Damn.
Monday, November 4, 2013
NOv 3
I know I woke up once, when She got up to go pee.
Returning, She made a point of climbing over me to see if She could generate any interest from me, in getting frisky...but no, I was still too out of it.....
Awake with alarm 0800, but She wouldn't let me get up, and get us going, to go to service, until 08:45.
She declared that, as long as She wasn't getting to use it, I was to be locked up.
She added, that was for today, anyway, not necessarily how it would be any or every day, but for today....
We got up, and showered and dressed, and ... her Little S emerged. We continued, and I put on the chastity device (I'll say around 10:00, but it was a bit before...) and S put the combination lock on it.
I put my bags in the car, as I was going to work, later that evening, and off we went....to B, to service at the church I've been attending, arriving in time for the morning walk around meet and greet.
We listened to the lesson, etc, and afterwards, went across the street to the supermarket for whatever she needed there....then we went off to a favored restaurant in B for breakfast.
During which time, She changed clothes, from a skirt, to very tight form-fitting pants.... and She took over from Little S.... and we went to a local dungeon for a Bazaar.
There, we looked at the booths, and checked out what was for sale.... tried out some interesting looking whips .... She met up with Her mentor, W, and chatted with him awhile....
We went out to the demonstration booths, and She asked if there was anything I wanted to try.
I did not want to admit to wanting 'anything'.... and She volunteered me to take a back whipping from a male Dom She was familiar with..... which I did, and He finally stopped when blood appeared.
We went back inside to get my back cleaned up a bit....
She met up with some woman She knew, and chatted with her awhile...
And then wanted to leave.
We went to a coffee shop, and drank coffee ...She had dessert, I had cheese covered french fries...
She broached what She thought would be a difficult discussion on finances, and I tried to make it as easy as possible for it, and we had a good discussion.
We got close to my work place early.... and She had to go pee, again.... and we found a place for Her to do so, then She dropped me off at work..... where I unloaded my bags, and left my phone in Her car, in the charger, and She returned it to me, a few minutes later.
And She left for home again.
hr S LO 135
hr SLA 112 1/2
H s DB 54
hrs UN 10 then
hr Locked 14
My intention:
Other than for sex, which is my right to request,
I am not going to 'ask for'... anything.
I've come to realize, I've been quite needy and whiny.
I told Her straight up that I don't 'want' the beatings. That does not mean I would ...or even, could, refuse. I am not allowed to refuse. It just means, I won't ask for any. It must be HER decision on when, or where or with what.
If She asks me, "Do you want...(some kinda beating)?", my answer will be, "No, thank you."
But if She asks me, "Do you want (A ...or B...) I will have to choose one or the other.
Ditto with chastity. I will not express a like or dislike, I will simply go along with whatever She decides.
If She asks me, "Do you wish to continue (being locked up)?" then I will say, "No, thank you" but if She makes it a choice of something or something else, I will have to choose.
In recent past, I've hinted at, or come right out and spoken of, activities in which I want to engage....
I won't be doing that anymore.
Everything must be Her decision and choice.
I will simply accept it.
Returning, She made a point of climbing over me to see if She could generate any interest from me, in getting frisky...but no, I was still too out of it.....
Awake with alarm 0800, but She wouldn't let me get up, and get us going, to go to service, until 08:45.
She declared that, as long as She wasn't getting to use it, I was to be locked up.
She added, that was for today, anyway, not necessarily how it would be any or every day, but for today....
We got up, and showered and dressed, and ... her Little S emerged. We continued, and I put on the chastity device (I'll say around 10:00, but it was a bit before...) and S put the combination lock on it.
I put my bags in the car, as I was going to work, later that evening, and off we went....to B, to service at the church I've been attending, arriving in time for the morning walk around meet and greet.
We listened to the lesson, etc, and afterwards, went across the street to the supermarket for whatever she needed there....then we went off to a favored restaurant in B for breakfast.
During which time, She changed clothes, from a skirt, to very tight form-fitting pants.... and She took over from Little S.... and we went to a local dungeon for a Bazaar.
