out of the wash, into the dryer.
I watered the trees and plants in the front yard.
I tested the vibrators in Her toy/picnic basket...and could not find even one that worked  with new batteries installed.
And I sat down with a snack of crackers, to rest my knee a bit.
They arrived home, about 3:30....
I accomplished my weekly reading of The Science of Mind.
And I got up, and went out the the dryer, and brought my darks in, and put it all away.
And I got the sheets and quilt on the bed.
I made my weekly phone call to my parents, while She listened, so She could chip in with an occasional "Hi Mom".
And I went out to the garage, to continue with my 'comic counting' project.
I uncovered my box of porno-books ...not picture magazines, but actual softcover books....
And I uncovered my box of my favorite comics... my Buffy the Vampire Slayer collection, and my run of The Inferior Five from 1968, and my complete run of  "Not Brand Ecch" from 1967 to 1969.
 (No, I don't STILL have this from 1967 or 1968,  the ones I had are LONG gone;  I bought these to rebuild those collections,  about fifteen years ago.)
Back in the house..... and I saw, once I opened the dishwasher, that we would have WAY more coffee cups than places to put them....
So I commenced a project of installing hooks hanging down from the base boards of the cupboards...until there were enough hooks for all the cups....
I was just wrapping that up, when She came in, fixin' to prep dinner for Stitch, Herself ..and then me.
Once I had dinner on a tray,  She and I went on into El...
And turned on the t.v.
And watched multiple episodes of The Big Bang Theory,  until we were 'caught up' to the present.

Afterwards, She started watching "Goodfellas' which I tried to ignore ..and sleep...but was not very successful.
I think it was 0100 at lights out... not really sure.....

HsLS  151
HsLO  278
HsLB  56
D Un   116

from My Affirmations:
 I will please Her and do everything I can to make Her feel appreciated for the beautiful woman that She is.

from My Manifesto:
 When I am with Her, I will ask permission before leaving the room, I will explain where I am going, and why. 

04.18 Diary

Up around 04:30 for pee n snack.... 

And up, feet on the ground, around 10:00.

Toilet, coffee, pills, newpaper.

Talking about what had to be done today, in prep for Her Installation/dinner tonight.

She was at Her computer, typing up words for Her speech...

I went to the toilet again... came out of the bathroom, and tripped on an air current....

(seriously,  I don't know what happened but)

And sprawled flat, with my left knee/knee cap taking the brunt of the impact. 

I sat down in my easy chair, while Stitch brought to me a baggie filled with ice to put on my knee....

And She and Stitch went out to do shopping and supply-gathering while I sat there.

They returned with one load ..of perishables...from Von's...and left again, and returned with general supplies from Smart n Final.

I managed to get up, and hobble around some, and load up my minivan with all the goodies...

And Stitch and I rode down to the Lodge where the event was being held.

Getting inside the Lodge was a mini-adventure.

After trying the key She provided us on  the back gate, and the front door, I hopped the brick fence to get inside the courtyard, but the key did not work on the back/kitchen door either.

So Stitch called Her....  and that's when we found out, the key works on the door that faces the parking lot.

Well, once inside, we brought everything in.....

And went about setting up ...and decorating...the (artificial) Christmas tree,  while Stitch set up tables in the dining area.

Once I was done, I went out to my car, and drove off to pick up May, and brought her to our house, to wait until we were ready to go to the dinner.

She was still cooking, and had a ways to go with it.

I showered and dressed, and tried to help Her, washing dishes as She used them etc.

Then She showered and dressed,  while I loaded up the car.

All three of us got in the car, and headed for the Lodge....

And brought everything inside, and dinner was served....  chicken baked in soy/teriyaki sauce with pineapple, rice,  broccoli, and various salads.

I went into the Shrine room, and came back, and told Her, it wasn't quite set up, so She came back with me, and we arranged it as needed.

The members convened for the meeting, shortly after 20:00,  and I went to find a place to get my weight off my knee...and I napped until 21:00 or so.

Stitch came in, and sat up with a jolt, when he woke me up...

And we returned to the dining area for dessert.  

Then came time to pack things up.... 

And un-decorate the tree, and take down the tree, and put it back in the box.

I sat down down somewhere,  and She came up to me, and asked me to 'help' Stitch get the leftovers and stuff in the car.

Grumbling, I stood up and hobbled about...as my knee had completely stiffened up. 

And helping Stitch, as it turned out, meant doing it all myself, as he was nowhere to be seen as I went back and forth to my car.

All got loaded, and the four of us got in the car.

I took May home, and we returned home.  

She told Stitch,  "After I use the bathroom, I will help you unload the car. I want Shilo to just go in, and rest his knee."

We pulled up to the front of the house, and She had Her head back against the rest, and was sound asleep.

So, Stitch  and I unloaded the vehicle, and once we were done, I woke Her up enough to come inside.

Stitch and I continued,  reducing large containers of chicken and cake and broccoli to smaller ones that would fit in the refrigerator.

And I went on to my bedroom, and stripped down, and got into bed.

By a previous decision, this was a night She was to sleep with Stitch....and She came in to get Her CPAP, and to talk to me a few minutes, before going to bed.

