Diary Mon 12.22

Awake... 10ish...
And picked up where I had left off last night, watching  "the Newsroom" from season one.

Up once in awhile  for Alka Seltzer with baking soda, or to pee,  even get a snack....

She started getting ready to 'go' as She was going to the hospital and fetch babyman and bring him to our house for the holidays...

And She started a conversation with me about 
  NOT marrying me just to have a 'vanilla' relationship..
  Wanting to get back into discipline..ie, spanking me...
   And chastity ...(locking me up)...

And ...it bothered me. It bothers me.  
I just ... don't... fucking... know... how I feel about it, or what I want, what I really really want.

Dammit.

She left...
I watched the last of Season 1, right up to 1820, then scrambled to get up and get ready for work.
Naturally, somebody (..Stitch..) was in the bathroom/shower, at a time when I really needed to get in there and get going....
But he did get out within a minute of me knocking on the door.

She arrived home with babyman just as I was ready to leave, so I was able to give Her a kiss, good bye...
And in my car 1855...
And at work 19:40.

She called at 21:15 to say, She was going to bed..
Which is, like, unheard off,  unless She had been up all night the previous night...   anyway, it's rare for Her to say She's going to bed that early, and She almost never has, on nights I'm home.

At work...  69 jobs today,  55 scheduled for Tuesday.
My co worked left an hour early with my blessing.
The late customer service rep left at 23:00.
Immediately, the concierge from the only hotel with which we have an account called, looking for a charge from a ride 8 hours earlier...something that should  have been sent to 'em, 7 hours prior...
And a network person called, to correct the spelling of some street for a ride in NY from Thompkins to Tomkins...  
And the concierge called AGAIN, asking for the next day's manifest, something that should have been done by the late csr that left at 23:00. 
..While one of our more immature chauffeurs was at the window, asking, "Can I get the check out sheet for this car?"
"Does it look like I'm doing nothing here...?"
And THAT was my ten minutes of 'busy'.

HsLS  132
HsLO  803
HsLD  804
H UN  753

HER DO  NO

DAYS since last CI  28

Diary Sunday Dec 21

I have NO notes from this day....  

Awake 10ish...Still woozy.... called in sick from my shift (starting 1400).. went back to sleep.

Awake on and off...started watching football...and other tv...

She went to go visit babyman in the hospital...
I got up, got Stitch to go into the garage and find a box of decorations, and together we decorated the tree.

She returned home, and seemed happy with it.  

Black-eyed peas with ham for dinner...

Watching tv, and  "The Newsroom" again...

And decided to watch Season 1, from start to finish ..from 'on demand...'   
Finished the first 3 eps before going to sleep....0230 or so.

HsLS  108
HsLO  779
HsLO  780
HUN 729

Her DO  NO

DAYS since Last Cig  27

Diary Saturday 12.20

Really sketchy notes on this day,  and I'm writing this  two days later...

Awake 10ish.... 
I was scheduled to work today at 13:00, an overtime shift, but when I sat up I was dizzy...the room was spinning, and when I made it to the bathroom the first time, I was  uh  vomiting...
I sent a text to my supervisor, calling 'out' for the day, and went back to sleep...

Spent the day and evening watching ..football...
and other t.v......
Reading "Science of Mind"

She made chicken noodle soup for my dinner...

Back in the bedroom, watched "Criminal Minds" reruns, then the newest "Elementary" and "Transporter".


HsLS  84
HsLO  755
HsLD  756
H UN 705

Her DO  NO

Days since last CI  26

Diary Fri 12.19

Composing this from sketchy notes,  three days later....