There, we looked at the booths, and checked out what was for sale.... tried out some interesting looking whips .... She met up with Her mentor, W, and chatted with him awhile....
We went out to the demonstration booths, and She asked if there was anything I wanted to try.
I did not want to admit to wanting 'anything'.... and She volunteered me to take a back whipping from a male Dom She was familiar with..... which I did, and He finally stopped when blood appeared.
We went back inside to get my back cleaned up a bit....
She met up with some woman She knew, and chatted with her awhile...
And then wanted to leave.
We went to a coffee shop, and drank coffee ...She had dessert, I had cheese covered french fries...
She broached what She thought would be a difficult discussion on finances, and I tried to make it as easy as possible for it, and we had a good discussion.
We got close to my work place early.... and She had to go pee, again.... and we found a place for Her to do so, then She dropped me off at work..... where I unloaded my bags, and left my phone in Her car, in the charger, and She returned it to me, a few minutes later.
And She left for home again.
hr S LO 135
hr SLA 112 1/2
H s DB 54
hrs UN 10 then
hr Locked 14
My intention:
Other than for sex, which is my right to request,
I am not going to 'ask for'... anything.
I've come to realize, I've been quite needy and whiny.
I told Her straight up that I don't 'want' the beatings. That does not mean I would ...or even, could, refuse. I am not allowed to refuse. It just means, I won't ask for any. It must be HER decision on when, or where or with what.
If She asks me, "Do you want...(some kinda beating)?", my answer will be, "No, thank you."
But if She asks me, "Do you want (A ...or B...) I will have to choose one or the other.
Ditto with chastity. I will not express a like or dislike, I will simply go along with whatever She decides.
If She asks me, "Do you wish to continue (being locked up)?" then I will say, "No, thank you" but if She makes it a choice of something or something else, I will have to choose.
In recent past, I've hinted at, or come right out and spoken of, activities in which I want to engage....
I won't be doing that anymore.
Everything must be Her decision and choice.
I will simply accept it.
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| after the whipping at the Bazaar |
Nov 2
Off work.... and off to south LB to the dry cleaners, to fetch our suits, then home.
Rushing around to feed animals, with which R assisted, then showers and getting dressed.
While waiting at the dry cleaners, I sent Her an email asking about protocol for my chastity, which She didn't seem to understand.
What I was asking was simply, should I ask Her each day if She wanted to continue, or was She going to tell me, and I shouldn't ask....
We got it sorted out, when I arrived home, that She would tell me.
Another bit of commentary was that She was going to discontinue daily beatings to allow me to time to heal in the various bruised parts of my body.
Once we were all dressed and ready, we set off, first to my old place in NH, to retrieve a package that had been delivered there.....
An interesting conversation ensued, that started with my assertion that She treats Her ex-husband (R) better than Her current husband (me).
She chuckled, and asked, "How do you figure that?"
I said, "The ex- does not get beaten, does not get bitten, does not get nipple-pinched, does not get kept locked in chastity..."
"Ohhh.." She psshawed. "He does get bitten, by the way....and admit it, you love all that, anyway."
"Oh, I do?"
"If you can tell me straight, with a straight face, that you don't want anymore beatings, then I won't .... well, not quite as often, anyway."
I said, with a straight face, "I don't want anymore beatings."
Time will tell how true to Her word She is.
We picked up the package....then went to GL, to the funeral we were attending.
We were there quite some time, then headed home, to change clothes.
She needed to go see Her specialist, and reminded me that I was going with Her, to which I resisted at first, because I had yet to have any sleep to speak of, but She reminded me that She wanted me along in case She needed me to drive back, which was an "Oh yeah" moment, and I readily went along.
So we went to said specialist, accomplished what needed to be done...and returned home.
And finally returned home, in time for both of us to take a nap before getting ready for the party that night.
R woke us up in some all fired hurry. The party was supposed to start at 7, and it seemed like he felt he had to be there exactly at 7. Ha.
Well, we did get up and started getting ready. R wore a suit and lab smock, like he was a doctor; She wore a green top and a chili pepper skirt, like a ...chili pepper, and I wore one of Her black dresses with fishnet stockings.
