Awake...11ish.
I ate somethin', I read the newspaper, I took my pills....and I went back to bed with an intense stomach ache, and napped until oh 1600.
I got up, drank Alka Seltzer, popped a couple Tums...and started redoing my daily notebook, for like the 15th time this month.
She sent me a text... from Her bedroom, saying ...there's a Dexter mini-marathon on some SHO channel.
Seemed like a fine idea to me, and She came in and joined me, and we watched three episodes from the middle of season 5.
Then I figured out, that we could watch any or all that we wanted via On Demand...
And I asked, if She was up for watching the next/final four episodes in this season, and She said, "Sure.."
After we got up and got dinner together.
We returned to the bedroom with dinner on tv trays... and continued watching Dex.
And watched the four episodes to the end of the season, and started channel surfing for something else, in spite of it being like 02:30.
I went to sleep.
HsLS 82
HsLO 278
HsLD 155 1/2
D UN 102
DsLC 11 2/3
SMT for the day
I release and I let go. Let the Spirit run my life. My heart is open way. I am only here for God.
No more trouble, no more strife. With my faith, I see the light. I am free in the Spirit. I am only here for God.
from My Manifesto:
I will always speak of Her in terms of love and respect.
Monday, April 7, 2014
4.01 March stats
11 Number of times we had sex
2 Number of times 'they' had sex, that She told me about
1 Number of MY orgasms
12 Number of days of impact play/discipline
31 Days unlocked
5 Days punished, using corner time
2 Days attended parties
24 Days 'under punishment'
1 Number of videos recorded
2 Number of times 'they' had sex, that She told me about
1 Number of MY orgasms
12 Number of days of impact play/discipline
31 Days unlocked
5 Days punished, using corner time
2 Days attended parties
24 Days 'under punishment'
1 Number of videos recorded
Sunday, April 6, 2014
4.04 Diary
Awake around 0830....and She told me about the meeting we had to go to, to meet a new guy She met online... at 1030.
The worst of the migraine was over, and I was left with a residual headache.
I got up and heated coffee, gathered Her meds and cereal in a bowl, put it all..along with mine...on a tray, and served Her coffee in bed.
Then I feed the animals.... and we showered and dressed and got in my car...and went off to a coffee shop to meet this guy.
The guy was (is) nice enough, I guess.
Honestly, I just never got a feel for what he was looking for, in agreeing to this meeting, or what She was looking for, either.
Then we went on down to W's house, and spent 90 minutes, maybe two hours there, while She soaked the garden, and brought in the mail, and we talked about this and that.
Then off to a late lunch/early dinner at a Pie Place, only because She found a coupon in the mail for some kinda fish n chips special.
And we endured the worst service I've had at any restaurant in a very long time.
She ordered a sandwich with JUST meat and bread. It arrived with everydamnthing on it. She had to ask at least twice for the soda She ordered. In the time we were there, I got one refill on my cup of coffee.
I did not tip.... sidetracked. I meant to leave one single dollar, to make a point, but forgot to leave that. I went to the cashier and filled out a 'comment' card.
We left, and went on to a pharmacy for waiting prescriptions, then to the market for bread for tonight's dinner.
Home, a bit before 5.
I gathered up the animal dishes, in prep to their evening feeding.
I scooped the back yard.
I baled the green water out of the pool closet.
I sat in an easy chair and napped for an hour.
Awake at 1900, and it's now 2100, and taken this long to write three days' of blogs, and whatever the hell else I've been doing.
Then I made my own dinner, and went to my bedroom... watched some tv.... and eventually She joined me.
My numbers have been ....incorrect, the past few days. THESE should be correct
DsLS 2 1/2 (58 hr)
DsLO 10 1/2 (254 hr)
DsLB 5 1/2 (131 1/2 hr)
D UN 101
D sL CIG 10 2/3
SMT for the day:
There is one Power. That Power is Perfect. That Power is the Perfect Life of God. That Life is my Life, now. Energy and Matter are one thing. I am that thing. I am whole, complete and perfect.
from My Manifest:
I will gracefully learn to accept Her judgment in ALL matters, without complaint.