UP, 0825...
Fed the animals, made coffee,  
Dressed, in car 0900.
At dentist 0900, for the beginning of a crown.
150 dollars later, out at 1030.
Popped into Starbucks...
In my car...drove across the street to a Chevron, for refill cartridges for my two e-cigarettes...
And home...
I went out to the garage, got the artificial tree out, brought it in, and put it up....
Then we hit the road,  for errands and shopping, and in search of the best price for a ham and a large party cake.
Post Office, so I could drop outgoing mail...
Vons, checking on prices
Walmart, checking on prices
Costco, checking on prices
Vons...different one...we actually bought a ham
Winco, we bought a second ham and a cake
Foods4Less...
and home... putting it away, and She started heating the ham for that night's dinner at the Temple.
I emptied the dishwasher, filled the dishwasher, scooped the back yard..
We talked about bills... looked at mail...
I went out to go pick up May, in some of the worst traffic I'd seen in a long time...  (last Friday before Christmas..go figure..)
Bad enough that She called me, when we were 5 minutes short of arriving home, to see if we were all right...
Home, loaded up, She changed clothes as did I...
In my car and off, and at the Temple 1830...
Had dinner.... 'they' had their meeting, while I read a couple newspapers.... then we had dessert...and cleaned up...
And departed 2130 ish
Drive through another PO so May could drop some outgoing mail, then I got her home...
And we went home....
Unloaded my car.
And I fell into bed, around midnight.

HslS  60
HslO 731
HslD 732
H UN  681
Her DO  NO
Days since last Ci  25

Diary Thurs 12.18

Somewhat incomplete, as I write this four days later with few notes...

Awake 10:30
Fed the animals...
Back in bed with Her
Watched a movie called "HER"  then  "FLIGHT"...
Up..showered and dressed...
A rather useful check arrived in the mail, and we rushed off to the bank...
then Foods4Less
Then I got to fill up with gas...   in the company of Sunshine, who, in a mysterious manner, took one dollar, and went into the gas station... and returned, with an enigmatic smile....
And we went home, and unloaded.

She started dinner, and we started paying bills, now that we had some money in the bank, with more coming the next day, pay day.

We did all we could do there, and I wanted a piece of the pie we had bought earlier.
I asked her (still Sunshine) to cut it. 
She said, "Let me just do this..." then "Let me just do that..."
And I got annoyed and went to bed.
She got annoyed that I got annoyed...
But I was tired, and I had to get up 'early' for a dental appointment.

HsLS  36
HsLO  707
HsLD  708
H UN 657
Her DO  NO
Days since last CI  24

Diary Wed 12.17

Writing this a full five days after the 17th, with rather sketchy notes, because I've just not been feeling well....

Left work 0800.
Home 0845.
Fed everybody... had something to eat...
In bed with Her...
Engaged in some kinda sex...  

Went to sleep with the intention of getting up, and going to a Holiday Special at Spiritworks...
Which didn't pan out; I just didn't feel like it.

Instead, 
 watched "The Newsroom"  (season and series finale!)
 "Major Crimes"
  "Scorpion"  a holiday oriented goodie...
  Had dinner
 Watched "The Newsroom"  again
 and once She came to bed, "American Horror Story".

HslS  12
HslO  683
HslD  684
H UN 633

Her DO   yes

Days since last C 23

12.22 Thought for the Day

1 through 20  of 101 reasons to Spank Your Man

1. The lovemaking after you spank him will probably be sensational.

2. A Romantic spanking will open lines of communication between the two of you.

3. The two of you will not be alone as there is a community of spankos to provide support and advice.

4. Adult spanking is the most common of all kinks.

5. Spanking him can strengthen your relationship.

6. You get to put him over your lap – with his bottom exposed and completely vulnerable.

7. He's eager for this, really!

8. You control the level of intensity, so the spanking you give him does not have to be severely painful.

9. Don't think of spanking him as punishment, think, instead, about spanking him as foreplay.

10. Spanking builds trust between the two of you.

11. It's really okay to spank someone if they agree to it.

12. Spanking isn't weird or unusual - it's another kind of sex.

13. You can be the strong, decisive woman of his fantasies, or you can just be a strong, decisive woman.

14. Spanking is not a sickness - The American Psychological Association says so.

15. Spanking tends to make a man very eager to please.

16. It is common for couples to include erotic spanking in their lovemaking.

17. His dream can be your pleasure.

18. It's something fun the two of you can do together.

19. You can turn spanking into a game.

20. A spanking will relax him.