Tuesday, September 30, 2014

9.30 fantasy yet unfulfilled

Monday 9.29 Diary


Off work..with a pumping head ache, and some leftover IBS symptoms, 0630..and home 714.
She was soundly asleep in my bed, and I let Her be.

I fed all the critters... stripped...took a shower....and put together my Daily meal... leftover chicken from last night, on top of a bowl of rice.
Then I went and got into bed next to Her, around 0830.
After a bit, She got up..
And I got up around 1030 to pee, and gorge on peanut filled Oreos.
Back to bed...
Alarm off, 1730.  
She came in to check on me, 1745.
Up, feet on the floor 1805.
Spent so much time on the toilet, I gave up on taking another shower.
Got dressed, mixed some iced coffee, kissed Her goodbye, and went to my car.
1841..
At work..and back on the toilet for ten minutes, 1942.

Easy night at work, all things considered.

HsLS 249
HsLO  350
HsLD 105
H UN 268

Her DO   No




Monday, September 29, 2014

Sunday 9.28 Diary

She told us that subMike had put forth some new hard limits:  no cum eating, no impact play, no tickling...
Her reaction:  so, nothing to play with him left, anymore.
She asked if I was ready....
I said, "Let's go outside and talk."

I told Her about this jealousy > anger I was feeling, though I still admitted, "I know you're coming home with me..."
I told Her,  this scene we're considering...might be better if we wait til we can video it for a clip for the clips4sale studio I hope to open.
I told Her, I still can't get the acid out of my stomach, that if I get on a bench,  I might 'lose it'.
She said, "Maybe ...in the morning."
I said, "Maybe."    Yeah, right.
We gathered the crew.  Kaimi asked if he could get it ride.
We said yes, if he wanted to sit in the cargo area.
First, we went to dinner or dessert.
Our favorite place was closed.... for some reason that got past us.
We went on to a Denny's.
Sunshine took over.  Very amusing.
Then...we returned to the house, to drop subMike off, to get into his car.... went on to South LB to drop HLB off, then on into Cyp. to drop Kaimi off.  Kaimi revealed, he has narcolepsy, and can't drive, so that led to an interesting discuss....
And we went back home.... arriving at 0430.
I just made to the toilet, before mybowels exploded...
And in bed,  0445.
Up around 0600,  pee and snack.
Back to bed.
She woke me up, 1215.
I offered Her a DO, She declined, saying Her stomach was 'off'.
It was ...no surprise ...too late to conduce a MerryThree....
She offered me, and I accepted, coffee and buttered toast.
I ate, surrounded by the dogs, while reading Saturday's paper.
Then I got up, and showered and dressed...and headed out to the car.
1333...
At office 1415, and rushed in to the toilet.
My coworker EJ had started on notes and stuff for the morning work, which was my job..he had just started it.
My head was not into it, and I told him to run with it.
Good thing; it was a prickly bear of a night. 
If he had been running the night, I would have had to constantly pause morning set up, to help him.

I went through our bank accounts and budget, and felt my stress level popping up through my head.
I read a wonderful story She wrote on Fet, about us, and felt a tear well up in my eye.
I spoke to Her on the phone, a bit after midnight, and said "I Love you," and "Goodnight."

HsLS 225
HsLO 326
HsLD 81
H UN 242
Her DO?  offered/declined




Saturday 9.27 Diary

AFter many trips to the toilet, while seemingly pooping out every iota of food that's passed my lips in the last month...
off work 1935.
She called me just as I was getting in the car, to go over the evening's plan.
 Did I mention previously, that I sent Her an email, with an idea I had for 'MerryThree' at the upcoming party?
 Have I mentioned that,  just about whenever we make plans, God seems to laugh at us, and say, "Oh yeah?"
Home about 2040.
I unloaded my car completely, planning on taking a total of five to the party.
Stitch met me, and told me, he was not going, and tallship was not going. 
SubMike arrived, as expected, as he was going to caravan to the party with us, and was shown in to wait, as Merry had gone to pick up HLB and bring him to the house, to go with us. 
I stripped, and showered, and squirted into my butt a couple shots from a bulb enema, until I was running clean, and dressed in my party wear, and was packing the toy bag, when She returned, with HLB.
I took our bag, and his, to the car, and figured we were ready. 
Since we had an extra seat, subMike rode with us.
We arrived oh ten-ish at the BoD, and went in, and She went looking for Kaimi, another new and young sub that we met at the last LICK munch, and found him sitting outside in the ring around the fire.
She brought him in, and introduced him to a spanking bench, in view of where HLB and I were sitting, and asked me to pull out three of the lightest paddles from the bag.
Well, I didn't bring any 'light' ones,  but I gave Her the least heavy ones. 
I watched..we watched...as She 'played' with Kaimi, which meant, beating his bottom, but lightly...
and as I related to HLB, I was feeling .... jealousy.
Why?
Logically, I was able to tell myself, it does not matter who She dances with at a party, because I KNOW She is coming home with me.
And yet... I felt the jealousy that was turning to anger.
Which is what happens with most of the negative feelings inside me.  
And my stomach hurt.  Lots of acid, no food all day.... 
I think, in part, the jealousy came from the Way She was playing with him.  Playful.  Gentle, almost.  
NOT the way She plays with me,  where the only gears She seems to have are "Hard"  "Harder" and "Hardest".
Finished with Kaimi,  She went on to play with subMike.
She plays with him in a whole different way.
It's not a way that evokes jealousy within me; I've seen it before at other parties...  BUT that She was playing with YET another one, did spark some bad feelings with me.
She finished with him, and come over to join us......