The worst of the migraine was over, and I was left with a residual headache.
I got up and heated coffee, gathered Her meds and cereal in a bowl, put it all..along with mine...on a tray, and served Her coffee in bed.
Then I feed the animals.... and we showered and dressed and got in my car...and went off to a coffee shop to meet this guy.
The guy was (is) nice enough, I guess.
Honestly, I just never got a feel for what he was looking for, in agreeing to this meeting, or what She was looking for, either.
Then we went on down to W's house, and spent 90 minutes, maybe two hours there, while She soaked the garden, and brought in the mail, and we talked about this and that.
Then off to a late lunch/early dinner at a Pie Place, only because She found a coupon in the mail for some kinda fish n chips special.
And we endured the worst service I've had at any restaurant in a very long time.
She ordered a sandwich with JUST meat and bread. It arrived with everydamnthing on it. She had to ask at least twice for the soda She ordered. In the time we were there, I got one refill on my cup of coffee.
I did not tip.... sidetracked. I meant to leave one single dollar, to make a point, but forgot to leave that. I went to the cashier and filled out a 'comment' card.
We left, and went on to a pharmacy for waiting prescriptions, then to the market for bread for tonight's dinner.
Home, a bit before 5.
I gathered up the animal dishes, in prep to their evening feeding.
I scooped the back yard.
I baled the green water out of the pool closet.
I sat in an easy chair and napped for an hour.
Awake at 1900, and it's now 2100, and taken this long to write three days' of blogs, and whatever the hell else I've been doing.
Then I made my own dinner, and went to my bedroom... watched some tv.... and eventually She joined me.
My numbers have been ....incorrect, the past few days. THESE should be correct
DsLS 2 1/2 (58 hr)
DsLO 10 1/2 (254 hr)
DsLB 5 1/2 (131 1/2 hr)
D UN 101
D sL CIG 10 2/3
SMT for the day:
There is one Power. That Power is Perfect. That Power is the Perfect Life of God. That Life is my Life, now. Energy and Matter are one thing. I am that thing. I am whole, complete and perfect.
from My Manifest:
I will gracefully learn to accept Her judgment in ALL matters, without complaint.
Friday, April 4, 2014
04.03 Diary
She woke me, around 0100.
There had been an accident of a biological function, and we had to strip the bed down.
We found something to sleep on, and under, and went back to sleep.
Awake ...0830... and I did the various this-and-thats characteristic of a morning at home...
And got in my car around 1050, heading for the Thursday textbook-study class in BK.
29.3 miles.... and I arrived at 11:31, and walked in, and didn't miss a thing, as DrH was in a meeting with the office manager.
They wrapped up, and the other class attendees and I entered his office.
We were in class until shortly after 1300... managed to get through, oh, 3 pages of the textbook...and generally agreed to take a hiatus, and return on April 24th, same time.
I went to my car, and read some email (on my phone) and caught up on a couple phone calls that required my attention, then I headed for a gas station, then headed home.
I arrived around 1445, and She was gone with Her son, who had spent the night with us, since he had these appointments on these back to back days.
I went to my room, and started catching up on email.
She returned home around 1630, just to fill me in on what was going on for the rest of the evening, that She was going to pick up Mb, take D to get something fast to eat, take Mb to a restaurant, go to their meeting in SB... then come back to get me, then go drop Mb off, then return home....
She departed, and I began a project of rearranging my room...and drawers... so that all my notebooks were in one place, all my papers were in one place, as were my wallets, my calculators, my files, etc.
That took... awhile...
Then I had dinner (Chili, left over from one previous night, rice left over from another previous night) while reading TSOM.
About then, I felt a migraine coming on.
Back in my room, and I watched the most recent, and finale, I think, of Comic Book Men, along with another episode of Archer.
She called me and told me, that She dropped Mb by Herself, therefore was not coming to get me to be Her co pilot, and that I should 'watch out' and if it takes longer than 20 minutes for Her to get home, I should come looking for Her...