And I watched the new episode of Nurse Jackie...

 And was asleep,   00:30 or so.

HsLS  127 

HsLO  254

HsLB  32

D UNl   115

from The Ten Commandments

   I will request punishment when I deserve it, and submit to all punishments that She applies.

from My Manifesto:

 I accept any punishment, discipline, or training regimen that She chooses to give or inflict upon me.

  

04.17 diary

Up around 0400 to pee and get a snack...

She was gone, to work, by the time I got my feet on the floor, around 11:30.

I fed my felines, and scooped, and snacked while popping my pills.

I then went out to the garage, and started looking for the boxes She wanted for Her dinner meeting, the next night.  

I found the Christmas tree box, and the hibuscus box, but couldn't find the Christmas decorations box until She came home, came in the garage, and pointed it out to me.   

Then I sat down to do some toolbox sorting, then took the boxes inside the house... then started on a serious mopping of the kitchen floor.

She left, to run some errand, and I sat down for a quick nap.

She returned home, and told me to pull the spanking bench out to the middle of the floor.

And told me to strip down and get on it...while She went into El, and returned, carrying implements.

She told me THIS was for NOT providing Her with daily orgasm(s)... or even offering to do so.

She began with 18 of a red-handled faux-wood hairbrush on each of my buttocks, on the lower curves near the junction of the thighs....  followed by 18 of the medium holy paddle nearly square in the middle of each buttcheek ... then 18 of the bath brush, up high on each buttcheek.

She took some pictures.....  then after I dressed a little,  we talked a bit about this guy Lx, who had expressed an interested in being Her sub, at one time,  disappeared after our only face to face, and was once again sending Her desperate text messages. 

I "sat" a bit,  and took notes from the new TV Guide...

Then we both showered and dressed....

And were in my car around 17:55...  once again, 10 to 25 minutes later than we planned... oh well, as we were heading for a munch in HB that is billed as starting at 18:30, but it seems whenever we get there at 18:30, it is well in progress.   

We arrived ...1835 or so...and once again,   it almost seemed like we were late.

We were chowing down on chips and salsa as if we hadn't eaten in a week.....  yet it took 35 minutes from our arrival til we were served beverages.   A bit of an annoyance.

Then the guest speaker started....  a Mistress who owns Dragonsgate.  

I've been to that dungeon once, just about a year ago, so I barely recognized her on sight.

While she spoke, I whipped out a nail file, and began ...filing my nails.

I was halfway through number nine, when Merry turned and hissed, "Stop that, please."

Well...  wtf.

Not the place to get into any kind of discussion about it,  so I shrugged, and put the file away....

and had an immense feeling of resentment and anger build up inside my chest.  

When Miss J finished, she opened the floor to discussion.

A question was posed..... whether or when is it okay for a sub to approach a Domme to inquire about playing...

A woman whom I despise from listening to her ravings at a previous munch raised her hand to answer...

And I excused myself to the toilet, so I wouldn't have to listen to her.

I returned, and checks were being passed out.

I paid ours....  and we prepared to leave.

I was very quiet and sullen on the way home...

And went directly to El,  and stripped for bed, and She came in behind me.

I asked for the remote to the tv, which was on Her side of the bed.

It slipped out of Her hand and fell to the floor, so She picked it up... and used Handiwipes to wipe it down.

She set it on the bed next to me and ...I ignored it.

I read a couple days of newpapers , while She lay down, flat on Her back...and started snoring.

I went 'lights out'and tried to go to sleep...... 

And couldn't.  

I was still filling full of resentment  ...

And I couldn't sleep.... because of that, because of Her snoring, because of the noise our lively kittens pair were making, as they frolicked around the bedroom...

I got up, went and had a snack, and sat down, and reclined in my easy chair to sleep....

She got up at Her 'pill time',  came into the dark living room, and found me...and requested I return to the bedroom and bed.... 

Which I did....

HsLS 103

HsLO 230

HsLD  8

D UNl 114

from The Ten Commandments

 I will confess my transgressions to Her, and never lie to Her.

from My Manifesto:

 My raison d'entre is to please Her, to the best of my ability.

Pictures from ..afterwards.

 

04.16 Diary

Off work  0930 and ..away!
On the way home, I stopped by HD, as I had a fixation on acquiring a certain kind of paint-stirring paddle that I had seen in an Impact Play class...  and replacing the string-edger that we bought a month prior, on which I think I burned out the motor.
The store did not carry the type of paint-stirring stick I was looking for, so instead, I acquired a couple of wooden yardsticks, with a different 'device' in mind for it... along with another edger...
And I went home, checked on the animals...  and called Her...while She was at work, and She wanted me to come and meet Her there, to catch up on paperwork.
And I went....
And arrived,  and sat with Daddy W, who signed all the timesheets I had, and I filled in the times on them.... dating back to last mid-December, and prepared them for mailing.
Once done, I made my way out....  went down the road to the mailbox drop that was recommended to me.... then continued on surface streets all the way home in search of a Chev. gas station....   and found one...and put some gas in my car...then went on up the road, sidetracking slightly to take a picture of a beauty shop that had the same name as the company I took for, which seemed amusing....
And went on home, where She had arrived before me, and was a bit puzzled by that, but was okay after I explained my delay.
I put together the string edger  (not a big deal, that)...  got the extension cords out....  and went to it,
until I had whipped the entire front yard,  and the sidewalk area outside of our fenced yard.

