Feb 27th Tuesday Diary

0028  to 0559

Home 717

Fed dog n cat
MDM  sloppy joe mix with onions cheese n fritos
Watched 'The Good Doctor'
Bedroom  talking with Merry
Sleep 1000
Up 1430  pee  
 eat an eclair
back to bed
UP 1720
Shower dressed
in living room, Merry requested I bare my bottom for inspection...
  no marks left from yesterday
Packed
Kissed her good bye
Car 1825   office  1931
In 1939 to 2358

Feb 26th Diary Monday

In bedroom, watched "Our cartoon president" 1 & 2
going to sleep
up several times

until 1300, up
Showered n dressed.
Merry suggested, we 'try out' the new Delrin Carpet Beater
I fetched it and bent over dining room table for  20 whacks on each buttock 

In car 1430
PO for stamps,  dropped off our State return and Stitch's Federal
and the rent check

To Dr Bell
My BP  179/118
Good heavens!
He prescribed ... Lotrel,which now needs to be picked up at WM
Stopped for filters.
Home 1600
Sat on couch a bit.
Merry was ready to give me another go, around 1645
In Stitch's room, with me naked but for socks, bent over bed, then FDAU on bed,  50 or so on each cheek of DCB
Moved into our bedroom to take pix
back in living room....
Sunshine sat down to talk to me about Voldemort...that he appeared to have a new "gf" LDR in PA.
Sunshine was going to unblock him from her Fet account...
Kissed her good bye
Car 1727   office 1908
In 1916
Denny was/is ill... some kinda flu, prolly.
Very quiet night; worked on blogs
Out 23:59

Pix at 1400:

Pix at 17:00

February 25th Sunday Diary

Up to pee several times

UP 0600
at the desktop:
paid bill
applied credit card
did a rest't survey
Ordered an electric blanket
reported a stolen passport
entered two diaries

Cleaned sex toys used at last party

Merry up  1000 or so
Breakfast.... thin pancakes   and read newspaper

Nap 12:30 to 530
Up watching tv  while filling in two sets of 1040s and 540s.

Dinner   baked chicken with bbq sauce  n stuffing n  sweet potatoes
2130  Stitch and Merry left to take Babyman home
I sat at laptop updating blogs
They were back 2230

Went to bed.

Feb 24, Saturday diary

Awake midnight, then 0400
TV was on, I watched 'Shaft' (newer one) and Quarantine (  :-( ending).Slept 7 - 12, and up
Coffee, on couch phone stuff
Dad called, talked to him

Everybody  (Babyman,Stitch, me, Merry) started getting showers around 1530
Car all of us 1645
Stopped at library for state 540 forms
On to Golden Corral
Parking place RIGHT IN FRONT
quite a line for 17:15 
Moved quickly enough
We pigged out.
 but no Mountain Dew, or cotton candy: Merry mentioned no pinto beans, and something else....
Heading home, #2 said he would pick up Babyman at our house, so we hustled home, dropped Babyman and Stitch; Merry and I continued as I went in search of filters. 
Local 7-11: no
Chevron,where I thought about going 1st anyway: yes.
Home, and #2 had yet to pick up Babyman so we could have stopped on the way home.  (1930)

I went to bed for a nap, I called it, around 8.

Later, Merry went to pick up Babyman, and acquired chicken for Sunday night dinner.

At some point I got up; she was in the living room, watching Fight Club, and said she would join me, when it was over.