HsLS  201
HsLO  302
H un 218
Hsld  57
Her DO   yes  




Saturday, September 27, 2014

Sat 9.27 Diary to about noon

Up 0650.
Wanted to hit the toilet... Stitch had just gone in.
While waiting, I fed all the animals.
I was surrounded by five noisy cats, fed them first.
Then the two small dogs...
Then I let Donna out, and fed her.
About to go into the bathroom, and I watched Coco come out of her room, and go into the bathroom, and started on her shower.
So I sat and waited..
She came out,and I hurried in.
Showered and dressed in socks and jock strap.
I went into the bedroom, to check on Her.
She was half awake, and I was preparing to give Her and oral DO.
She said she was mad at me, or hurt, that I wouldn't get next to Her.
I explained, that when I don't feel well, I want to be left alone, like in a cocoon or shell, just left alone, and that's how I self-heal.
She accepted that, I applied an oral DO, 
She excused me, for what was missed the day before, without penalty. 
and I continued on  getting dressed.
I needed to use the toilet one more time before going..
and tallship was in the bathroom, taking a shower.
What's with all these people up this early on a Saturday?
I finally knocked on the door, and he allowed me to come in and go number two as it were.
I finished up, and was on my way  in my car 0820...
And at work  09:08, and on the toilet again.


At work, 
  Paid bills due tomorrow.
 Looked at our bank accounts...
  Updated blogs....   etc

to be continued....








Friday 9.26 Diary


Asleep like  0045 ..and feeling like....crap.
She came in 0145..
I got up 0600 looking for relief from alka seltzer.
And again 0945...
Managed to get to my chair, and closed my eyes some more..
Finally got dressed...
We had errands to do, and I said, She would have to drive...
First to Tracy....
then into Daiso
Then Pet Smart
then Walmart...I was feeling dizzy, but had a cart to lean on...
Her PO, I stayed in the car...
Carl's Junior...thought food would help, but it just passed through, quickly...
A 99c store, did not stay long...
then Vons, where I had a cart to lean on, but when She got sidetracked by Her psycho sister, I had to sit down....
We finished...headed home.
She grabbed two bags, and rushed in to the toilet.
I managed to get the rest inside,  before hitting the toilet myself.

Then I excused myself to bed...and stayed there   (1615)
She asked me about including me in dinner plans, and I said, "um, no."
I got up some hours later, and had crackers with butter, or peanut butter, and went back to bed...
Up a couple times to pee, but that was it, back to bed...

hsLS  177
HsLO 278
HsLD  33
H UN  194
Her DO NO 





Thursday 9.25 Diary

Around 0130, She came in to bed, put on "Something about Mary" on tv, and I managed to go to sleep...
UP around 0230 for P&S, and again 0630.
Up 0830...feed all the critters, took a shower...
Got Her up and going..
IN my car 0930, and at the dentist 0953.
I was shown in at 1015,  and spent a lovely hour having my teeth scaled and deep cleaned, on the left side of my mouth.   I came out 1115, and they had not taken Her in yet, then they did, and I waited for Her...
Done, and in my car 1215.
A stop for gas in my car, and headed home.
She wanted to finish a few eps of 'Salem'
So we went into Her room, and She watched while I did a little notebook/paper work .
Then I fell asleep next to Her.
She woke me up shortly after 4, to do some DD before everybody else came home.
She fetched the Bone Breaker, and had me drop my briefs, and bend over the bed.
SHe applied 25 swats of it...   said 'Done'. We kissed, I thanked Her, She took a pix of the resulting mayhem.
She sat down to watch the last ep of Salem, and I resumed my nap.
Up around 1930...sitting in my chair...
Dinner was served...
After which, Four of us had a household meeting, and discussed the Chore List that She has been working on.
Then I put up dishes..
and put my laundry away...
She came to the bedroom
She lay down, I provided Her with an oral DO...
We watched the two new eps of TBBT,  and she fell asleep, then She woke up and went to Her computer  to do something, and I watched the new Scorpion twice.

HsLS  153
HsLO  254
HsLD  9
hr UN  170
HER DO  YES











Wed 09,24 from 0900 on to midnight DIARY


Off work   09.22   and home 1013
Went through some mail and cleaned up...and showered... dressed in briefs... went to Her room, and woke Her up, and gave Her, oral DO....
We talked, got up....had somethin' to eat..
and I went to bed   from  1245 to 1945.
UP... and I redid some clocks, provided batteries for the bathroom clock...
She made dinner, I took care of dishes...
Sh came in with the Medium Chapel while I finished dishes, and took down my shorts, and applied 30 smacks of it across my buttocks in the kitchen...then took a pic...

Then I went to my bedroom,
and watched three episodes of CM to finish off last season.

HsLS  129
HsLO  230
HUN  146
HsLD  1
Her DO?  Yes








Wednesday, September 24, 2014

Wednesday 9.24 Diary (midnight to 0900 or so)

A long, quiet night,  punctuated by email exchanges with Her, as She finished up the Household Agreement, and Chores Chart, and emailed them to me.
Which resulted in a disagreement/misunderstanding  when I suggested that the Scenes/Treats I've been writing up don't HAVE to be only done as treats, but can be done ...just for fun.
And She said, I'm not eligible this week.  
I still don't know why I'm not... but just the same, I wasn't TALKING about a treat...but a just for fun scene.
THEN , I saw on Fetlife, that She has listed Herself as GOING .... to an upcoming LICK party.
Usually or always, we discuss these things, and list ourselves as 'maybe going' until we've discussed them and decided , one way or another.
So, THAT annoyed me, more than just a little bit. 

About 8:20, local.  I'll be off n headin' home soon!
Comin' back to work Saturday instead of the usual Sunday...
And supposed to be goin' to a party Saturday night, like right after I get home from work.  
We shall see. 

Another pic, captioned by me:


Tuesday 9.23

After midnight, things got a bit busy, with tough calls, but at least, not all at once.
I get a text whenever She logs into spanko.
I got such a text, so I logged in there, and we chatted for a while, 
mostly about changes/addendums to the WHAMMO, that has been a work in progress ever since the last one expired on 9/01.
Meanwhile, She has been hard at work on a Household Chore Chart, to the exclusion of working on the WHAMMO. 
And She told me, She has a lunch appointment at 14:00. 
Did not tell me with whom, nor did I ask.
My thought:  Not enough men in your life? You don't have enough to keep you busy?  
Oy.