It did NOT take longer than 20 minutes, but She did call me, to come out and meet Her in the driveway... as She was worried that She had been followed.
We went back in the house without incident.
She went to Her room to do some online stuff.
I went to my room, and managed to go to sleep around 2230.
HsLS 34
HsLO 78 1/2
HsLB 107 1/2
D UN 100
DsLC 9 2/3
SMT for the day:
There is one Life. That Life is God. That Life is My Life now. Every organ action and function of my physical body is in harmony with the Divine Life. There is perfection assimilation, perfect circulation, and perfect elimination.
from My Manifest
I do NOT have 'permission' to whine or complain.
There had been an accident of a biological function, and we had to strip the bed down.
We found something to sleep on, and under, and went back to sleep.
Awake ...0830... and I did the various this-and-thats characteristic of a morning at home...
And got in my car around 1050, heading for the Thursday textbook-study class in BK.
29.3 miles.... and I arrived at 11:31, and walked in, and didn't miss a thing, as DrH was in a meeting with the office manager.
They wrapped up, and the other class attendees and I entered his office.
We were in class until shortly after 1300... managed to get through, oh, 3 pages of the textbook...and generally agreed to take a hiatus, and return on April 24th, same time.
I went to my car, and read some email (on my phone) and caught up on a couple phone calls that required my attention, then I headed for a gas station, then headed home.
I arrived around 1445, and She was gone with Her son, who had spent the night with us, since he had these appointments on these back to back days.
I went to my room, and started catching up on email.
She returned home around 1630, just to fill me in on what was going on for the rest of the evening, that She was going to pick up Mb, take D to get something fast to eat, take Mb to a restaurant, go to their meeting in SB... then come back to get me, then go drop Mb off, then return home....
She departed, and I began a project of rearranging my room...and drawers... so that all my notebooks were in one place, all my papers were in one place, as were my wallets, my calculators, my files, etc.
That took... awhile...
Then I had dinner (Chili, left over from one previous night, rice left over from another previous night) while reading TSOM.
About then, I felt a migraine coming on.
Back in my room, and I watched the most recent, and finale, I think, of Comic Book Men, along with another episode of Archer.
She called me and told me, that She dropped Mb by Herself, therefore was not coming to get me to be Her co pilot, and that I should 'watch out' and if it takes longer than 20 minutes for Her to get home, I should come looking for Her...
It did NOT take longer than 20 minutes, but She did call me, to come out and meet Her in the driveway... as She was worried that She had been followed.
We went back in the house without incident.
She went to Her room to do some online stuff.
I went to my room, and managed to go to sleep around 2230.
HsLS 34
HsLO 78 1/2
HsLB 107 1/2
D UN 100
DsLC 9 2/3
SMT for the day:
There is one Life. That Life is God. That Life is My Life now. Every organ action and function of my physical body is in harmony with the Divine Life. There is perfection assimilation, perfect circulation, and perfect elimination.
from My Manifest
I do NOT have 'permission' to whine or complain.
04.02 diary
around 0200, She text: "Just woke up..."
"Just now.."
"Well, a couple hours ago..."
We met in the s-o chat room, and started talking about financial strains, until others started popping into the room, and were listening.
She signed off, and went back to bed.
Work continued for me, until about 0930, and off I went.
Home, about 1045... in a really bad/angry mood.
(See the comment She left on my blog of 4.01, especially the last two sentences...... I felt like I was carrying a volcano in the pit of my stomach, that was ready to erupt..)
She came out of Her room as I came inside, saw the look on my face, and said, "I'll... leave you alone for awhile."
Fed my cats, updated notebooks, added litter to my cats' box,
She said, "After you've eaten, please come into my room to talk...)
I ate a bit of something while reading the paper....
And went into Her room.
She was .. duh...sitting at the chair in front of Her computer.
She said, "So..what's wrong?"
I took a breath or two or three...
And told Her, Her comment on my blog ...had me furious..
