Aug 9 - 12 th

This weekend is such a blur, I doubt if I can get this all right.... but here goes...

Aug 9:  Home, packing, prepping...and reading M's response to a message I sent Her through FL, that had me in a tizzy,  and I figured we'd been having a tough conversation, that might lead to me NOT going on this trip with Her.
Well, it did not lead to that, and I continued, getting ready, getting stuff ready,  and by 09:40, I was in car with Cookie, heading for Her house, arriving around 10:45.  She sent me off to a market for a couple things needed, and I returned.
And She unlocked me, around noon. 
I then went down for a nap, and got up 15:00, to shower and dress for the trip, then off to pick up R from work, while She continued packing and getting ready.
We returned, packed the car, and She and I went off to LB airport.
We checked in with a little time to kill, boarded,  and made the short flight to Ph where we had our long layover.
Had dinner there, and both fell asleep, right up to boarding time for our midnight departure from there to Chicago.
   7 cigarettes for the day, all at work or on the way home from work that morning.
    23 1/4 days since 0
   41 1/2 hrs locked until Noon.... unlocked since.

Aug 10   Arrived Chicago about 05:00 local,  rounded up our bags, and cabbed to our hotel, arriving around 0600. 
Enough time to get some a couple more hours sleep,  then She had me get naked and over Her lap for some hairbrush and spoon spanking,  then a bit of  sex...   showers, breakfast, and She took me to met the roommate that She was going to have to stay with.
She went about Her business for the day, and I had plenty of time.
Which started with reading the Myth of Monogamy book, outside for awhile, then back in my room, while falling asleep in between chapters.
And another long nap from 1430 to 1730. 
 Then I talked to the guy about the house that we are VERY interested in, and I think we've come to an agreement.
I tried out the whirlpool in the tub in my room, and loved it.
I went downstairs and had a solo dinner,  and kept reading, and falling asleep.
She came up around 2200, to kiss me goodnight, and grab Her last bag.
 I was asleep around 2330.
  0 cigarettes
  24 1/4 days sinceo
  36 hrs unlocked

Aug 11
awake 0330.... had another whirlpool bath.  More reading, asleep again 0515.
Awake 0630, showered and dressed, as She wanted to meet for breakfast around 0800.
We had breakfast, returned to my room, Her Little S emerged, who worked my bottom over with the spoon for awhile....
Then She had to go.
I finished that book, and started on reading The Science of Mind.
Another nap 1400 to 1530, and 1630 to 1800.
She was done with Her meetings by then,  said She was napping from  1600 to 1800 Herself, and by 1805 She was in my room, Her excuse to Her roommate being, I was taking Her to dinner.
First we spent an hour or two in the whirlpool tub, together.
Then we had dinner delivered to the room.
And we ate, and watched some tv, and talked....
Then She HAD to get back to Her watchful roommate, around 22:30.
I fell asleep again, with the TV on, shortly thereafter.
This being Sunday, the daily limit for this week is 5.
Cigarettes  0
25 1/4 days since O
60 hrs unlocked

Aug 12...   She told Her roommate, we had a very early flight, and was leaving the room early.
She was in my room, around 0300.
She launched into a hard session with spoon and brush and biting.
And an attempt at ...having sex,  although I did not get erect for it, which I believe was a lingering effect of the pain I was in.
Then She continued with more whacks with the spoon on the front and back of my upper thighs.
Then She gave me a choice:  "Lady, Tigress, or sleep?"
I chose sleep.
We lay together, starting to sleep, and I started shaking, quivering... feeling spasms in my body,  almost..almost crying...

I think we feel asleep around 0500, and up at 0700, for showers and final packing.
And we went downstairs, to the cab waiting for us at 0830.
Dropped at ORD.
Breakfast there, while waiting.
Easy flight to Phx.
In Phx, our connection was cancelled, but we were put on the next flight to LB,  3 hours later.
Arrived LB, 1800,  took Her home, I took a nap there, and arrived at work  22:00.

Cigarettes :   5   (all on the way to work....as I told Her, one of my triggers is driving, heading to work).
26 1/4 days since....
84 hours unlocked.

Other notes across this weekend:
I sent to my favorite Reverend, a true confession, not the vanilla-ized story, but the real truth of our relationship. I knew she would be understanding, and all confidential, and I feel better for telling her.

Little S came out a couple times over the weekend, once while in the whirlpool.
Always fun to talk to her, because she tells me things that J won't yet tell me.
Or asks questions, like she asked me, "Why did you only bring two covers for this trip?"
Well, because those happened to be in my shaving kit.  I wasn't thinking about them, and J hasn't insisted on using them during our lovemaking, nor did I really know how much time we would have.
...Since then, I've been instructed for future trips...more covers, rubber/latex gloves,  Lubricant...
We talked about things that might come up if J were taking an objective/critical view of me:
1. The 'bumps' on my back...that, the first time She saw me naked, She was worried about, but having heard the doctor's explanations, She doesn't even 'see' anymore.
2.  My teeth... not in fine condition, and She at first thought was a sign of crystal meth usage. (Not)
3.  My often unclean ass, in between my cheeks....an unfortunate by-product of my ongoing struggle with gastric issues.
4.  In the beginning, She thought I preferred 'men'.  (No)

Our lives are going to be SO busy...
Coming weekend:  She PROMISED to come to service with me, and meet my favorite Rev., then there's the HSG party that afternoon.
A week after, a trip to Maryland....  that starts with a 6 a.m. flight out of LAX...ugh.
We have the weekend of  8/30 to 10/1 off, but there's the "Safeword" thing at the Lair...
We have the weekend of 9/6 to 9/8 off... but there's another "Safeword" thing and party at BoD, and I hope to be able to switch  and work 9/5 and be off 9/8 so I can attend, not sure yet.
Then  Sept 13 to Sept 13 in Vegas!!
Sept 20 to Sept 22, back to Chicago, where She will be speaking, and expects me to attend the function as Her escort.
Sept 25, we're supposed to be able to start moving into our house, together.
   I'm arranging to take off work the night of the 25th AND the 29th, to be able to complete the move.
Oct 4th or 5th, there's a Little trip to Disneyland
Oct 10th - 12th, a trip to Dallas....
O M G