Off work 0630 and home 725.
Feed the animals, sorted the dishes in the sink and dishwasher..
Stripped...took a shower...dried...dressed in stretch briefs, and went and got into OUR bed with Her, gently waking Her up.
She woke up enough to get the Zombie Killer out of the drawer next to Her, and said, "Lets go to my bedroom."
We went there, and evicted Tallship, who was doing his usual nothing in the bed, just trolling crap on his phone.
She said, "Take your panties off, and assume the position."
I took down my briefs, and got on the bed, FDAU, while saying, "Is this the only position you know?"
"I like the way it presents your bottom, but ... if you're going to complain, then get on your back."
I got on my back.
"Get your legs up." 
I put my legs up, pointed at the ceiling.
"Hold your junk."
I covered my sac with my left hand, while holding my right thigh with my right hand.
"Count."
She whacked my sit spot, and the upper thighs just below it, twenty one times, while I grunted and counted them.
"Done."
I got up, and hugged Her, while saying, "Thank you, my wife..." followed by "Now, your turn."
I grabbed Her, and She said, "Don't throw me on the bed."
She got on the bed Herself, on Her back, and I tugged down Her Zinky Pinkies. 
She closed Her thighs, and I got down and pressed my tongue into Her slit, stuck my tongue into Her clit, and She came, two or three times, and told me to stop.  
I got up close and next to Her, and we cuddled a bit.
She took a look at the color on my sit spot, and obliged me with pictures. 
Then I got up for my Daily Bread, as did She, and I returned, to bed, to sleep.
I slept through til about 1710, when She came in to gripe about a run in She just had with tallship, out in the garage.
That's a SHILO, btw, waking me up before my alarm
While She was there with me, I took the opportunity to pull Her down, pull down Her Slinky Pinkies, and give Her some more oral satisfaction.
She said, "Enough already," and I got up, to prep myself for work.
I showered, and dried, and dressed in pink open bottom GoSoftwear briefs. 
She saw me in them, and said, "Want some more?"
"Uh huh."
She picked up the long plastic fork ...kind of like a fork, used for tossing salad, from Her desk... on Her desk, She said, for scratching itches..and we went into the bedroom, and She had me just bend over the bed, and She whacked my bottom several times, and found out how ineffectual the thing was.  So, She ran to the kitchen and came back with a wooden spoon..with holes in it, like for stirring... and whacked my butt, oh six times, then it broke in half...  then She took the cloth belt that went around Her bathrobe and hit my butt a few times, just for the helluvit.  
And ...I finished getting dressed,  and made some coffee, and went on out to my car...  1820.
Another delightful night on the LA freeways... arrived at work 1940.
A VERY slow night at work,  what with the Jewish Holidays coming up. 

HsLS  105
HsLO 206
HsLD 16
HrUN  122
HER DO?  TWO





Introducing:
Pictures with MY captions




Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Monday 9.22 Diary

Off work, 0633, headed home....
Traffic was bitchy, home 0725.
Fed the animals...  
Showered and dried, put on bali skimp skamp panties, went to my bedroom, where She was sleeping, climbed in...about 0800.
She was NOT waking up, as later, She related that She did not go to bed until 'after Stitch left for work'.
I got up, had my Daily Bread, and went back to bed, 0845.
She got up at some point while I slept
I got up oh 1245  to pee, and snack...  then went to sleep in Her room, which was somewhat cooler.
Awake with Stitch's entry AND the music that She was playing on Her computer in the living room, 1715, and I got up, turned off my alarm, set for 1732, and had feet on the floor, 1730.
I prepared for a shower. 
She told me, when done, or by 1800, to grab a paddle of my choice, and be on Her bed, FDAU.
I showered and dried...no point in dressing... went to my room, selected the Lite-Bite paddle, and returned to Her room, and got on the bed.
She said, "Count," and I counted out 35 swats, nearly dead center on my cheeks.
"Done," She said,  and I got up, and hugged, and thanked Her.
Then I pushed Her down on the bed,  pulled down Her Binky Pinkies, and provided oral service, to Her delight.
Then, I asked for a picture, which She took, but it didn't take. Don't know why, but it wasn't on my phone, so I took two selfies.
Then I went to get dressed, make iced coffee, and prepared to leave.
I was in my car 1833...
and traffic all the way in to Hollywood was a capital B and rhymes with 'switch'.
And I stubbornly exited Highland, as I've become accustomed to doing..and was on the off-ramp for... 45 minutes?  
It was Lil Wayne at the Hollywood Bowl, and traffic was just FUBAR.
I arrived at work at 2040.  127 minutes. I think that's my record longest commute time.  Grrrr.
Fortunately, our newest Dispatch Assistant Supervisor, MT, was there, keeping things together and in good shape.

ONCE I got there, all in all, a quiet night...up to midnight.

HsLS 81
HsLO 182
HsLD  6
Hr UN 98
Her DO  Yes

Worthy of comment is the picture taking, afterwards.
A while ago (a month? two months?) I declared, 'No more pictures'.
It is my belief that I was being petulant and spiteful, simply because of the LACK of attention my bottom was getting from Her.
(Such as  9.02 Yes, and 9.13 Yes, and nothing in between)(and during August, a total of 5 home sessions).
Now that we've been getting back to it on a regular basis (starting and including 9.13 to 9.22, we did not have sessions only on  9.14 and 9.17), I am much more desiring of having pictures taken, and journaling the experiences.
Now then:




Monday, September 22, 2014

Journal Naming our implements

   But will the names get used? Will they stick?  
Stay tuned. 


8.5 " wood round paddle                      PONG, the

9.5 "  wood hairbrush, round head      LOLLIPOP, the

10" wood dogleg hairbursh                  DOGLEG, the

10.5" Wood paddle, seven holes          SMALL CHAPEL, the

11" Red hard plastic  paddle                 WAFFLEMAKER, the 

12" Wood paddle, seven holes             LARGE CHAPEL, the

12"  Wood paddle, thirteen holes         LUCKY (no 'the')

12"  Wood paddle, three holes              ELLIPSIS, the

12.5" Studded Strap                               STUD, the

13"  Wooden Spoon                                SPOON, the

13.5"  Bamboo square board paddle        ZAAA-Per (pronounced                                                                      zapper), the

14"  Plastic Stirring Stick                         WHAPSTIR, the

15.5" Wooden Paddle                              LITE-BITE, the

16.5" Wooden Paddle                               WHAPPER, the

16.5" Clear Delrin Cane                            WHITEY (no 'the')

