Returning, She made a point of climbing over me to see if She could generate any interest from me, in getting frisky...but no, I was still too out of it.....
Awake with alarm 0800, but She wouldn't let me get up, and get us going, to go to service, until 08:45.
She declared that, as long as She wasn't getting to use it, I was to be locked up.
She added, that was for today, anyway, not necessarily how it would be any or every day, but for today....
We got up, and showered and dressed, and ... her Little S emerged. We continued, and I put on the chastity device (I'll say around 10:00, but it was a bit before...) and S put the combination lock on it.
I put my bags in the car, as I was going to work, later that evening, and off we went....to B, to service at the church I've been attending, arriving in time for the morning walk around meet and greet.
We listened to the lesson, etc, and afterwards, went across the street to the supermarket for whatever she needed there....then we went off to a favored restaurant in B for breakfast.
During which time, She changed clothes, from a skirt, to very tight form-fitting pants.... and She took over from Little S.... and we went to a local dungeon for a Bazaar.
There, we looked at the booths, and checked out what was for sale.... tried out some interesting looking whips .... She met up with Her mentor, W, and chatted with him awhile....
We went out to the demonstration booths, and She asked if there was anything I wanted to try.
I did not want to admit to wanting 'anything'.... and She volunteered me to take a back whipping from a male Dom She was familiar with..... which I did, and He finally stopped when blood appeared.
We went back inside to get my back cleaned up a bit....
She met up with some woman She knew, and chatted with her awhile...
And then wanted to leave.
We went to a coffee shop, and drank coffee ...She had dessert, I had cheese covered french fries...
She broached what She thought would be a difficult discussion on finances, and I tried to make it as easy as possible for it, and we had a good discussion.
We got close to my work place early.... and She had to go pee, again.... and we found a place for Her to do so, then She dropped me off at work..... where I unloaded my bags, and left my phone in Her car, in the charger, and She returned it to me, a few minutes later.
And She left for home again.
hr S LO 135
hr SLA 112 1/2
H s DB 54
hrs UN 10 then
hr Locked 14
My intention:
Other than for sex, which is my right to request,
I am not going to 'ask for'... anything.
I've come to realize, I've been quite needy and whiny.
I told Her straight up that I don't 'want' the beatings. That does not mean I would ...or even, could, refuse. I am not allowed to refuse. It just means, I won't ask for any. It must be HER decision on when, or where or with what.
If She asks me, "Do you want...(some kinda beating)?", my answer will be, "No, thank you."
But if She asks me, "Do you want (A ...or B...) I will have to choose one or the other.
Ditto with chastity. I will not express a like or dislike, I will simply go along with whatever She decides.
If She asks me, "Do you wish to continue (being locked up)?" then I will say, "No, thank you" but if She makes it a choice of something or something else, I will have to choose.
In recent past, I've hinted at, or come right out and spoken of, activities in which I want to engage....
I won't be doing that anymore.
Everything must be Her decision and choice.
I will simply accept it.
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| after the whipping at the Bazaar |
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