And off we went, arriving there around 20:30....
I was more than a little annoyed when R jumped out of the car, and started rushing inside like he was late to a movie....
Turns out most of the party goers were primarily Spanish speaking, and most of the very loud music was in Spanish.... oh well.
I guess we had a good time, even though She and I only talked to each other, and She was a little miffed that R stayed away and ignored us.... tho' I figured, HE figured, we had each other, and he was mingling, catching up with his son, and grandson, etc.
We headed home.
She made it kinda clear that She was looking forward to some ... well...sex.... but I was really REALLY tired....
And once we got home, She spent like an hour on Her computer in the other room, which didn't help any.
I was turning out the lights to go to sleep when She came in ..and unlocked my chastity device...
I'll say around midnight, for the sake of ease of tracking numbers, tho' it was probably earlier...
And I was just too tired to do anything, and went to sleep............
Hr SLO 111
Hr SL attempt 88 1/2
HR s DB 30
HR locked 88
Rushing around to feed animals, with which R assisted, then showers and getting dressed.
While waiting at the dry cleaners, I sent Her an email asking about protocol for my chastity, which She didn't seem to understand.
What I was asking was simply, should I ask Her each day if She wanted to continue, or was She going to tell me, and I shouldn't ask....
We got it sorted out, when I arrived home, that She would tell me.
Another bit of commentary was that She was going to discontinue daily beatings to allow me to time to heal in the various bruised parts of my body.
Once we were all dressed and ready, we set off, first to my old place in NH, to retrieve a package that had been delivered there.....
An interesting conversation ensued, that started with my assertion that She treats Her ex-husband (R) better than Her current husband (me).
She chuckled, and asked, "How do you figure that?"
I said, "The ex- does not get beaten, does not get bitten, does not get nipple-pinched, does not get kept locked in chastity..."
"Ohhh.." She psshawed. "He does get bitten, by the way....and admit it, you love all that, anyway."
"Oh, I do?"
"If you can tell me straight, with a straight face, that you don't want anymore beatings, then I won't .... well, not quite as often, anyway."
I said, with a straight face, "I don't want anymore beatings."
Time will tell how true to Her word She is.
We picked up the package....then went to GL, to the funeral we were attending.
We were there quite some time, then headed home, to change clothes.
She needed to go see Her specialist, and reminded me that I was going with Her, to which I resisted at first, because I had yet to have any sleep to speak of, but She reminded me that She wanted me along in case She needed me to drive back, which was an "Oh yeah" moment, and I readily went along.
So we went to said specialist, accomplished what needed to be done...and returned home.
And finally returned home, in time for both of us to take a nap before getting ready for the party that night.
R woke us up in some all fired hurry. The party was supposed to start at 7, and it seemed like he felt he had to be there exactly at 7. Ha.
Well, we did get up and started getting ready. R wore a suit and lab smock, like he was a doctor; She wore a green top and a chili pepper skirt, like a ...chili pepper, and I wore one of Her black dresses with fishnet stockings.
And off we went, arriving there around 20:30....
I was more than a little annoyed when R jumped out of the car, and started rushing inside like he was late to a movie....
Turns out most of the party goers were primarily Spanish speaking, and most of the very loud music was in Spanish.... oh well.
I guess we had a good time, even though She and I only talked to each other, and She was a little miffed that R stayed away and ignored us.... tho' I figured, HE figured, we had each other, and he was mingling, catching up with his son, and grandson, etc.
We headed home.
She made it kinda clear that She was looking forward to some ... well...sex.... but I was really REALLY tired....
And once we got home, She spent like an hour on Her computer in the other room, which didn't help any.
I was turning out the lights to go to sleep when She came in ..and unlocked my chastity device...
I'll say around midnight, for the sake of ease of tracking numbers, tho' it was probably earlier...
And I was just too tired to do anything, and went to sleep............
Hr SLO 111
Hr SL attempt 88 1/2
HR s DB 30
HR locked 88
Saturday, November 2, 2013
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