18" Black Delrin Cane                               SMOKEY (no 'the')

18" Dark Brown wooden paddle               BONE BREAKER, the

18" Two fingered Tawse                           STINGER, the

24" Bamboo Paddle                                   ZOMBIE KILLER, the

26" Riding Crop                                         GIDDY-UP (no 'the')

28.5" White stirring rod                              HOT ROD, the

29"  Bamboo Cane                                      BOTTOM LINE, the

35"  Bamboo ... rod                             unused, unnamed

42"  Bamboo.... rod                             unnamed, unused                           


09.21 Sunday

She said She was too wired to sleep...so..
we sat down and played two games of Scrabble.
Then went to bed...
Where I quickly took down Her panties, and gave Her an oral DO.
I was too tired to think much about trying to get erect, then don a raincoat, so we headed to sleep.  
She turned on a movie...Red Dragon... which was harmless enough in that, we had seen it so recently, we wanted be stuck staying awake to watch it.
I got up to pee, and eat ice cream, around 0300.
Back to bed...
And up 0930.
Coffee, newpapers...
Her 2nd youngest son called, immediately sending us into panic, wondering if his medical condition was going to mess with our party plans again.  
No, he was just saying, that he needed meds ordered from and picked up at the pharmacy.
Then Her whackjob half sister called, and I was not getting involved. I will not talk to her.
Then the son called again.  She asked me to answer it, and I did, then I kinda went a little nuts, saying I did not want to get involved in Her phone calls. But I said it loud and rudely, and She invoked Merry One.  I could feel anger rising within me, about ready to remind Her that we are not currently under an 'agreement', which I kind of stammered,  then I added that She can 'work it out at the party' and that, yes, I was rude.
She thanked me, saying all She really wanted was acknowledgement.
She was baking brownies for the party.
I started packing up stuff...and showered/dried/dressed in white blouse, black skirt, cotton knee high socks, black mary janes.... 
and She dressed in something similar.
We got in our cars, 1245 and headed off to the Lair.
Arrived 1330... 
In time and in side for the pre party pep talk and introduction...
Then the ice breaker game,  with subs in one line facing tops in another, tossing a 'hot paddle' back and forth,  and any sub holding the paddle when the music stopped gets a single whack from each top, and if a top has the paddle when the music stops, 'he' gives each sub a whack...
Then it was general activities, and Merry headed for the kitchen.
I sat at a table, and She came along with a chocolate cupcake that I just had to try, She said.
Turns out, it had some peanut butter filling.
Trouble was,  sugar for me on an empty stomach just wipes me out.
I tried to off set it, by going in and getting an apple, some chips, some carrot slices...
Resulting in a nearly immediate bowel movement. I went to the toilet, but did not take wipes with me.
I thought I cleaned up well.  Ha.
We were inside the main room, sitting and watching, with Merry getting somewhat involved in giving ...and getting ...spankings..but my stomach was 'off' . I know I shouldn't eat before or even at a party... this happens almost every time.
The room was noisy, and I excused myself to go sit outside.
I sat and dozed for an hour, maybe 90 minutes.
She came out, and said She had a decent nap, Herself.
And asked, if I was ready..to be spanked...yet.
I said, "Gimme a minute," and chugged down a Sprite.
I said, "Lemme go pee..."
I came back, and said, "Okay, but ...take it easy."
Merry seems to have ONE gear... 'Hard'.  That's from playing with me so long, and I have a high pain tolerance, that She kicks it into Hard  immediately, just to ...kind of get my attention.
But sometimes, I'm not into it, or afraid of it.
Thus I said, "Kinda easy, or easy for us."
She agreed, and we went into the main room.
Only two couples in sight, one hard at it, the other just kinda cuddling.
We found a bench, with sides wide enough to accommodate my knees.
She told me to pick "2 to 4", so I selected three implements.
She took off my blouse, told me to get on the bench.
I did; She pulled the hem of my skirt up and over my waist, and tried to pull down my panties, but they were too small, too tight, to come down past my spread thighs, so She had me get up, to take them down and off.
She looked inside them, and between my cheeks, and said, "You are dirty. I'm going to clean you up, then ...MerryOne."
She got wipes out of our bag, and cleaned up between my cheeks, then She got out the 16" tan paddle, and said, "With each count, you will say, 'No Dirty Panties'"
So, "No dirty panties...ONE..." "No dirty panties..TWO"  and She applied ten swats to my left buttock, then ten to my right buttock.
"Done," She said, having me get upright to kiss Her, lightly, before continuing.
... With 32 swats with the bamboo Pizza board paddle, 24 swats with the thin paint-stick-type paddle, and 30 with the round-headed hair brush.
..She told me to get up....and I requested pix, and She had me pose, and took .. two or three.
Then She told me to go get clean briefs from my clothes bag, which I did, and put them on under my skirt, and put on my blouse.
Dressed, I asked Her to take pix of me, so dressed.
She did, then whispered, "I'm SO horny..."
I looked around, and suggested the Red room, and She countered, "The bath room..."
So we went into the bath room, and closed and locked the door, and I got on my knees, while She lifted Her skirt, and lowered Her panties, and I tongued Her clitoral area, as She came, like twice.
We adjusted our clothing, and went on, outside.  
I changed to work clothes... 
We said goodbyes to all around us...
And went to Her car, and She drove two blocks to my car, then we headed off in separate cars,  Her to a pharmacy some 35 miles away, for Her son, and me, to work.

I was at work... 1900 ish...
Finishing Sunday with 101 rides, starting Monday with 96... ergo, uneventful, and SO FAR ...quiet.