Feb 23rd Friday diary

Payday!  For all the hours I put in this pay period (114..) I netted  
OTC 0027 to 602
Only a coating of ice on the roof of the car, when I got to it.
Stopped for gas.
Home 7:14
MDM  last of the pulled pork over rice, n chips.
Sat at dining room table, reading
Bed 0800
Talking with Merry
Then sleep
Awake
  12, 14
1600  up shower n dress
Merry arrived with Babyman and groceries.
Stitch went down to help bring groceries up
I helped put 'em away
Dinner  Spicy Stir fry n Rice
Watched the first 3 eps of  "A.P. Bio"
Bed 2100 

FEB 22 THURSDAY DIARY

0028 TO 0549
Home 712
Merry was on couch, watching tv, and went to bed when I arrived
Fed animals
MDM steak n chips 
Bedroom, chuckling at buzzfeed videos
Sleep 930

up 1300

Up 1600

UP 1730 Shower dressed  packed  kissed Merry good bye

Car ...stopped for filters, cluster fuck at the Chevron, almost like they were having a big sale on gasoline (but they weren't)
Rolling 1822  off ice 1942
in 1951 to 2358

Feb 21 Wednesday Diary

00:28
watched TWW 7:21, 22 
out 6:03
home 7:19
Fed dog, cat didn't seem to be interested
MDM  sloppy joes, chips
Watched "the Good Doctor"
Bed

up 945
up 1300
1715 alarm
1755 up
Shower and dressed n packed
Kissed Merry good bye
Car 18:29   office 19:39
In 1946
Out 23:58

Feb 20th Tuesday Diary

OTC 0030
Watched TWW 7:12, 13
Talked to Merry about an upcoming party
Watched TWw 7:14-19
OUT 556

Home 6:40
Fed animals
MDM  pulled pork on buns, chips, graham crackers
Watched Scorpion
Bed ..

Up 9:38   pee , and snacked on peanut butter which might had made me ill as
UP 1200 vomiting
Sleep until
17:35
Up  shower dressed packed
Kissed Merry good bye
Car 1810
Stopped for filters
Office 1937
In 1943  
Started on TWw 7:20   
Out 2359`

Feb 19th Monday Diary

Home 00:22 
MDM pulled pork on buns n chips
Watched "Young Sheldon"
bed 0130

UP a couple times

UP 1705
Showered dressed packed 
Kissed Merry good bye
Car 1753
stopped for filters
Rolling from 7-11 1805
Office 1854

In  1900

Denny was here, but falling asleep in his chair, so I did most of the board work, updating  etc

Started to finish TWW 7:12
Out 0001

Feb 18th Sunday Diary

In bed  other than up to pee and poop

Finally up 11:30 
Shower dress pack 
new contact lens in
Kissed M good bye
Car 1230
Stopped for gas
Office 13:37
In 13:47    
doing set up for the next day
out 16:47
in 18;27
Watched TWW 7:3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11
OUT 23:27  HEADED home

Feb 17 Saturday diary

In bed all day, other than up to pee, blow my nose, poop

CD off  noon: between the pain in my groin every time I got a piss hard on, and the sinus headache, I couldn't take it anymore
Call it  156 hours
 Merry and Stitch went to Black Bear for dinner.

I ate Reese's peanut butter hearts.

Feb 16 Friday Diary

OTC  00:28
W  TWW  6:16-22, 7:1, 2, started 3
Out 6:02
   Home 7:10
Fed animals
MDM   stir fry 
Contacts OUT
Bed
In bed all day, feeling lousy

UP for dinner   fried chicken, jojo's, coleslaw

back to bed

Feb 15 Thursday Diary

In 0028
Watched TWW 6:9-14
then
Driver had 3:45 pick up in Thousand Oaks, and reported being in Calabasas with a flat tire in 3:30
had a driver at base, ready to go... I called the client and said we could be to her at 0415; she was okay with it,and driver made it at just that time.
Then I had to readjust a bunch of other work....
Out 6:04
Home 7:13
Fed animals.
MDM  Stir-fry and rice pilaf.
Bed 7;45, reading til 8:15
Up 11:00 morning wood and peed
UP 1500  morning wood and peed
up 1720  
Showered .... device fell off in the shower, 
Got out, dried, and reattached the device.