She wrote that She "...could spank you no matter how you feel..."
When in fact, there is NFW She could force it on me, if I was simply in no mo
od to take it.
And She wrote, "...perhaps I am too considerate of your feelings..."
Well, WTF? How is it possible to be 'too' considerate?
We talked it out, back and forth, and it had tears streaming down Her face at one point, but we talked it out...and She came away from Her chair, to join me on the bed where I sat.... then we reclined....
and... intercourse happened.
After a whole minute of cuddling, I headed off to my room for a nap, and She started getting ready to go, pick up Her son, living in HB, and take him to an appointment in SA.
She departed, and I fell asleep.
I was woken around 645, told to get up and showered/dressed, as we were going out to dinner, and I did so, and the four of us went off to the HTB.
We returned home.
She excused Herself to go do some 'computer stuff' in Her/Stitch's room, and I went to my room, to watch last night's "Justified".
Then I was asleep around 2245, and I'm told, by Her, that She came in and joined me, around midnight.
HsLS 10
HsLO 54 1.2
HsLB 59 1/2
Days UN 98
DsLC 8 2/3
SMT for the day:
"There is no weariness. Mind and Spirit do not become tired nor weary. I am Mind and Spirit. The flesh cannot weary, since it has no mind of its own. I am free from all illusions of weariness. My whole being responds to the thought of life. I am alive with the Great Vitality of the Spirit.
from My Manifesto:
I will do my best to answer any questions put to me honestly and directly, and will strive to make it my practice to volunteer any information that She should know about my physical or emotional condition.
"Just now.."
"Well, a couple hours ago..."
We met in the s-o chat room, and started talking about financial strains, until others started popping into the room, and were listening.
She signed off, and went back to bed.
Work continued for me, until about 0930, and off I went.
Home, about 1045... in a really bad/angry mood.
(See the comment She left on my blog of 4.01, especially the last two sentences...... I felt like I was carrying a volcano in the pit of my stomach, that was ready to erupt..)
She came out of Her room as I came inside, saw the look on my face, and said, "I'll... leave you alone for awhile."
Fed my cats, updated notebooks, added litter to my cats' box,
She said, "After you've eaten, please come into my room to talk...)
I ate a bit of something while reading the paper....
And went into Her room.
She was .. duh...sitting at the chair in front of Her computer.
She said, "So..what's wrong?"
I took a breath or two or three...
And told Her, Her comment on my blog ...had me furious..
She wrote that She "...could spank you no matter how you feel..."
When in fact, there is NFW She could force it on me, if I was simply in no mo
od to take it.
And She wrote, "...perhaps I am too considerate of your feelings..."
Well, WTF? How is it possible to be 'too' considerate?
We talked it out, back and forth, and it had tears streaming down Her face at one point, but we talked it out...and She came away from Her chair, to join me on the bed where I sat.... then we reclined....
and... intercourse happened.
After a whole minute of cuddling, I headed off to my room for a nap, and She started getting ready to go, pick up Her son, living in HB, and take him to an appointment in SA.
She departed, and I fell asleep.
I was woken around 645, told to get up and showered/dressed, as we were going out to dinner, and I did so, and the four of us went off to the HTB.
We returned home.
She excused Herself to go do some 'computer stuff' in Her/Stitch's room, and I went to my room, to watch last night's "Justified".
Then I was asleep around 2245, and I'm told, by Her, that She came in and joined me, around midnight.
HsLS 10
HsLO 54 1.2
HsLB 59 1/2
Days UN 98
DsLC 8 2/3
SMT for the day:
"There is no weariness. Mind and Spirit do not become tired nor weary. I am Mind and Spirit. The flesh cannot weary, since it has no mind of its own. I am free from all illusions of weariness. My whole being responds to the thought of life. I am alive with the Great Vitality of the Spirit.
from My Manifesto:
I will do my best to answer any questions put to me honestly and directly, and will strive to make it my practice to volunteer any information that She should know about my physical or emotional condition.
Wednesday, April 2, 2014
04,01 Diary
Off work...in car 0645, and home 0730.