HsLS  57
HsLO  158
HsLD  6
Hr UN  74
Her DO  2






Fantasy: this




Sat 09.20

I got up after a bit for milk and a snack, went back to bed...
To an infernal BEEP...  a quick beep, and ongoing, every five minutes or so...
It got us both up, and I finally ascertained, it was the smoke detector in the room, a 'low battery alert.
I got a chair out, so I could reach the thing, and took the batteries out, so that it would beep no more.
She turned on the TV, saying, She wouldn't be able to go back to sleep without it...and we wound up watching Starship Troopers from on demand, from 0445 to 0645.
Finally got to sleep, and alarm went off at 0800.
I got up to morning chores, and emptied the dishwasher, had some coffee, checked mail, changed my carry bag, then S D & D, then got in my car to go to an 'interview' , five minutes away, arriving at 1001.
I filled out an application while talking to this guy for oh 45 minutes...and returned home.
I did a few jobs around the house, then went out to the garage to continue with the ongoing job of counting my comics.
I came in the house at Her request around 12:30, and we dressed, and we went out on multiple errands....
A chinese supermarket... (various veggies)
The beauty supply store ...(gloves, and a round headed hairbrush)
Daiso ...(various 1.50 items)
Her PO, for Her mail...
The 99c store  (various one dollar items)
And Mickey Dee's drive through, where She got all excited, because She got to meet Ronald, hisself.
Home...just in time for the start of the OU football game on tv.
And She said, "MerryTwo, around 6:30?"
We compromised with..at the end of the game.
I took my laptop into the bedroom, and managed to input one days' blog while watching.
Mom called me, and while I was running into the living room to get my phone, my team ran a kick off back for a touchdown.
Game over around 2015, and I reported to Her, while She was in the kitchen.
She said, "Get in the corner,"
And I stripped, and stood in the corner by the kitchen back door.
After 15 minutes, She said, "Done..." 
I turned around, She said, "Get a chair, bring it in here, right there, turn it around, bend over it..."
I did.
She got out the new hair brush we bought earlier, and applied 12 swats on each of my cheeks, with it....
THEN told me to go show my butt to the boys (guys) that were on the bed in the other bedroom, watching t.v., to see what they think...
I did.
Stitch said, "Looks effective..."
Tallship said, "Kinda pink..."
I returned to the kitchen, and helped Her as needed...watching plates or pots to get them out of the way....
I had just pulled out of the garage, Trivial Pursuit Millenium Edition.
She had never played T.V., so I showed Her the board, how it's played, and while She prepped dinner, I read to Her some sample questions.
Then I went off to my bedroom, as I wanted to do a measurement of all our implements...  and I did a notebook change.... 
Then She called, Dinner's ready.
Four of us sat down to dinner.
Afterwards, I did all the clean up while She sat at Her computer.
Then we talked about possible agreement changes and additions, such as: 
  No corner time to be required between 8 pm and 8 am (basically meant to be, after dinner because I feel lousy when I'm full)...
  Sunshine cannot invoke a Merry.  She had tried earlier, kinda like a messenger for Merry.   No no no.
  A MerryThree, scheduled for a certain time, can have the time changed, made later, with one hour's prior notice.  Two such changes may be made for the same appointment. A third attempted change results in a cancellation, and must be rescheduled with the usual 24 hours notice, and only on one of the three allowed days.
 A MerryThree, simply missed, forgotten, slept through without any discussion... is considered cancelled, and can only be rescheduled with 24 hours notice, and only on of the three allowed days..
..............................  and that took us up til 00:45.

HsLS  33
HsLO  134
HsLD  2
Hr UN  50
HER DO?  NO
Corner time: Yes





09.19 Friday Diary

Woke up, 0230 for Pee and snack, back to sleep.
Woke up, eyed the clock, 0530.
Boo Bear called Her as a wake up 0600, as She was scheduled to pick him up and take him to work at 0700.
She got up, and left; I slept.
She returned, came back to bed.
Later I found out, as She arrived, he had called Her as She was about to arrive at his place, saying that his work was cancelled, so She came right back home.
She asked me to get up and feed the critters, which I did, and returned to bed.
We both slept til... noon, maybe?
At any rate, it was past the 11:00 appointment we had for a scheduled weekly maintenance.
What did I write in a previous post?
"I doubt if it will happen...."
She was up and at Her computer, when I got up 1300ish.
She suggested, rescheduling for 1400.
I said, more or less, "No, if you or I or we simply 'blow' a WM session, you need to give 24 hours to reschedule."
Which meant...could have been rescheduled for Saturday.... or Sunday, but we were already going to a spanking party...
but She said, "No...then, not this week."
Not sure if that was meant to hurt or annoy me, but...  

I went to sleep some more on Her bed.
She came in, starting fondling my penis with Her hand...then She put a cover on the hardened member, and got on top of me, then we rolled over, me on top...until She had Her fill.  I have enough issues with lack of sensitivity to intercourse, that cumming is unlikely for me while sporting a raincoat.  
We got up and dressed, to go to the supermarket.  She casually mentioned, "Merry Two tonight... be ready twenty minutes after we get home."
We went to the market, got supplies for the night's dinner, returned home...  unpacked, and packed my car.
Showered, dried, dressed...  
In my car 1830, to the LB Shrine.
I helped set up the meeting room....
We had dinner...
They conducted their members' only meeting....
Came out around 2100.
Dessert was served.
We packed up,..
And were home, 2215.
Shortly after, She 'asked for' corner time; that is, me, naked in the corner.
I went outside to meditate on this, my issue being... after any dinner, I am just too tired, and we should have a rule saying, "No CT required after dinner..."
I went back in, got naked, and stood in the corner by the front door for 15 minutes.  
She said, "Done, go to bed if you want."
I went into the bedroom, and found wet sheets.
Those darned cats.
I stripped the bed, and took all to the washing machine, and put on the bed other sheets.
I got in bed, and soon She followed.
I finally asked, "What about the..... spanking?"
She said, "I thought you were tired, but if you're not..."
I wasn't,  and was soon prone, flat, on my belly, and She applied twenty of the church paddle to my buttocks...
Then we headed to sleep.