Dressed, prepped,   kissed Merry good bye.
Car 1800
Office 1939
In 19:44
  Did pm setup for Friday (total 76 rides).
  Watched TWW 6:15, started on 6:16 
Out 23:59

Valentine's day Wednesday

OTC  0028 to 0559
...home 716
Fed animals
Went in bedroom to wake up Merry (her suggestion) to prep my dinner.
She offered spanking.
I dropped my pants and went over her lap as she reclined in bed, and she whacked my bare bottom with a paddle some 20 times before Donna came in, barking like ...well, a dog  (shame on me for not closing the door.)
To the kitchen.
Merry heated up chicken and rice for me.
Ate at the dining room table ...
Bed 0830
Up a couple times ...with painful morning wood from needing to pee.
UP 1630, then 1640.
Showered n dressed.
Talked to Sunshine, razzed her about leaving the tv remote control mixed in with the sheets that she put in the washing machine.
In Stitch's room, door closed, pants down, she whacked my bottom with the stinger paddle, slowly 14 times (for the date) then rapidly 53 times (the number of months Merry and I have been married.
Car 1749
Office 1929
In 1935 to 2359
As of 20:00, hours locked up.

In honor of Valentine's Day

Here's a video we produced on V-Day, a few years ago.

Merry paddles Shilo on Valentine's Day

Feb 13th Tuesday diary

OTC  0028 TO 0600
cAR 610, home 714
Stitch was home and up, so animals fed.
MDM  lunchables, pb on crackers, chips ....
bedroom, changed clothes, in bd 8:20 
Made sure Sunshine was getting up.

awake 1040 ... they were gone....
back to sleep until ....

1630 up 
toilet shower dressed.
was wearing black jockstrap and socks, saw Merry in the living room. She said, "You ready?"
"Sure."
"Bedroom, FDAU."
I got ready, she came in with dogleg hairbrush, and smacked each of my cheeks some 25 times.
PIX here
out of shower, in chaswtity and spanked while FDAU

Packed and kissed her good bye
Car 1747  office 1919
IN 1928
20:00   72 hours in chastity
Out 23:59

Feb 12th Monday Diary

Home 00:20
Went upstairs, greeted Merry who was fixin' dinner.
Changed to pajama bottoms only.
Fetched the Big paddle, went to a chair, and presented myself.
She took a 'before' picture,
Then landed 24 swats.
She took a couple more pix.
I said,"Got time for more?"
She looked at the clock on the microwave, and reckoned she did, and added another 10 swats.
I took a couple selfies, while she prepped dinner.

Pix:  paddled-once-home-from-work-around-0100.html


We ate: steak n baked potato for me, steak n broccoli n bread for her, and watch one TBBT and one Young Sheldon.
Put away dishes, about to start another Young Sheldon when I saw that her eyes were closed, phone still in her hand.
I suggested she go to bed, and she did.
I found my pajama top and joined her.

Up 4:51, looking for something: found a Reese's cup... back to bed.

Up 830 to feed the animals.

Up 11:00; she was up before me.
Coffee
bill pay on the desk computer.
Reading...
She went back to bed.
I joined her 14:30
Awake 1545 to pee.
Up with alarm 1630
Showered n dressed.
Took pix of me in chastity.
pix  me-in-chastity-02-12-1700.html
Dressed.

Back in bedroom, griped about her not wanting to get up.
She beckoned me to her, motioned me to get over her lap.
First she whacked the seat of my tights with ... a book, then pulled my tights down and whacked the seat of my jock brief with the book, then yelled out to Stitch to bring a hairbrush, and corrected herself to say, "Paddle."
He brought Big Red, and she whacked my bottom a few times,
while Donna barked in complaint.

I kissed her, and went to living room for a couple selfies.
a-brief-spanking-212-1730.html

Packed, opened the bedroom door for the cat, and she said, since I was there, I could kiss her again.
I guessed that I could.
Then out the door.
Car 1743  office 19:11
In 19:16 ....
as of 20:00, 48 hours in chastity
out 23;59

Feb 11 Diary Sunday

We left the party 0100, stopped at Denny's to eat.
Home 0215,  more or less straight to bed.