More than a little muscle-sore and tired and hot.... I persevered, beginning work on the yardstick project I had in mind.
I had started the project earlier, by gluing two yardsticks together to create one 'thicker' one.
Here I began with grinding down six inches of one end, to create the sense of a skinnier and easier to hold handle, which I then wrapped up in electrical tape.
And I drilled holes down about 18" of the length of it,  in order to lessen wind resistance as it is swung.
That accomplished...
I saw no point in taking a shower, soaking in the hot tub, then taking another shower,  so I stripped down in preparation for going into the hot tub.
She came out to join me, and suggested hosing me down a bit, to get most of the dust and grass debris off of me, before I got it.
Receiving a cold water hosing was not something for which I leaped at the opportunity, but it I had to agree, it was a good idea....
That ...done,  we got in the tub....  and soaked for awhile and talked.
Then up and out....and off to the shower....
She put together dinner,    ham hocks and black eyed peas....  and I moved on into El.

I watched the first ep of "Fargo" and was out, asleep by 2300 or so.
I'm sure She joined me at some point, but I don't remember much about it.

HsLS  79
HsLO 206
HsLB  38
Days Un 113

From The Ten Commandments:
  I will listen to Her attentively whenever She speaks to me. 

From My Manifest:
  I will not discuss Her health with ANYone else... without Her express permission.

04.15 Diary

Delayed getting out of the office; in my car 0645.....
And in  the usual, meaning horrid, traffic, heading south on the 101..
Home, a tick before 0800.
I feed the critters, and scooped the litter box...
And heard Her alarm go off, and went in to say 'hello', and it was little-s waking up to join me, as I put together my breakfast which was lunch and dinner.... and sat and ate while reading the paper....
And to El, and told her to follow me if she really wanted to.....
And I stripped, down to just socks, and lay down prone across my bed, face down...
And she applied strokes of the zombie killer, the dark wood paddle, two different hairbrushes, and then the thick squarish church paddle to my bottom.
 She took a couple pictures, and said, "Gotta get ready for work....see ya..."

I set the dvr on my tv for the new series, Fargo, starting tonight, and I went to sleep...
From 1000 to 1400.
I got up for a pee and a snack...
And back to sleep ..... until She came in, kissing me to say 'hello', around 1715.
And I was upright, feet on the floor, a few minutes later.
Toilet... shower, dressed, toilet...
Coffee (iced) prepped...  
Went to Her to say 'good bye'...
and out, in my car 18:22.

I swear, the same traffic I saw on the 101 that morning, was on the 101 again,  as I was heading to work.
Clocked in  19:28.

After a couple of rough edges to smooth over during shift transition,  it was just an incredibly slow and quiet night.....  Passover week and comin' up to Easter....

HsLS  55
HsLO  182
HsLD  14
DsLC  21 2/3   (this is THREE weeks since my last 'real' cigarette...as opposed to the e-cigs that I still puff on...   I'm no longer going to notate this statistic.)

from The Ten Commandments:
 7. I will ask for Her approval before  going anywhere, doing anything,  or spending anything.

from My Manifesto:
 I will protect Sunshine, at all times.  

The pix that she took, one with flash, one without.....

04.13 Diary

Alarm went off 0800,  and again at 0815, as we thought we would be going to Service.
The heck with that, I decided, and turned the alarm off.
I got up at 1100, when told that breakfast was ready,  warmed-up apple turnovers.
I ate, drank coffee, and read the paper, and took my pills...which included a Chantix...
And immediately felt the aggravation in my stomach.
I went back to bed....
She joined me....and watched movies on tv while I continued to sleep.

I was awake at 1600....
And we talked a bit... then engaged in ... sex.
And went back to sleep, from 1700 to about 1900.
I got up, went to the toilet....showered...  half-dressed (shirt, socks, jock strap...)
And She entered my room, and said, "Bend over the bed."
I did, She went to the toy bag, and got out the heavy dark-wood paddle,  and delivered twenty smacks of it across my buttocks...   then went back to the toy bag, got out the medium church paddle, and delivered about 25 smacks to each of my buttocks.
I thanked Her, and took a few pictures, and She went back to the other room.
I continued dressing...and scooped out the litter box, and added much litter...then took another trip to the toilet...and made coffee...and kissed Her goodbye and packed up ...and was in my car, shortly after 2000.
And got to work, and clocked in at 20:38.

It was the night of the MTV Movie Awards...and it was pretty much ... nuts...most of the night...with a few breathers in between.

HsLS  7
HsLO  134
HsLD   4 1/2
D UN  110
DsLC  19 2/3

from The Ten Commandments
 All chores that need to be done at home are my job, unless She decides otherwise.

from My Manifesto
 I may post pictures of sessions, providing I do not refer to Her by Her given name.