I fed the animals, scooped a box, undressed, leaned back on my bed...and dozed off for a few minutes.
I woke up, like "huh what" but it had only been ... 15, 20 minutes. I bypassed taking a shower, and bypassed picking out any implements, and went to Her room.
And I told Her..."I'm really tired, my stomach is flip flopping... I should eat and go to bed."
She asked me to climb in, and I did, and we cuddled and chatted a bit, then She told me to "GET OUT" and I got up... went to the kitchen, heated up some leftover pizza that I brought home from the office, ate while reading the paper, and was in my room, in bed 0945.
I was woken up by Her around 1300, handing me the phone because Some Insurance Company wanted to talk to me about my bump n bash on Saturday night. And She was getting in the shower, getting ready to leave for an appointment.
And I got up and had my mid day snack..and went back to sleep.
Woke up 1700.
She came in, and talked a few minutes, then : "Do you want a spanking?"
I do not care how I feel... crappy or great, tired or wide awake....
I simply do not 'feel' right, answering that question with a "yes."
I realize, She wants to take into account the way I am feeling, overall physically.
But, I just don't want to say, "Yes, I want..."
Better, ask me "Should I give you...."
Or, "Are you ready for a ..."
Or some other turn of phrase that does not suggest my desire for it.
"Um, no."
"Okay, get up and get ready for work, then. I'm going to take a nap."
She left my room.
I got up....went to the bathroom and OF COURSE it was occupied.
That has been happening to me one hell of a lot, lately.
After a few minutes, it was my turn.
I showered.... dressed...went to Her room, and kissed Her goodbye, half waking Her up.
In my car, 1806, and at work right about 1900.
Still ..working with the new woman who is doing set up on Monday and Tuesday night... so it keeps me kinda busy.
I did not hear from Her again until ..................................
HsLO 182\
HsLS 30 1/2
HsLD 59 1/2
D un 98
D sL CIG 7 2/3
Quote for the Day
I have faith. I am faith ..I abide in faith. All doubt and fear have left me. I understand why it is that I can remain in faith. I have complete confidence. I do not waver nor falter in my faith, for I know that God the Living Spirit is the only Presence there is or ever can be.
From My Manifesto:
Whenever She and I are together, whether in public or in private, I am in service to Her.
I fed the animals, scooped a box, undressed, leaned back on my bed...and dozed off for a few minutes.
I woke up, like "huh what" but it had only been ... 15, 20 minutes. I bypassed taking a shower, and bypassed picking out any implements, and went to Her room.
And I told Her..."I'm really tired, my stomach is flip flopping... I should eat and go to bed."
She asked me to climb in, and I did, and we cuddled and chatted a bit, then She told me to "GET OUT" and I got up... went to the kitchen, heated up some leftover pizza that I brought home from the office, ate while reading the paper, and was in my room, in bed 0945.
I was woken up by Her around 1300, handing me the phone because Some Insurance Company wanted to talk to me about my bump n bash on Saturday night. And She was getting in the shower, getting ready to leave for an appointment.
And I got up and had my mid day snack..and went back to sleep.
Woke up 1700.
She came in, and talked a few minutes, then : "Do you want a spanking?"
I do not care how I feel... crappy or great, tired or wide awake....
I simply do not 'feel' right, answering that question with a "yes."
I realize, She wants to take into account the way I am feeling, overall physically.
But, I just don't want to say, "Yes, I want..."
Better, ask me "Should I give you...."
Or, "Are you ready for a ..."
Or some other turn of phrase that does not suggest my desire for it.
"Um, no."
"Okay, get up and get ready for work, then. I'm going to take a nap."
She left my room.
I got up....went to the bathroom and OF COURSE it was occupied.
That has been happening to me one hell of a lot, lately.
After a few minutes, it was my turn.
I showered.... dressed...went to Her room, and kissed Her goodbye, half waking Her up.
In my car, 1806, and at work right about 1900.
Still ..working with the new woman who is doing set up on Monday and Tuesday night... so it keeps me kinda busy.