I was up/awake  0800, 1000
Up 1100 while she was out, errands, having #2 son fix drivers side real turn signal.
Showered dressed  prepped  
Took selfies   
02-11-noon-me-in-chastity.html

Kissed good bye
Car 12:20  office 13:13  

in 13:22 -- 1809
as of 20:00, 24 hours in chastity
IN 1838 to 2341
Headed home
Sent Merry a text:
 "On the way home, thinking about something to wake and warm me up."
Her reply: "Mmmmm!"

Feb 10 Saturday diary

OTC 0001 to 0018
0048 to 701
Home
Found the battery pack, fixed the wifi-cable box problem
Prepped both toy bags...while spending some time looking for green medical bag.
MDM fried chicken and mojo's
Bed 1000

Awake 1630
Got Merry's help to trim my beard 
Then showered n dressed
Put myself in chastity, 20:00
I asked Merry about this earlier in the morning.
She was surprised but okay with it.
Seemed like 'about time'; I've masturbated 9 times since/including Feb 1.
Car 1945
Got screwed on directions, was in far left lane, when I needed to be in right lanes for the 57.
BUt we got to party  2020 or so, in time to listen to the final bits of Tie's speech about party regs.
Merry wanted to chat with others, and I was walking, feeling like a BM was working it's way out of me.
Got it out 2145, and looked for a play place.
Annoyed that some idiot had moved a small bench blocking a bigger bench, so nobody could get to it....
I wanted to use a table , but it was right between two guys using a stand up cross sort of thing, and another woman on a swing, with a crowd while she was doing large insertions.
About the time I checked with M about using the table, the woman on the swing was done, and we had room to maneuver.
I got prone on table, and M went about it, starting with a warm up on the seat of my Skimp Skamps, then taking those down and off me, and beating my bare with various.
She wanted my butt to be upper, so I shifted into FDAU, on the table, and she continued.
Then she had me shift to diaper, and she swatted between my thighs, on my taint, etc .
She tried some anal play, starting with two fingers, than she tried to insert a not-that-wide but kinda long dildo, and I said, it just hurt too much, my hole was out of practice.  She mentioned, it was kind of dirty anyway, and was happy to NOT continue.
She added a few more cane swats to my taint ... then was done.
I took a break ....
And she got ready, undressed and prone on her back on the table. 
I put wrist and ankle cuffs on her, and used neck ties to tie 'em to the table.
I applied my clit to her tongue.
I got out the big vibrator with dildo attachment and used that in and on her...
Then I put a glove on my right hand, and worked her pussy with two fingers, while sucking her clit with my mouth, and left hand on her left boob.
We both lost count of how many times she climaxed.
She caught her breath, I began cleaning up and putting things away.
Then we walked around or sat in the the kitchen or community room, just gabbing. 

Pictures are on my other blog, here are some links:

getting my beard trimmed

starting chastity on Feb 10

red bottom Feb 11 2 a.m.

red bottom feb 11, 11 am.

in chastity Feb 11

Feb 9th Friday diary

OTC 0028 to 0556
Effin rez agent was really late, and I got stuck on a complicated res call, and was late getting out
Car 602
Home 650 to pick up Stitch
Drop 708 LATE
on the way home, blew past my turn off, and when I woke up from my daydreaming, was past Cherry.
Turned around
Home 736
Half asleep on couch, 
Merry started texting.
I went in bedroom to talk
Some sleep'
Up   she was at desk computer
Snack on 2 lunchables, and chips
Back to bed 
While Merry was out getting Stitch, she made a deposit in Ch for me, went grocery shopping, filled the car with gas
She got home 1736
As I was getting up at 1745, because I did not have an alarm set for Friday
Shower dress pills pack 
Car 1816  stopped for filters office 1949
OTC  1958  to  0001 

Feb 8th Thursday Diary

OTC 0028 to 0540
Car 550 home 635, Stitch on board, dropped him 655, home 714
Fed animals ...Merry was still awake, she warmed up a bowl of chili for me
Bed 

up ?