HsLS  9
HsLO 110
HsLD  1
HR UN  26
Her Do  Y
Corner:  Y




Sunday, September 21, 2014

Thur 09.18 Diary

Up and awake  00:30, Pee and snack.
Up again 01:30, and went to my chair to sleep... still annoyed about how things ended at bedtime.
She woke up to come get me; I went back to bed with Her.
Up 0930; feed the animals, had coffee, dressed; we got in Her car, and headed down for dental appointments we both had.
She went in first at 1100, I accompanied Her, then I had mine, while She waited outside. Hers was okay, mine was a disaster, but I expected it.
...Home.  Laundry in wash.
Talking...
Laundry in dry.
On my laptop with EP and other sites.
I went in to the bathroom, and came out.
She demanded a 'butt check'.  I dropped my shorts, She inspected 'tween' my cheeks. I did not pass, She called for Merry One.
I got naked on the bed, FDAU for 12 on each cheek with the 15" paddle, and 16 on each cheek with the 12" church paddle. She obliged with pix of my reddish bottom.
THen showered, dried, dressed, getting ready to go to a LICK munch.. and She told me to insert a butt plug.
I did....
We got in Her car, 1730, and arrived 1820.  
It was an interest munch, with a good presentation on cunnilingus.
Home 2145; She told me to unlock it, and take a shower.
I did. 
Afterwhich, I switched from the basic butt plug, to an inflatable one...which had the immediate effect of bringing on a bowel movement.I went to the toilet, and cleaned up, and switched to a different plug, and went back to my bedroom.
She came in, and commenced with some hands on cock and ball teasing, while manipulating the plug in my ass.
Then She told me to get Her strap on cleaned up and ready.
I did so.
She came in, and I helped Her get it on, and She deftly put a cover over the dong.
Then I bent over the bed, feet on the floor, knees bent so I was low enough that She could hit the spot...and She slipped the dong in my hole, and fucked my ass, good and nice and hard and slow and fast...
She took it off, got on the bed.... I pulled down Her panties...  
And gave Her, oral satisfaction.
Because of abrasions around my penis, She wanted me to put a cover on it before we had intercourse. 
I did, we did, for a few minutes.
Then, as we lay together, She called for a Merry Two, and used the church paddle on my buttocks, 13 swats to each cheek.
Laying together, She fell asleep, as did I.

HsLS  1 
HsLO 86
HsLD  1   # of D   2

Hr L 34
Hr UN 2
Hr plugged  6
Strap On used:  Yes

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09.21.14 Journal

During my work shift beginning Sept 9, somewhere in the middle of the night, I dropped onto the concrete floor the metal device I called my ‘crack pipe’,  which is a longish stainless steel e-cigarette, which caused a tiny wire inside it to break, rendering it inoperable.
Not having it available to me for the remainder of my shift was not a ‘big deal’.  Lately, my single biggest desire for inhaling nicotine occurs when I’m in my car, mostly when I’m driving, mostly when I’m heading to or from work, but also occurs to a lesser extent when I’m the passenger, or driving places other than work.
I headed home that morning, feeling some desire for nicotine intake, but made it home without actually doing something about it, such as stopping to purchase a disposable e-cig, or shudder possibly a pack of “real” cigarettes.
My days off passed uneventfully. 
I even worked an overtime day shift on Saturday, and went home, and went out for a Wedding Anniversary Eve dinner with my wife, as the next day was our one year wedding anniversary, I was scheduled to be at work at 14:00, so we could not plan to do much that day.
I woke up Sunday morning… and was feeling IBS-relating gastric distress, and wound up napping in my chair, and notifying my supervisor that I would be a bit late coming in.
I finally got up, around 1730 or so, and started getting ready.
I was feeling stressed, and annoyed with myself for being late. I was covered at work, so that was not an issue, but I was just annoyed with myself.
I had showered, was dressed and mostly ready to go.
And She said, “You are going to put on chastity?”
To describe the feelings that arose in my gut, in my chest....
When I feel anger, I feel it behind my solar plexus, and just about that, in my chest.
And I was feeling it.
It must have started with my own self-anger? Anger-at-self? Because I was running so late.  (Again, I was covered at work, it’s just a standard I hold myself to.)
So, I was already running late, and here, She was asking me (telling me?) to do something that would  a) take even MORE time, and b) made no logical sense.
We use chastity …
Correction.
She requests or orders chastity on me, and thus I use chastity … first and foremost, as a tool for the prevention of masturbation.
There’s a lesser reason that dates back to when we were in a non-sexual D/s relationship: that as a Dom, she enjoys holding that control over a male sub, and as a male sub, I enjoy giving up that control. 
But, since we’ve been in a sexual relationship, the primary purpose of locking me up has been to prevent me from masturbating, which, quite frankly, I’m quite capable of doing, oft times not even knowing that I’m doing it, until I’m, um, well under way.
She has told me repeatedly, do not think of lock-up as punishment.
And, I don’t.
I honestly do not want to masturbate while she remains eager and available to copulate, whenever it comes up.
However, I have forty years of practice in masturbating, most of that while within a sexual relationship with another woman, during which I preferred masturbation over having sex. 
It’s a habit that I want to break, but it has not been easy to do so.
I even started on a course of locking myself up, back when I was unattached, just to stop, or slow down, my habit of compulsive/obsessive masturbation, and when I got together with Her, we found it to be a mutually-enjoyed kink or fetish.
So:  currently, my use of chastity is to prevent masturbation, like when we are both at home, but I’m sleeping alone in my bed between work shifts, or She is out of town; with a possible exception of  Her telling me to lock it up, because maybe we’re going to a party or other  (so far, ‘other’ has not happened, but I’m allowing it’s possible), and She wants to ‘show off’ Her control of me.
So: She was asking / telling me to lock it up, just prior to me going to work.
That’s when the anger inside me began.
It was anger layered on the anger I was already feeling, at myself.
This new anger was based on:  What the hell?  Are you telling me to lock it up to prevent masturbation while I’m at work? Is that really a concern?
The discussion became an argument, and became heated, as best as I recall. 
Anger effects my short-term memory. I don’t remember details or conversation, but what I was feeling, at the time.
Anger, at myself, for running so late…
Anger, at Her for suggesting such a stupid thing.  (..what I thought, at the time).
I left the house, still feeling it.
And jonesing for nicotine.
I stopped for something… I coulda gotten an e-cigarette, but as an act of defiance, a way of striking back at Her in my anger, I bought a pack of real cigarettes.
I smoked 3 on the way to work, Sunday night.
3 more, on the way home Monday morning.
Monday morning, She casually noted the smell of cigarettes on me, which I either denied, or did not respond to.
Why did I deny it?  Because I don’t like to admit to it, I don’t like the feelings of failure associated with it, and if I can fool Her, maybe I can fool myself too.
I smoked 3 on the way to work Monday night, and 4 on the way home Tuesday morning.
Again, Tuesday morning, She mentioned the smell of cigarettes on me, which I denied, for the same, admittedly sucky, reasons.
I smoked 4 on the way to work Tuesday night, and 3 on the way home Wednesday morning, which finished the pack. 
And, I was tired and feeling quite guilty in my denials, and tired of my vain attempts to hide it from Her,  which up to this point included using two kinds of mouth wash, washing my hair with two kinds of shampoo, and washing my body with two or three kinds of body wash, and using a dropper to put drops of mouthwash in my nostrils, attempt to mask the odor coming out of my nose.
I went inside the house, to where She was laying on the bed, watching a movie.  I brought in the paddle that She had requested the night before I bring, and I dropped it, and the empty cigarette pack, on the bed, and I said, “I admit it. I bought this pack Sunday night on the way to work, and I finished it this morning.”
She was glad that I confessed to it.
She was un-glad that I had been lying about it, by denying it, the past couple mornings when She had inquired about it.
After due consideration, She came up with a list of Special Punishments.
NOT for the smoking, itself, but for lying about it when asked directly, and for it being a repeat offense, the same thing having occurred at other times in the past.
One punishment was to write an essay, talking about my feelings, talking about what was I thinking when I bought the cigarettes, and lied about smoking them.