I did not hear from Her again until ..................................
HsLO 182\
HsLS 30 1/2
HsLD 59 1/2
D un 98
D sL CIG 7 2/3
Quote for the Day
I have faith. I am faith ..I abide in faith. All doubt and fear have left me. I understand why it is that I can remain in faith. I have complete confidence. I do not waver nor falter in my faith, for I know that God the Living Spirit is the only Presence there is or ever can be.
From My Manifesto:
Whenever She and I are together, whether in public or in private, I am in service to Her.
Tuesday, April 1, 2014
03.31 (not 04.01) Diary
off work 0635...home 0730...
Feed the animals.... scoop the book, undressed, took a short shower, ate some dinner..
And went into Her bedroom, and joined Her in bed.
Then moved to my bed, around 0900....
Up 1400 to pee and snack...
Kind of awake, 1530, off and on....
Really awake, 1715, and we talked awhile, ending with me giving Her oral service for a bit.
Then upright..... toilet... shower, dressed, back to toilet... and ready to go.
In leaving and saying goodbye, She said, "Bring two implements in the morning...."
In car, 1838, light traffic other than a few miles on the 101.... at work 1925 or so....and ...on the toilet.
Five minutes or so after I'm 'in the seat', I had a driver..... whose plane with the client he was picking up was on the ground...tell me, "I'm cancelling this ride, I can't make it..."
Well what the fuck.
There's more to it, but that sums it up.
I scrambled, got that one covered with another driver in the holding lot who was waiting on one, and then I had to cover HER ride with another driver, and etc.
Once the dust settled on that, I got to hear about the bomb scare for which they had to evacuate our whole building, from 1330 to 1600 or so.
Around midnight, She and I started chatting in a room, mostly about financial problems... until we were joined by another guy, who I've known for almost a year, now lives within a few miles of us, but continues to duck me when I ask to meet for coffee.
HsLO 158
HsLS 6 1/2
HsLD 35 1/2
D un 97
Since last cigarette: 6 days, 17 hrs
Quote for the day:
"If you don't go after what you want, you'll never have it.
If you don't ask, the answer is always no.
If you don't step forward, you are always in the same place."
From My Manifest:
I understand and accept that She is Polyamorous, that She currently has another partner besides me, that She may choose to take on other or additional partners in the future.
Feed the animals.... scoop the book, undressed, took a short shower, ate some dinner..
And went into Her bedroom, and joined Her in bed.
Then moved to my bed, around 0900....
Up 1400 to pee and snack...
Kind of awake, 1530, off and on....
Really awake, 1715, and we talked awhile, ending with me giving Her oral service for a bit.
Then upright..... toilet... shower, dressed, back to toilet... and ready to go.
In leaving and saying goodbye, She said, "Bring two implements in the morning...."
In car, 1838, light traffic other than a few miles on the 101.... at work 1925 or so....and ...on the toilet.
Five minutes or so after I'm 'in the seat', I had a driver..... whose plane with the client he was picking up was on the ground...tell me, "I'm cancelling this ride, I can't make it..."
Well what the fuck.
There's more to it, but that sums it up.
I scrambled, got that one covered with another driver in the holding lot who was waiting on one, and then I had to cover HER ride with another driver, and etc.
Once the dust settled on that, I got to hear about the bomb scare for which they had to evacuate our whole building, from 1330 to 1600 or so.
Around midnight, She and I started chatting in a room, mostly about financial problems... until we were joined by another guy, who I've known for almost a year, now lives within a few miles of us, but continues to duck me when I ask to meet for coffee.
HsLO 158
HsLS 6 1/2
HsLD 35 1/2
D un 97
Since last cigarette: 6 days, 17 hrs
Quote for the day:
"If you don't go after what you want, you'll never have it.
If you don't ask, the answer is always no.
If you don't step forward, you are always in the same place."
From My Manifest:
I understand and accept that She is Polyamorous, that She currently has another partner besides me, that She may choose to take on other or additional partners in the future.
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