Merry/Sunshine went to get Stitch at 1530, got gas, but no receipt, oh well

up 1705
showered dressed
Exchanged texts with Denny.
Dispatch Dre was history so worked out weekend schedule.
I get to work Friday 1930 ... and Sunday 13;30

Car 1820   office 1940
In 1947 to 2359
Kinda busy, with 13 car event but everything was covered, had to zig zag a bit, and do Friday pm set up.

Wednesday Feb 7th Diary

OTC 0028 to 0546
Car 552
Stopped for gas ... which was comedic, because I wanted to pay cash at an Arco, but there was a sign on the door, "out to lunch back in 30 minutes", so I spent time in my car transferring money from Stitch's account to HH then to me, by which time the attendant had returned.... but what the hell, I used the debit card anyway.
Then stopped for filters, and on the way home
Smooth on the 101, but as soon as I hit the 5... accident blocking right lane, so it was dead slow til I passed it ... then onto the 710 which was dead slow, due to an accident near the 405.
Merry called at 7:30, worried about me....
Home 7:38
Put some laundry away.
MDM  chicken n rice
in bed, reading til 0930
And the handyman arrived, to clear our bathtub drain, so Stitch was able to take a shower followed by Merry, then they went away to get Stitch to a PT appointment.

Awake 1330 when Merry came in the bedroom
Awake 1500
Up 1701
Showered dressed prepped  kissed M good bye
Car 1753
Office 1935
IN 1943 ....
Just me n Denny; quiet enough  with Denny doing prep for a 20 vehicle event on Thursday.
OUT 2359

February 6th, Tuesday Diary

OTC 0010
Watched TWW 5:21,22, 6 1:7
Out 5:40

Car 5:48, home to pick up Stitch 6:30, dropped Stitch 6;50, home 7:07
Fed Donna, as cat had been fed by Stitch
Changed clothes
Went to bed
Up 1000 pee n snack (lunchables)
bed
up 1400  Lunchables again, and called Rental office regarding stopped up shower        p'ped
Bed
Awakish 1515
Sleep 1600 to 1730
Up  dressed  pill packed
Kissed Merry  good bye,  nearly breaking my neck in process of getting to the bedside, while tripping over power strip
Car 1803   office 19:25
In 19:32 to 2359

Watched nothing while update blog entries

Feb 5th Monday diary

OTC from 0000
w TWW 4:20-23, then 5:1, 2
Out 0530
Home 6:26  took Stitch to work  (642)
stopped for gas
Home 7:10
Fed animals
Very tired, straight to bed.

Up 10:00 pee n   snack, lunchables with peanut butter
Up 1200 and 1400  
Up 1700
shower dressed  kissed M good bye
Car 1748 office 19:03
In 1910 
 Slow...as usual lately
Watched TWW 5:17
Out 2340

in 00;10 
Wrote a Journal entry  
Had an email exchange with Merry about it.

Feb 5th Journal trying to figure things out in my head

WHAT is wrong with me?

I mean, besides being overweight, being pre diabetic, having high blood pressure, being somewhat gluten intolerant, being stressed from wondering if my company will be in business tomorrow, wondering how we'll pay our bills this month....

So, besides all that.

I know I like spanking.  More than 'like', I obsess over it. Or rather, I obsess over the image in my head of being spanked.  

It's not like I'm alone in the world, lacking any kind of way of actualizing the images.

My wife, Merry, is -- would be -- happy to spank me ... anytime I'd suggest it.  She enjoys the activity almost as much as I do. Maybe as much. It's difficult to put a numerical comparison on things such as this.

Yet, I do NOT suggest it. I decline her offers when she suggests the activity, having gone so far as to tell her to NOT suggest it at all, ever, again, until I tell her that I'm ready.

And still, I spend quiet nights at work looking at images, gifs, video clips, of guys being spanked ... by male or female, I don't care.  
And I fantasize.   I wistfully think, "Wish it were me."   
I make up stories, with me on the receiving end of a hard spanking.