This is THAT essay. 

Saturday, September 20, 2014

09.17 Wed PM

Left work 0905, arrived home 1000. She was awake, laying on Her bed.
I stripped in my room, went to Her room, carrying the church paddle, and the empty cigarette box that I finished on the way home.
I put the box on the bed, and said, "You've been right all along. I bought this last Sunday after our ...argument about the chastity device, and finished it on the way home this morning."
She said, "I need to think about this. Go take your shower, and come back."
I took a shower, and came back into the room, naked, carrying briefs.
"Put those on, and get down here."
I lay down, between on my side between Her legs, my head on Her chest, while She was watching "Hearts in Atlantis.""
She said, "You may not give me oral, today, and I want you to put on chastity."
I went to my room, to put on chastity, and I selected the silicon device, which can be obstreperous and three hands would really help.
Sunshine came running in.  "Shilo, Shilo, there's a bad man... a bad man...I'm scared..."
I held her while she cried.  I finished getting the cage on, and joined her.
It was a rape scene inthe movie that had sent Merry under, and brought out Sunshine.
I laid next to her, and slept, while she finished the movie.
She got up, and composed a document on Her computer, asking my permission to use extreme punishment, until we could get a note added to the document.
I agreed, in some tired haze, not really thinking.
By the time I was waking up,  She ha outline the following:
 1.  That I write a 750 word essay, and post it here and elsewhere, stating just what the hell I was thinking, when I bought and smoked cigarettes, and lied to Her about it.
 2.  That I show Her what measures I was using to hide the smoking from Her
 3.  That, when we go to dinner..soon.. at the GC, I allow Her to fill my first plate from the buffet with items of Her choice.

Hmm.
I tried to go to sleep, but my brain would not shut up,
And my crotch was hurting...so I asked permission, which was granted... to change devices... and I changed to the metal Spartacus Deluxe then updated the Scenes and Cards notebook, went through a couple three days' coupons... and fell asleep in my chair, while She went to Her bedroom, and fell asleep.
We kind of woke up when Stitch came home, a bit after 5.
So much for our plan to get going, even arrive, at the GC by 4 or so.
We dressed, got in Her car...and arrived at GC 1815.
She made the first plate for me.  Nothing I would ever pick myself at a buffet, but not HORRible....   carrot salad with raisins in it, and open face turkey,potato.gravy sandwich.
Meanwhile HER First course was five or six  white-chocolate-dipped strawberries.
I got up, and went filling a plate of what I wanted.
Followed by deserts....
I was ready 1915, 1930, and we left 1940.
Time would be irrelevant, but there was this Chastity LA class that we both knew I wanted to attend, that started at 20:00 at a dungeon near LAX.
And the gas gauge on Her car was showing as close to empty as I care to drive a car.
AND traffic on the W60 was just  fuckt.  Two lanes closed  yada yada yada.
She got off at one one ramp, just to get two bucks worth of gas, to make it to the next gas station for which She has a credit card....
From there, we went to a nearby 7-11, to exchange coupons I had in my possession for a trial brand of e-cigs.
The clerk looed like he was 17, and right off the boat from  (India/Pakistan/Bangladesh) and had NO fukkn idea what to do.
We TOLD him what to do with the coupon, and got out of there.
Back into the sucky traffic.
Arrived home,  2130.
Housemates asked, "How was class?"
I growled.
I said ..I was going to bed.
She said, "You're getting Merry One (or Two, I really forget how or when this occurred).
I said, more or less, no... no.   We are out of contract, until YOU finally update and finish it, and we sign it.
I am TOO tired, so not tonight.
I went on to bed.

HSlS   40
Hslo   62
HsLD  39
Hr UN  92
H Lk   12
Her DO   NO


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Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Wed 09/17 A.M.

