12.11 Diary

Home, 07:12.
Chores, etc.
I knew She went to sleep, maybe 06:00?  and I let Her sleep some more, by .... rearranging my tool kit, AGAIN.
Then I showered, etc,  gathered three implements as instructed (bathbrush-paddle, small paddle, spoon) and entered Her room.
She was just barely awake, and I simply slid into bed, next to Her.
We slept until 10:00, then She woke up, and told me to get something to eat, then come back to bed.
We both got up, and busied ourselves with trying to fix something, in the midst of our boarder painting the kitchen cabinets, and returned to the bedroom.
I turned on another ep of The Crazy Ones,  and was eating and watching, when She commanded, "Stand up!  ...Pause the tv."
I did so,  and She picked up the bathbrush-paddle, pulled down my panties, and smacked my buttocks some twenty times.
"Do you know what that was for?"
"Uh, no...."
"Come on."
I followed Her, the three steps to the bathroom door.
"Look  there, what's wrong with the picture?"
"I... left the toilet seat up."
"Right..c'mon."
Back in the bedroom, She smacked my buttocks a few more times, then, "Now, go back to what you were doing."
Sitting on a stinging bottom, I finished eating, and watching the show, put my tray away, and slipped under the covers. 
Wearing only panties, She joined me in a few minutes.
One thing led to another, and it wasn't long until I was ...on top of Her, doing the ol' in-out.
Her Tigress emerged, purring, then growling.
She scratched my lower back  with Her short fingernails,  then She bit me, hard, on my upper chest, just below the collar bone, one bite on each side.  I winced and groaned.....
I AM a pain slut.  But, I get aroused by it, either before....  when I'm anticipating the prospect.... or after, when I'm feeling afterburn,  but not DURING.
While feeling pain, that sensation takes over my mind, and it overwhelms any feelings of arousal.
I lost my erection, quite quickly.  Thus, the end of that.
I continued, by slipping down the bed, and licking Her pussy,  until She moaned, and pulled me up to Her.
"Enough...for now," she murmured.

And, to sleep, around 12:30.

Alarms starting going off at 16:45, then 17:00 and so on.
At 17:15, She said, "Get up, turn on the light, and I'll spank you."
I did so.
"FDAU," She said, indicating, on the bed.
I got on the bed.  She pulled down my panties,  and smacked my buttocks some 20 times with bathbrush-paddle, another 10 times with another paddle, and said, "I'm done."
I got up, gave Her a hug, and started getting ready for work.

In the car, rolling, 18:26.  Fouled up 710. Easy 10. Fouled up 101.  At work, 19:46.

Relatively easy night at work  (so far..............)

Numbers:
HR S L O   299
Hr S L sx   12
Hr S L DD  6 1/2
Hr UN  326

Thoughts, here and there, that I don't remember to say in person:

The roleplay we did, the day before, was wonderful....  it felt like discipline in which I had NO control.  It felt like She was going to beat me until She was done beating me, and I was helpless.  It felt like real discipline, as it started out with Her saying, I was sixty minutes late that morning, waking Her up.

This morning.... the surprise spanking for the toilet seat was awesome.  It also felt like real discipline.

To clarify:  there is rarely a difference in the intensity of the beatings She gives me.
So when I refer to real discipline, I mean from an emotional aspect, that I feel like I'm getting beaten for something, and not, as She sometime says, 'Just for the f*kk of it.',  which loosely translates to, She enjoys spanking me, and I enjoy being spanked by Her.
However, there's just this emotional difference between being spanked 'for pleasure' and being spanked for 'reason', even if the reason is made up or exaggerated.


I've been thinking, maybe...I'm too quick to cooperate, at spanking-time.
By that, I mean, when She says, "Get naked,"  I get undressed as fast for a spanking as I would for sex.
That's not because I always jump at Her command, but because, as I said, I enjoy the spankings. (At least, once the initial pain subsides.)
So, I'm thinking about shifting into a role play mode.
For example, when She says, "Get naked...", I reply with:
"Oh, please, no..."
"Wh..What have I done now?"
"N..Not again..."
Assuming She knows what I'm doing, I think this would bring out the Very Strict Wife persona.

I do believe, it would make a difference to me, if,  at spanking time,  She gave a reason.
It could be anything. It could be made up. It could be real and exaggerated.
For example:
"I told you to get up FIVE MINUTES AGO.  Now, I'm going to beat your ass.."
"I told you to wake me up at 8, now it's 8:40.  That's a lot of paddle smacks."
"You reported that you were 18 minutes late to work, last night. One cane stroke for each minute."
This would add a dimension of 'discipline' to the spankings,  and detract from the idea of it being 'fun', which is kinda what I want.

Which brings me to wondering....  what can we do so that She knows the difference between, when I'm really too tired, or simply not feeling well, and when I'm in a character?

Maybe, a safe word, that I can use that tells Her, "Seriously...please...not right now..."
Maybe Her full name....  "XXXX XX XXXX, please, not right now."