Then, I leave work in the morning, images dancing in my head, thinking, "This will be the morning that I suggest some activity."
And I get home, and I pee, again, and feed the animals, and check on her, and either she is sound asleep, or Sunshine is awake, playing games on her phone ...
And I change my mind. 
I eat somethin', maybe watch t.v., and go to bed, usually next to her, and go to sleep, while fantasizing about being spanked.

I feel like  I'm punishing myself by depriving myself of an enjoyable activity.
Just as feel like I'm punishing her in the same way.

If so, it is NOT intentional. 

I'm at a loss as to how to break this pattern.

Feb 4th, Sunday Diary

Awake many times to pee n poop

Denny called 12ish, said there was an physical altercation, early morning at the office, could I cover the coming overnight shift?
I got up had coffee, called him back, said, yeah, I'll go in sometime after the game.
poop

Sunshine was up and out.  Had a movie date that she cancelled due to her own tummy distress.

Watched The Puppy Bowl

pooped

Watched The Super Bowl
read Sunday newspaper

Played HQ at halftime

Dinner  Stir fry n rice

Took pills
tried to nap.
Could not get Netflix off of the bedroom tv.  Gonna have to call somebody about it.
Talked to Sunshine about job stress. IE  stressing about maybe having to look for a job, because Diva seems to be heading downhill fast.

Gave up, when I had to poop n pee again
Showered dressed packed
Kissed Sunshine good bye
Car 2056
Stopped for filters
Office 2146
In 2152
 off to poop again.
50 rides for Sunday, starting with 70 for Monday.

Watched TWW 4:19

Feb 3rd, Saturday diary

UP 1000 ish
Dressed    coffeee
With Stitch 7.5 bags of cans loaded in car
Off to recycling place near CSULB
Scored $40 n change
Local library for tax forms...nope, not yet
to local PO on Bellflower,    Nope
to another PO on Anaheim ...nope
To WF near house to deposit cash
HOme 12:11
My right knee cap snapped or popped heading up the stairs, leaving in a lot of pain, and eliminating some 'interesting' plans/ideas that we had for the afternoon
Coffee n coffee cake
Stretched out on couch, reading from phone.
and watched The West Wing via Netflix on tv
Season 4 5-17

Dinner  chili n cheese

bed 2300

Feb 2nd, Friday Diary

Watched TWw 3:21, 22, 23  then 4:1-4
OTC  00:28 to 551
CAR 606 HOME 656
mdM  chili n cheese
watched Criminal Minds

Bed

UP 1600 or so
Watched X-files, Magnificent Seven
Dinner   stir fry n rice

bed 2230

February 1st, Thursday Diary

In 00:28
Finished TWW 3:3, then 3:6, 7, 10, 11, 12
Out 537
Safely home 6:43    sleep driving on the way
Directly to bed
Up 10:00 to pee and eat something  (pb and crackers)
awake 1300
and 1630
and up 1740
Showered dressed packed  pills
Kissed M goodbye
Car 1824
Stopped for filters, rolling 1832
Office 1947
In 1951  hurried to p**p
Watched TWW 3:15, 20
OUT 00:00

Funniness

Wednesday January 31 Diary

OTC  0028
Watched VBP 2:3, 4
then TWW 2:11, 12, 17-20
Out 542

Stopped for $15 gas

Home 6:44
Fed dog n cat
MDM  baked chicken n chips
Watched a TBBT ep, started on another
Merry heard it, came out of the bedroom to watch.
Sat on couch, and within 60 seconds was griping about Donna licking a peanut butter jar, and drooling on her.
I didn't want to hear it, and turned off the bedroom and retreated to bedroom.
SHe came in, and asked if we could continue the BBT ep, and I said okay.
THen sleep 0800

UP 1030 
1330
1600 
Alarm 1700, upright 1715  showered n dressed
poop  packed poop
Kissed her goodbye
Car 1751
Played HQ at 1800 on the way to work
Office 1918
In 1926 and poop

Watched TWW 2:21, 23,  then 3:2, started 3:3
Out 2359