It was a quiet night...up to a point.
Merry called, around 2ish, saying She was heading to bed, and that I should bring in the church paddle, when I come into the bedroom.
Always nice to have something to look forward to.
Now, the last couple nights , I guess I've been lucky. Hardly any phone calls to deal with other than dispatch related.
I feel like I paid for it, this morning.
Starting at 02:00,  a caller from London, booking two round trips for clients traveling in and out of Heathrow.
03:00 Client in DC looking for his 0600 pickup. I called the local dispatcher, and after ten minutes, he figured out, his driver overslept...could get another for the guy by 0630.  Seemed suitable to the client, as long as he makes his fleet.
0315 a driver in Middle-of-nowhere, Colorado, on location for a pickup, asked if I had a phone number for the client. I did, and started to give it to him, and he spent three minutes fumbling for a pen, while I had three other calls coming in..and hanging up because I couldn't get to them.
0330  Client called to change his arrival into Ottawa from 0913 to 0803. Had to call and wake up the affiliate to get an okay on that one.
0400 and 0430 Same lady from NY called twice to make changes to her boss's pick up, in NY.
0415  caller from London, calling to confirm a ride (but they HAVE THE CONFIRMATION NUMBER, DOESN"T THAT MEAN IT'S CONFIRMED?)  for OCTOBER 10.
0420 Local client with a pick up on 9/20, changing it from 0440 to 0400.
0445.. phone call, new request in Pembroke Pines Florida  for 0945.  Had to call and get an okay from the affiliate for that one.
Morning reservation person finally arrived, 0510.
Morning dispatcher finally arrived 0520.  He brought to me an iced coffee from JackintheBox, so I forgave him.
Looking to fill an open slot,  DB is interviewing. He had an early interview this morning... with a woman I worked with, at the company I worked for, before this one.  That was interesting.
He has one later, with ..if I got the name right...a guy I worked with, at the very first limo company I worked for, which ended 8 years ago.
Meanwhile, I'm planning on meeting, this week, with the owner of a company that's less than three miles from my house.
So much for this morning edition.  Close to 9 a.m, and I'm almost outta here.

Just for stress relief, I kinda hope to finish  the morning looking like this:



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Tue 09.16

In car 0610, as I wanted to RUN (well, drive really fast) to my bank and cover a fourhundred seventynine dollar overdraft. Don't ask how that happened.
Then rolling home...and arrived 0705.  
I feed all the animals... while noting that Tallship was in Her bed, next to my sleeping wife...
I stripped off, went into the bathroom for a shower...
He was out by the time I went in, naked...
And I tapped Her on her forearm to wake Her up... and got on the bed, and pulled down Her Hinky Pinkies, and gave Her oral service.
Which led to Her pulling me up, wanting intercourse.
I had just enough of an erection to make entry, and we were going along pretty good, when Her phone rang. It was Her son, BooBear, telling Her about his latest car problem.  
She managed to get him off the phone, by which time, my erection was gone. 
We made a joke about 'coitus interruptus', and cuddled for a minute.  
Then She asked, "Would you like to get your Daily Discipline over with, early, so you can get to sleep?"
"Um, sure....  "
"Now, am I supposed to go get it, or are you?"
"I believe  it's written in Merry Two that YOU tell ME what to fetch," I said, thinking about the wooden spoon.
"Good, I don't feel like getting up. Go get the wooden spoon."
I chuckled, and got up to go get it.
"While you're at it, go out... well, not like that, ask Tallship to go out and see if I locked my car."
Tallship was in a chair in the living room, and I asked him to go out.
Sure enough, it was not locked, and I told Her so.
She jumped up, and put on Her robe, while I put on shorts, and we went out to the car, to look for any evidence of vandalism or rummaging or someone helping themselves to whatever.
There was no such evidence,  and She locked the car, and we went back in the house...Her to Her bedroom, me to fetch the spoon from the other room.
I entered Her bedroom; She took it and said, "Get in position, I'll be right back."
I got on the bed, FDAU, legs spread, feet danging off the edge, and waited.
She returned, stood behind me, and said, "Count."
And I counted... fifty swats, mostly in the center of my buttocks, near the crack.
"Done," She said. 
I got up, hugged Her, and said, "Thank you, my wife."
We got back on the bed, and lay together, with Her half asleep, half awake, and me half awake and half asleep.  
More sex was not happening... my penis was totally dormant.
While talking, She said, "Friday... say, 11 a.m."
"Mmm for what?"
"Weekly maintenance, on the spanking bench."
"Oh. Okay."
  <Honestly, I doubt it will happen..>
And I said, "I gotta get up and eat...and sleep."
And we did.
I sat at the table, reading Sunday's paper.  She sat at Her computer desk.
We talked about the HSG party coming up on Sunday, with the 'back to school' theme.
"Should I dress as a Strict Mistress?"
"Should I dress as a ... school girl?"
"Yes."
"Yes."
Finished.... I found my eye blinders, and went to Her room, Her bed, to sleep, around 10:30.
Woke up around 1535 to pee and snack...  She was not home. Found out later, She went to pick up BooBear from work.
I took an ice cream cone back to the bedroom, let some chocolate melt onto the sheets...
Back to sleep... alarm off 1730,  and sat upright at 1745. 
She came in, and immediately spotted the quarter-size stain on the sheets. "Is that chocolate... or poop?"
"Chocolate."
"Oh ...well.." I got up, and She stripped the bed, and took the sheets and mattress cover out to the washing machine.
I showered, and dried and dressed, made iced coffee, said goodbye, and headed out to the car... looked at my keychain, and realized the two attached house keys were NOT attached. 
I started retracing my steps, in a bit of a panic. I went in the house, suggesting 'someone help'.
Tallship asked, "Whatcha looking for?"
"My house keys."
"One is up there," he said, motioning to a hook WAY up on the wall. "I thought Coco mighta lost it."
Well, he COULD have said something about it. Oh well, that was ONE key, to the security screen door. I was still missing the main front door key. 
Merry told me, She'd have Stitch look for it, I should get going.
I got in the car 1838, and managed to arrive at work 1925.
I couldn't park in my usual spot, as an incoming vehicle had blocked me from maneuvering.
Later, around 2100 I went to move my car, and found my other key, in the back seat.
I spoke to Merry ...once..during the night,   about BooBear, that She had to get up and take him to work, in the morning.
But She called back, to say, he was not working tomorrow, so She did not have to pick him up.
But She did go, later in the night, to go get him, take him to his workplace, to wait for a tow truck to take his car to our house.
But his AAA did not have the mileage to cover that tow. 
So She was going to use ours...which happened to expire, two days previously.  I thought we had it on an automatic yearly payment, but She told me, She had closed that particular account a while ago, and She was checking with me before She renewed it.
Heck, yes.
My co-worker asked if he could leave at 2245. I said, sure, and he did, and ... no drama came of it, other than the cleaning lady, who comes in around 8 or so on Tuesdays, and doesnt get to the dispatch office until 2330 or so,  and I have to move around so she can sweep and mop.   
Anyway, the night was eazy peazy...but wait for the morning update.

HsLS  16
HsLO 38
HsLD  15
Hr UN  80
HER  DO  yes


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